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Guest Kristy

Hi everyone, I just woke up. So I figured I could post for my first time at this site.

well I guess saying my name won't matter at all, I'm 15, soon 16.

I really don't struggle alot with being a MTF, but sometimes I get emotionaly and need someone to talk to.

been having this problem most of my life. but since I was 9-12 I noticed I did't like to be a boy.

and at 13 I made my mind up. I want to be a girl. though I've always wanted to be, but due to risks I really needed to be ready to start all this.

And the first one I ever said it to, was my big sister. and that was 6 months ago.

and I've met a psyciatrist in the field that I met every 2th week. only met him once but I'll met him again in 2 days.

but that real life test I guess is kind of easy for me, but I'm not a kind of girl that wears pink and dresses all the time. I'd like to wear dresses when it's something important. but I rather wear normal girl cloths. anyhow the cloths only make the illusion of being a girl. the test as I see it, is more about being one. if you just wear the cloths your a transvestite not a transexual. makeup too, but I don't mind some. but not too much.

like when I pee I sit, easy as that, not because looking alike, I do it because I like it more, more comfy. also always wanted long hair.

but since I kind of were looked as a boy, I never get to have it. until now. and I love it <3

I guess I kind of look like a girl already, but I want more then that. I want breasts and everything that comes with the hormones.

I got small hands too, I'm really lucky. and yeah I want to take the Sex Reassignment Surgery. even though some risks.

but that's a chance I need to take. also hormones brings risks. but I'm healthy, and skinny <3

and I'm really fast, I'm slow and easily exhausted in the start. but after 15mins of walking, I can start running for hours, leaping down hill and over stuff.

15 has been the worste year for me. both coming out and having a personality problem. and I've been busy with school and skills.

I play the guitar, piano and I also sing and draw. and I needed good grades from my school to apply for the schools I wanted, they required over average grades. and I've actually been accept to one already, but I've it on hold. want to get into the musican lines. and I've almost made it.

just waiting <3 also back to transexualism. I've always thought I was gay, and I've been really scared if I was because I did't want to be.

but no attraction to girls anyways. I like boys <3, but I did't want it as gays do. but since I already thought of being a girl. that kind of made up my mind.

also I'll be a girl not a transwoman, or transgirl. when I've done surgery and I can afford it too ''yeay'' with my own money.

that I'll just not become a woman just yet. not until I reatch 30. also I've keep it safe and not tell anyone that I've been a boy, not literly, always been a girl kind of, but I had wrong gender... but morally I want to tell someone I've been with for atleast 1 year. and being accepted by that will make me love him even more. but the rest of the world will never know. exept friends/familiy that knows now. don't want to be called transwoman...

don't like it, just girl. for that is what I really am. also with my personality problem, I compared myself as a girl character from a anime.

and it did work. now I'm somewhat alike just that I'm real.

that's enough, sorry to all that reads this nightmare of a text. I got alot on my heart. HEY ALL!!! by the way :P

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Guest Elizabeth K

WOW

Some introduction! You said a lot in that - most here have those exact feelings and you will be able to look around and read all about it. The real test is to be diagnosed, and due to your age, you would be treated a little differently that an adult. Well in the USA anyway. So the trick is to manage how you feel until you are allowed to be diagnosed and given options.

Anyway

WELCOME WELCOME WELCOME to Laura's Playground!

You are allowed to look and post anywhere, but don't miss the Teen Forum. The young people there are really smart and ready to help.

We moderate this site to keep it clean and protected. People are NOT judgemental here and are very friendly.

So glad to meet you! post and post and post

Lizzy

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Welcome to Laura's.

It is a very safe place and a great place for asking questions and making friends.

Sit down and get comfy and I'll bring you some hot cocoa and a plate of fresh baked cookies.

Welcome to the family and be sure to get involed in all of the discussions.

Love ya,

Sally

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Guest Kristy

yea... I said alot, and I'm happy to meet you too ;)

my feelings are intact but I don't talk about them all at once to the psyciatrist ... :rolleyes:

but It's free to talk to him. for me because I'm young and he'll belive me sooner or later.

and to be honest I do look girly <3

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Guest Kristy

Love ya too xD

and I'll ask alot of questions. won't be needin this account when I'm done with surgery. but before I leave the site I can always tell about... how it went.

considered I have decided :rolleyes:

I'm just talkin alot too the psyciatrist, met him only once, but next time in two days I'll suprise him with giving answears to all.

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Guest Donna Jean

Hey, Honey....

Welcome to the Playground...

Hey, Sweetie...it sounds as though you have a plan...that's very good!

So many of us just flail blindly at this thing, that we have, without a sense of direction!

So good for you!

Good luck,

Donna Jean

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Guest Christy.dancer

First.... HEY!!! from another Christy!

Welcome to the forum. I'm 17 (my birthday's in January) and I've been thru a LOT of the same stuff you're going thru. My family has been fairly accepting, and it sounds like yours has been, too. You're very lucky -- a lot of the girls here don't get that sort of family support.

Visiting the psychiatrist (or counselor, or therapist) is REALLY important. If he or she is any good (and mine is great!), the visits will help you work out who YOU are. I've learned not to try to fit myself into someone else's mold of what a girl (or trans-girl, or whatever) is supposed to be, but to learn who I am.

If I can help you with your journey, please just ask.

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Guest Kristy
Hey, Honey....

Welcome to the Playground...

Hey, Sweetie...it sounds as though you have a plan...that's very good!

So many of us just flail blindly at this thing, that we have, without a sense of direction!

So good for you!

Good luck,

Donna Jean

Good to know, thanks and ye, hardest bit most be love and sex for me.

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Guest Kristy
First.... HEY!!! from another Christy!

Welcome to the forum. I'm 17 (my birthday's in January) and I've been thru a LOT of the same stuff you're going thru. My family has been fairly accepting, and it sounds like yours has been, too. You're very lucky -- a lot of the girls here don't get that sort of family support.

Visiting the psychiatrist (or counselor, or therapist) is REALLY important. If he or she is any good (and mine is great!), the visits will help you work out who YOU are. I've learned not to try to fit myself into someone else's mold of what a girl (or trans-girl, or whatever) is supposed to be, but to learn who I am.

If I can help you with your journey, please just ask.

Well at first my mom were really not accepting it, but now it seem like she does. I don¨t know fo¨sure but she tries atleast.

also my Psychiatrist has this as his field, hes been doing this a long time, and his good.

and yea... I¨ll ask if I need help. Norway ftw! you know cause I don¨t need to pay alot for surgery.

oh... I think I¨m more like emo cloths wearing cute girl style :rolleyes:

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Guest Kristy
Welcome to the playground, Kristy!

Hope you enjoy your stay ^_^

-Nicolai

I hope I will :P ...

And thanks for the welcome, Politeness is really important here I guess :rolleyes:

not really me... but I guess this is an exception <_<

anyways Love and stuff from me with an capital L

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