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Do You Ever Wish You Could Just Pick?


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Guest Javey

One thing thats been bobbing around in my head for a while is the fact that i go back and fourth so much between feeling male and feeling female, then feeling like both or like i don't really want much to do with gender at all. I wish i could just settle on one. Female, if i could really choose, seeing as I've got that already. That'd sure save some money medical attention wise.

I always get jealous watching girly girls. I'm sure, watching a group of them somewhere in a public place that they've all got silly little things about their body their super self contious about, but at least its not their anatomy as a whole. I wish i could be like that, not care about my gender. Focus on other silly things. Things that aren't really all THAT important, that don't bring discrimination and pain.

But at the same time, i think this whole thing is a little cool. Androgynous? That's real originality. I don't see that walking down the street often. It makes me unique in a way nothing else really can. So i guess i kind of have a love/hate relationship with the whole ordeal, ahaha.

idk, sometimes I just wish i could be 'normal', whatever that really is.

I was just curious though, does anyone else ever wish they could settle on one gender?

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Guest April63

I think you're a lot like me. If I could just be one of the other, and not have any problems questioning my gender, I would do it. Male or female. Just a normal male or a normal female.

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Guest darlene lynn

Javey

Great question...cause Ive always thought of my self as MTF..But as Ive aged 53yrs old now .Im tring to settle on both genders..I know that sounds crazy but Ive grown up in a male body and feeling female..And now Im not sure for me transition is totally the right answer..Because Ive been both so long that changing my body wont change my way of thinking.. Because Im afraid Ill feel the same things only be on the other side of the gender Question So Im working hard to satify both. Im pretty happy with most things in my life now..But great question!!!

LOL

Darlene Lynnette

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Guest rachael1

I'm not androgyne but I consider myself to have both male and female aspects. I wouldn't change this for anything as then I would no longer be me.

Under other circumstances in another lifetime if I had to chose, then I would definately pick female. Yippee.

Hugs

Rachael

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Guest Deeedoo

I don't really care about easy. I like to be what I am, even if it's confusing to other people. I get to experience a combination of things that no male or female can. I would never choose to pick, just like I would never get rid of my Autism.

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Guest Ryles_D

I don't think so- then I wouldn't be me. But it would be a lot easier, so I can definitely understand it. I spent a year trying to be male, that didn't work at all.

Instead I wish people were more knowledgeable/accepting of other genders, so it wouldn't be a big deal if you aren't male or female.

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I think that we all wish that people would just accept us for who we really are.

Love ya, just the way you are,

Sally

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Guest androgynous

Nah, I don't want to settle for one gender. It's doesn't comfort me at all, because eh, androgynous! :lol: whats in a name right? ^_^ It just came from one gender, and that bothered me so much that if I go over the edge towards a female I would not be happy also, I just know it.

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Guest Thorndrop

Yeah, sounds like me. I like who I am and I like being androgynous and being able to express myself in that way, but it really annoys me when people try to change me and make me 'normal'. All through high school I had girly girls trying to make me have a makeover or trying to tell me some 'cute' hairstyles that would look good on me, but it just gets on my nerves because I don't want to look like that because it's not who I am. They think I'm weird, but I like being original. I do wish I could be 'normal' sometimes though, just so I could fit in and relate to people better. As a girl or a guy - it doesn't matter, but now I feel like some awkward in-between where I'll never be completely happy being either gender, which makes me uncomfortable with my body.. So yeah, it's hard I know, but try to focus on the good side - you're original and can be yourself, and that helps give you confidence if you go out looking androgynous and people accept it.

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Guest Colormyworld

If I could, I would in a heart beat!!

I like when I can accept that I'm female. The times I feel like a girl, I feel pretty settled since my mindset matches my body.

I also LOVE feeling like a boy, even though my interests, humor, personality is all pretty much the same as when I can accept female, I love feeling like a BOY with these interests!! The only downside to that part of me is, while I feel GREAT inside, I'm in a girl's body. Nothing will ever change that, unless I can be re-born in a boy's body. I will never be seen as the type of boy I want to be seen as. I want to be a girly boy, but yet still people think BOY.

I think if it weren't for the body, I would be completely happy 100% of the time as a boy, just another semi-fem boy! I see my female side as just an acceptance of how I was born. I'm never "OMG I love my female body" just like "Yeah, whatever I'm female" I unno.. it's all quite confusing!

So basically, I like both the female me and the male me, so overall I am happy with both sides of me, and even if I had female bits, but I had a more masculine looking body from the outside (less hips, less breasts as long as I could bind them and look decent, and less super feminine face, those are the big things, I'd be happy with just those! LOL), I think I would be completely happy, as I could actually LOOK the part of either male or female depending on how I feel inside! I'd be happy with that!! Or just give me a completely male body with this mindset, that would work, too!! I'd rather be male with this mindset than female! haha (I know, it's weird, but that doesn't seem to bother me, but then again I don't have to live that either...)

But if I could magically make me completely happy being a girl all the time, and not have any of that dysphoria about this stupid body that comes around when I feel male, I'd do it! Just so I could live my life completely happy with myself!!

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Guest Kerasa

I totally wish I could pick sometimes, but I would find my choice rather odd(mabye), as in I would pick both(not one or the other but both). Then again, I guess it wouldn't be odd cause that's what I feel like most of the time. If it wasn't for my skin constantly turning two-toned and slightly wide shoulders drawing attention away from my slender shape, I would totally pick female(my mom wanted a daughter when she was pregnant with me). It depends I guess.

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Guest Charlene_Leona

If I could of picked what I was I would always go girl, I never fit in the male role ever. I just shot my best friend from schools wedding and when his Mom And Sister figured out who the photographer was they told me that they always thought I was gay. I never tried to act that way I was just being me a boy who always wanted to be a girl. I remember looking through catalogs and sale adds only looking at the female clothing wishing I were a girl and wanting all that stuff that I just could not have.

Now that I've gotten 3/4 of the way through transition I wouldn't go back, I'm happier than I have ever been in my entire life. I love myself and that's really what we all should strive for.

For when we find personal love, what other's think no longer matters.

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I don't really care about easy. I like to be what I am, even if it's confusing to other people. I get to experience a combination of things that no male or female can. I would never choose to pick, just like I would never get rid of my Autism.

Same! I'm a female and am now more comfortable being a female than I used to be, but I still wish I were male quite often. I definitely agree with you, Javey, about not being able to relate to the other girly-girls and almost wanting to on some level. All my life I've wanted to be "normal," whatever that is. Yet, as with my autism, I don't think I would actually want to get rid of it. I get to see the world in such a different way and I think that will lead to great things. It's just hell getting through the day to day, haha. So often I wish I could just be a normal girl or have been born a normal boy or that I were a neurotypical....but, the world is so much more interesting this way and the challenges that I've faced (that we've all faced) have made us strong.

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Guest childofwinter

I think it's part of me, and so I wouldn't change it, unless there was a third gender that was just as accepted by society and maybe even had it's own sex just like male and female - then I would change to that third gender.

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