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Hello im Flay-ke xD(Brian J.A.Y) (thats my nickname i feel unconfortable being called my name so i made this.)

I'm new to this forum

My personality is Excitement, Down to earth, Crazy,and Dead, Friendly(when happy)

I've lived a very dramatic life and had my ups and downs moments wanting to be a girl since 7 now 14.

I'm so depressed that i say "Can i die now" more than 20 times a day. I turned crazy and couldn't control myself

I became the personally i most hated because of this depression, instead of being nice and rating

people by personality i rated by appearance, i became a complete jerk to people because of hating myself.

Now i found a way to not be mean. It was to wear earphones and not listen to myself, but how can that lead to happiness i happen to cry at night because that is when my toughts come back up after i take off my earphones.

I tryed growing out my hair to become happy. Yes it worked, i had choppy bangs, but i ended up cutting it when my mom told me to do so. i seriously wished i told my mom i'm a girl before i ended up trying to hold my cry when my sister cut my hair into a faux hawk styled hair.(wow i keep talking about hair)

Basically what i do for fun is make music with Brian( yes we have the same name ), and watch videos on youtube on how to do your hair. Sometimes i sing to the songs we made, but that was when i was a kid about 8-10 before puberty when i has a high voice. Then i stopped and my mom was pretty worried she missed when i used to sing karaoke with the family.

My coming out story was pretty weird in many ways. I was sleeping/crying in bed and it was 7pm i didn't eat b-fast, nor lunch, and my mom locked me in my room intill i say what was my problem. I never had the courage or bravery to say it so i wrote a one paragraph essay to my mom. Somehow deep inside i became really happy that i was being completely honest to my mom for once. Just by doing this i really improve my grades massively from C during unhappiness days to A/B student.

I don't Know about my future but i know i will be a very successful girl

OK, that mostly explains me. I hope your not mad about reading all this... i like talking

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Guest Emily Violet

hi welcome to the forums more people will be by to greet you espicially some ladies with cookies and tea so feel free to make yourself at home everyone is really nice here

*huggs*

Emily

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Guest Alyssa Leigh

Hi Brian

Welcome to the playground everyone is so nice here, so make yourself at home and more will be by soon to greet you.

Alyssa

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Guest jamielynn

Hi Brian,nice to meet you and welcome you are in the right place to talk about how you feel and get any questions you have answerd and alot of nice people who are willing to listen and to help.Huggs Jamie

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Guest Donna Jean

Hello, Brian!

Well, here I come with the coco and cookies! Feel free to dig right in!

So, you like music? I do, too and I play guitar!

I'm glad that you have started making friends already and you seem like you'll fit right in!

So, get yourself all settled in and comfortable.

It's really nice to have you, Hon!

Welcome to the Playground!

HUGG

Donna Jean

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Hey, welcome to the forums!

You will find a lot of musicians here, I'm a trumpet player myself.

Come on in and enjoy yourself, ask questions and make freinds

We are all here to support each other so welcome to the family.

Love ya,

Sally

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Hey, Brian, welcome to Laura's. This is a great place to meet great people, learn important stuff, learn silly stuff,

have fun and share your thoughts. We especially like the "share your thoughts" part, so don't be shy.

Look around, join in some chat, and make yourself at home.

Carolyn Marie

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Guest ~Brenda~

Dearest Flay,

Yes!! hon!! Talk, Talk, and talk some more hon!! You never have to feel that you are talking too much!! You are making great strides and I do hope that your family helps you to move forward into realizing your true gender!!!

Welcome hon, and continue to post to the forums!!!

You will continue to learn as we get to know you!!!

HUGS and Love Sweetie

Brenda

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