Looking Back

[Sally]

Looking Back

By Sally Michelle Jackson

I have a pretty good memory but just not for dates

I couldn’t tell you which Christmas I first got skates

I don’t know the actual date or the time

That I knew I was a girl for the first time

I remember when they first separated us in school

I knew I was on the wrong side of this stupid rule

I remember the first time that I slipped on a simple pair of hose

Feeling the nylon against my skin I must have more of those

And then when I moved from just occasionally wearing stockings

To my wearing pantyhose the family would have found it shocking

Now on to panties and next even bras and skirts

The longer without them the more that it hurts

I thought all along how great it would be

To have a girl’s body and still be me

But in those days with no knowledge around

The only peace for me was in dreaming I found

So all through each day and all through the night

My dreams were a woman’s and all seemed right

But I played my role and I played it so well

That I get such disbelief from all that I tell

So I have waited so long

To right this terrible wrong

Some would say it is to late

But I will not accept that fate

I found the one cure for my condition

It has a name it is called a transition

I have used the right channels and will alter my body’s chemistry

And after that change one day maybe even the amazing surgery

But the biggest change of all has taken place for me

That was accepting myself and becoming the true me

These were just some of my thoughts as the moment is arriving at last.

Moday is the day for me to see my doctor and get that little piece of paper that goes to the pharmacy - that one that I have longed for ever since I heard it was possible to alter my body to match my mind and my soul.

Love ya,

Sally

[Guest darlene lynn]

Great poem

Again You've captured the essence of my past in your words. In your words I find hope for my future.

I tend to create my poetry during bouts of depression. But I draw inspiration from your words..

Thank You

LOL

Darlene Lynnette

[Guest ~Brenda~]

Tragically.. yes, I know all to well the shock of people after "you" played the role so well.

What can I say... other than this Sally, you are walking through the next doorway towards yourself.

I wish you all of the success in your transition. As you may know by now... it is never too late.

I am going to mark July 20th as a special holiday for me and all of us at Laura's. The day that Sally took the very big step towards herself.

HUGS and Love sweetie.

Brenda

[Guest Donna Jean]

Some would say it is to late

But I will not accept that fate

How right you are, Sweetheart.......

The only time that it's too late is when you're dead...

As long as you have a breath of air....you can make a change...

I do love you so much, Sally...

And I'm thinking of tomorrow....

I know that it will be late when you are done and the time zone thing and me going to bed early thing....

But, I'll be right there with you.....so, scoot over.....

LOVE

Donna Jean