https://www.advocate.com/opinion/kevin-jennings-trans-rights-ruling     Carolyn Marie

My love was a child of winter solstice Her numbers add up to 666 She comforts me with sorrow And caresses me with pain She’s a cruel, cruel mistress Crying is in vain   My love left me the 15th of August She rose away like the Virgin Mary did Still she shelters me in shadows And washes all my sins with rain She brings a tender kind of light That can numb the pain  

i dont even know at this point... shes always told me whenever im not happy that its just my bipolar talking. ive been pumped with so many unnecessary meds that its almost insane.

@Jayne YvonneWelcome to the forums. You will be surprised by the number of introductions that are made by folks transitioning late in life. It's as if we're copying off of each other. "In the 1960's 70's we didn't have a clue that we weren't alone in our feelings." I knew there was something different about me, and thought my body went through the wrong puberty. I masked it by doing everything hyper masculine and became an adrenaline junky taking on high risk activities as hobbies. Then as I approached my mid-sixties, I decided to follow my true inner self.   I hope you find these forums as useful and beneficial as I have.    Hugs 🌈🐛🏳️‍⚧️🦋💖   

I'm so happy for you @April Marie!! There are warnings about starting P before reaching Tanner stage 3, as it matures cells and stops further development. It is a hit and miss drug anyway, so no guaranteed benefit.    Keep living your best life!   Hugs,   Allie

I write LOADS before hand, but, IN therapy, I struggle to SPEAK.  For me, saying things out loud is entirely bewilderingly alien. 

Honestly this is the weirdest thing. I quote often go into therapy thinking "ive got nothing to talk about" and still manage to full the session in no time 😂

I *hope* it will end up being useful.  I just don't like *this* feeling. 

I'm sorry it didn't go well, Toli. I still think even "bad" days in therapy can end up being beneficial, eventually, somehow. I hope this one will.

LOL! 

I always encourage creative outlets. Way to look after yourself, @Jamma.

If you say so but im keeping my eyes on you ha ha

It is ALL chocolate cake.  I don't like chocolate. Plus, working out makes my body really not want sugar and so on. (honestly, it really works)

we're here for you Toli and please eat the cake responsebly 

I write a lot. He even explained that, for me, the writing is where the work of therapy gets done, because Ireally am very bad at being able to speak out loud. Which helps me feel a bit better for sending him a lot of writing.    Therapy is like that. Sometimes it's connective and works, and sometimes you just feel like you are missing each other. I am booked for next week, so, fingers crossed can have a better week.    I have a whole day of tattooing tomorrow, so...

Oh no Toli im so sorry   would it help if you wrote down your thoughts before hand like a script?

yay for the cute skirt!  And also for gifts for friends. I like to do that too. 

Not a great therapy day today.  largely my fault. I suck at talking about myself, which is a tiny problem in therapy.  SO I feel a bit flat and annoyed with myself.  My son has had a wonderful day at Wimbledon.  I bought a birthday cake, but not THE birthday cake. 

Glad to see you hanging in there Jamma.     

New new  as the above was meant to be posted Sunday*   Ive thrown myself into some art and making some gifts for a few friends so im feeling a lot better today. Ive got therapy tomorrow so will talk about everything then but being creative and making things for friends has a way of soothing the soul haha   Onwards and upwards. I bought a majorly cute skirt so ill give that a go to ease back in haha