well I finally stopped changing to boymode to take mom out. told her I was trans on Friday n that I would no longer do boymode   she said nothing   I left. next day texted how are you etc ..no response   I texted siblings n was advised she needs some privacy, boundaries n doesn't wish to see or be seen with you, nor do i...   done. count me out. don't call or write.    if you see me bleeding, just keep walking -censored-   all in the name of God.   so sad, hurt, angry, disappointed n alone..why wake up tomorrow? this sucks..we love you if oh but not that.   .2 weeks ago we chatted about cher supporting her son chaz as then chastity said she was trans..n moms reaction was of course she loved her it was still her child..guess that doesn't count when it's really here at home.    a..holes   sorry sorry   lesson reminder, there's a reason we keep secrets...because some people are narrow minded hurtful jerks.   hope your experiences are better  

Just watched/listened to a 2018 Tiny Desk concert by the Breeders as it's Kim and Kelley Deal's BD.  They sounded great.

7 mths out now and doing great still doing 2 times a day and still have my 6 inches of depth....just having a lube issue the thinner lubes will cause my vagina to cease up after and next dialation will be hard to do found one that was working had aloe in it a month in and it started grabbing my dialator and hard to get out so went back to surgilube which is what I've used since dialation just can't use this lube for sex cause it gets sticky also after a while so stillnworking on that other wise doing fine hair removal down there is hard cause don't want to mess up and cut myself use a electric razor and seemsnto work can't wait till I can do electrolysis again down there to get rid of the rest pain wise didn't have much took pain meds a couple of times after surgery but used tylenols more at least I fit in my panties right now.....giggle 

The one word I haven't seen in this discussion is "bullying".

@Ivy my wife wasn’t surprised either, but she had known about the crossdressing since about a month after we first met.    And yes, the bit about being happy. I knew I was sad and frustrated and frequently angry, but I thought I was happy enough. I thought our relationship was happy. But our relationship is so much happier now. And so am I.

https://thebullamarillo.com/kanagroo-amarillo-i40/   Now we have cars hitting kangaroos in Texas? 😲

And so begins my official last week of work for the company I’ve spent 10 years at; the longest I’ve worked anywhere by double. You could say it’s the first day of working toward our move as well. Come to me coffee…!

This is true. As for the violence, while provoking violence is not the physical act itself, I think the provoker shares responsibility.  Are the words themselves "violence"?  I don't see much point in the distinction.  The intent is there.

This was how was for me as well.  I didn't like it when we split, but it was for the best.  And that freed me up enough to look into the parts of me I had avoided for years. We also are still friends.  She was one of the first people I talked to about it, and she was not surprised at all. And in my case, our kids were adults by then, so that wasn't an issue either. I honestly don't know what I would have done had I still been married, and had young kids.  Possibly, stayed in the closet.  I thought I was happy.  It wasn't until my egg cracked that I realized what happy was.

Opening Visual Studio Listening to Allentown

It seems there is the hateful type of misgendering and then the innocent type.  The hateful type I do my best to ignore.  The innocent type is more interesting.  It's a mirror of how I'm presenting my gender.  Or an innocent mistake.  As with a mirror, perhaps I'm just having a bad hair day?

OMG it's Monday!

I'll be posting a topic about this shortly, I'll be sharing my experiences.

Waking up alone, doing some coding....

Good morning everyone,    Today is the day we trade in our camper trailer for another one just a few feet longer, and two separate bedrooms with queen beds. Once we get it home then we have this evening and all day tomorrow to load it up for departure on Wednesday morning.    Parker update he’s doing well with short leash training and moved onto long leash work. He has also learned not to be afraid of the trash truck.    I hope you have a wonderful day.  Happy Monday.   Mindy🌈🐛🏳️‍⚧️🦋

I’m just going to put my two cents in here for a different perspective. I consider myself lucky that my wife and I broke up before I decided to transition, so I didn’t feel any guilt at all over it. I also prefer the relationship we have now to the one we had when we were married. We adore each other same as we always did, but purely as friends, or sisters, not as lovers. Again, I’m an outlier here, but part of the reason why that is possible is that I’m no longer sexually interested in women, so I’m neither jealous of her boyfriend nor romantically hung up on her. And one last caveat: we never had kids. I still love her sons, and they love me, but it’s not the same as if they were my own.   Long story short: I love our relationship more than ever, and I know she does too.

Good morning   Ans we have a winner!  Yes @KathyLauren that is the Pride Tartan. Again given to me by my son for Pride Month!   Well, yesterday was quite the day.  Up early enough to go to church and be late to work about 1 hour thanks to my Manager.  I know we aren’t exactly friends but I really like her and we get along great.  Being easily dragged down into paranoia she is just the kind of kind boss I need.  Knowing she had been there for 8 hours alone, I brought her a five guys hamburger.  She was thankful for that.   we had a call out again yesterday.  And she couldn’t come up with anyone from any store to come help.  So she left me with a first day trainee.  And a “are you sure?” When I told her I could handle it.  After all, Sundays are quiet days.  Boy was I wrong.  8 hours of steady customers.  I (we) did $5500 of business on 1 register with over 50% cash and had a 1% error at the end of the day.  And topping that all off I got checked (and passes) a test on age checking.  Now I call that a busy day.  To do that much business while training a new person and all the rest and end my 8 hours like that, I may not be able to do it every day but I pulled up my big girl panties and got er done.  We were extra busy for a Sunday because it was a beautiful day, and the last day of our Country Music Festival with Maria Cary performing.   i have to take Sweetie my lab/Australianshepard mix out.  She is talking to me then it’s back to work and do it all over again.   Willow   ps nothing in our store is more than about $20 that’s a lot of stuff to be hand scanned.     

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