Be kind to yourself, you're worthy

For me. I seem to do it too much

The cracks are getting much bigger.

Had a great night out last night went to a country pub that let owners take their dogs in so along came lu lu. We are blessed with another sunny day.  

Congratulations Wisp. What a wonderful feeling. I'm so happy for you.

@awkward-yet-sweet good morning,  my problem is we don’t have a key organizer like hooks on a wall somewhere.  Consequently, if I don’t attach them to my purse I walk out without something. And if I just set them down, well that’s why each set has an iTag.  I suppose physically attached to my purse might make that easier to grab but so far nothing like that has ever happened to me.  At the same time I am pretty careful about where I go.   cant leave home without my work keys, you never know when you might get a call that something happened and I need to go in, like the night some people were walking in after hours because the closer forgot to lock the door and I met the police in my pjs.  Or when someone else forgot their key and I’m the closest.  I was worse, I had keys for three stores for a while. And I’m one of the first called to cover temporarily when someone else forgot one gets fired.  That’s happened a few times.

When she left like she did, I felt really abandoned.  Its the worst...the #1 thing she's not supposed to do.  I haven't interacted with her much since she returned last week.  Its a big reason why I ran away for the weekend, and I kinda wish I could keep doing it.    I finally let her touch me tonight.  It has been over a month without physical contact, and I'm in a weird place where I miss it but I also don't want it.  Part of me wants to curl up in her lap, the other part wants to scream at her.  I still haven't returned to sleep next to her in our nest.  My husband missed her like crazy, so she's right next to him in her usual spot.  I moved back to curling up with my sister.   Just a thought - do you need to carry the keys all at the same time?  That has to be kind of annoying.  At a certain point, there's just too much to stick in a pocket or anywhere else.  And IDK why purses are popular.  I experienced it growing up in my girl form and rejected the idea.  Too easy to lose it or have it stolen...   My family has so many vehicles, we finally had to get organized.  All keys are labeled with vehicle make, model, color, and license plate, as well as a key set number.  Each vehicle has multiple sets of keys.  Some vehicles are restricted to just one or two operators, for safety.  The rest of the keys are hung on hooks on a big labeled board, each vehicle has a row of 5 sets.  The primary operator's name is on the first set, the secondary operator's name is on the second set.  Other sets get checked out, with a notebook used for that (so we can track who has the keys and make sure none are lost).  We also use OSHA lockout/tagout procedures for maintenance.   The benefit of that level of organization is that you never worry about carrying more than one set of vehicle keys at a time.  And forgetful people like me sometimes carry a vehicle's door key around their neck on a string.    It prevents lockouts, torn pockets, unusable vehicles due to lost keys, etc...

Holding tight, holding sight, holding right.

My story is here on the Forums going back to January 2013 -- Page 8 at the top of the forums here. --  This is the first of mine after the surgery!!     https://www.transgenderpulse.com/forums/index.php?/topic/53080-the-weird-the-yuck-but-great-progress/        

Hi all hope everyone is doing well. So i guess i finally made it to the end of my transition which is bottom surgery and im freakin nervous. It feels so dam real. The consult is in about a month. I have a little idea of what im getting into with hair removel which im not excited about.  Im currently in therpy twice a week which has done wonders. Im just curious of others experiences with getting there bottom surgery. Did you feel any sense of loss afterward ? any worry you might regret it ? 

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Awwww! <3

Trump has greatly disenfranchised all US citizens and should be billed our medical expenses for the distress he caused in damages. My home of NYC was always affected by Sir Agent Orange Bonespur. He went bankrupt not once, not twice, but 6 times.... He'd lie on his tax filings, inflating his assets and would take extremely large loans, then not pay the banks back. Now our banks aren't going to claim credit for giving millions to an inflated manchild, instead they default and since banks never fail, the average tax paying citizens now have to cover. His family made a literal killing off the backs of the less fortunate in the NYC housing market, love the overpriced rental closets, I mean apartments. Think of it as like a coffin, except you won't be buried in it unless the building collapses from lack of maintenance. Try getting anything fixed after all the construction workers who had visas leave with the equipment and resources. College work isn't the same, one student recently was harassed and threaten with sexual assault, on and off campus. Higher ups ain't going to protect them, nor try to stop the guy from repeating the offense or keeping his promised threat. My coworker is on a work visa, so she can get her degree, now lives in constant fear, cuz she's from Bangladesh. My brain feels like it's in a constant boot loop cuz it keeps going to blue screen of death trying to make sense of this insane time I be living. I haven't started transitioning yet and I would like to at some point but since this guy started his first run for office I've been on edge worrying bout them odds. If only V for Vendetta didn't actually have real world source material, I'd have more optimism and trust for better. So yes, Trump has affected me for a good chunk of my existence...😫