Fixing how you look TO YOU is something that most women, and for all I know, most humans struggle with.    Honestly, your face is not hyper masculine, and I feel like it would not be a huge task to maybe close shave / otherwise depilate and I reckon you'd be good to go. You could get Chat GPT to colour match you some foundation if you fancied evening and mattifying your skin tone. But, really, learning to like how you look is a journey most people are on.    Liking how the clothes feel is the main thing I reckon. And women's clothes come in more fun colours / more varied texture?    (personally, I am a fan of boring and cotton LOL!)   But if you got excited by the way the clothes made you feel, then this is awesome (but because you ENJOYED them, you can apply whatever meaning to that YOU decide is most real) 

Sorry yes stockings ! Seperate stocks above the knee.   I really like the outfit. Like the outfit gives me happiness for sure. Its just the "me" I dont like. I kind of feel like if I had a feminie face that i didnt hate it would enjoy dressing like this !    It feels like if I could find a way to fix the me, the rest would sort of fall into place ?   I think your right. I think I got excited about the way the clothes made me feel and hoped that would be enough to give me answers. I definitely like the clothes.   Now just need to find a way to fix the me in my own head 😂  

I mean, I don't think I know the answers to your questions.    But   a) women's shirts generally have bust darts (so that the shape of them accommodates breasts) Men's shirts don't generally need them, but, if women with bigger than very tiny breasts wore mens shirts, they would likely have gaping buttons at best.  b) What are thigh high black tights? DO you mean stockings? Tights are joined together in the middle, so one garment covers both legs. But then they would have to go up to your waist? Stockings are two separate things, (like long sheer socks that could concievably stop at thigh high.    I feel like if you like the clothes, then that's all fine? I am not sure you need to be overwhelmed with euphoria, but I also don't think anyone can be defined by how they feel about clothing? 

Hey all !  So my clothes finally all arrived and I'd been trying them on one at a time and although I like the clothes I was feeling a lot of shame seing them on me. The negative feelings almost made me think maybe this isnt me and im just trying it for the sake of it ? But I need opinions please and thank you on the following    As we speak im in full cross dress. I have thigh high black tights with a bow, a white skirt, underwear, fake chest (bust) and this amazing salmon pink shirt that is apparently women's  not entirely sure why. Maybe the neck and material ? Because hoooly its all so soft and nice texturally    Anyway now that i cant see my body and just the clothes I have no shame. I actually quite like the outfit its really nice. I was even able to look in the mirror!!    Now here's the questions for consideration and opinions.   1. How is this supposed to feel ? Am i supposed to get some massive euphoria from this and know on the spot im actually a woman or i like dressing like a woman. Or is the fact that i dont hate it and immediately want to rip it off a pretty good sign that i like it ?   2. If I like the clothes which it seems that I do and the only thing i dont like is the "me" in them, is that like a definitive trans/cross dress experience. Or is this likley to just be something i AM doing and im neutral to it because I haven't had any really negative emotions towards it if that makes any sense ? Cause the emotions I feel arent really really strong. But towards the clothes and how they look its almost all positive. The way they feel is positive. The only negative is me. Which im negative about anyway ??    Hope ive explained this in a way that makes sense but im happy to be back exploring after a long hard week !

I was drinking coffee when I read that, Vicky, and almost blew it out my nose.       Carolyn Marie

Hmmmm. My mind is a very active, very bubbly, very insistent thing.   At the moment, I am beset by specific and relatively reasonable anxiety. However, right NOW I have reached the actual limit of actual things I can DO, so my mind appears to have taken the opportunity to collapse into enxhaustion, and fall asleep randomly. SO, turns out, soothing to me is having done all the things that need doing?    (My life is very flexible on the term "need" here) 

And now the poor Goofus McHairball is on public record for saying all of that and the words can be read for the next -- however long -- the U.S. Judicial system exists. 

One can only hope that this travesty is struck down.  Men like Trump and Epstein are the real threat to women, especially the young. Trans folks are simply themselves.     Hugs,   Charlize

First Friday - healing for so many.

What soothes your weary mind?

Well, I guess I got too much sleep Thursday night as my body woke up about 3:15 this morning.  I guess somewhere deep inside it thought I needed to get up to go to work.so here I am at 5:45 eating hot oatmeal and enjoying the quiet hour.     at my age, for covid, I was in the second group to be eligible for the vaccine.  My wife was in the third so we both got vaccinated in the first month and have kept that going.  As for Ebola, this isn’t the first time and likely won’t be the last time an incurable virus strain will get started in Africa and spread by accident or by intent.  But the world has figured out how to keep this things mostly in check.     Right now, I am not worried about such things.  Not because they aren’t scary, they are.  But more because I don’t get out much since I don’t work anymore.  Church, and food or pharmacy is about my limit now.  I would like to do more but that just isn’t feasible right now.   i know it isn’t October but I have a really pretty orange nail gel on right now. My nails are finally starting to look better and grow.  All I have to do is keep the gel on to give them a chance.  My pinkies are doing the best.  My left hand except my left thumb is better than my right but I’m trying.  I have a place on my thumb nails that keeps splitting but I am determined to get the, all grown out to my fingertips.   have a nice weekend everyone.

Happy Saturday everyone!    I don't have any particular plans today - I think I might have a walk around the village after lunch because the weather's supposed to be quite nice at that time today, but other than that, I'm just gonna chill for most of the day, and think about what I'm gonna draw at the Pub tomorrow!   @awkward-yet-sweet, I'm sorry and frightened to hear that! I don't know anyone who caught Ebola myself, but I did catch COVID once. If I remember rightly it felt utterly miserable, but I recovered in due time and never caught it ever again post-pandemic. You're right, the lockdown itself was far worse than the COVID virus threat for sure!   @Willow, congratulations on the excellent sleep score!  Good luck in Preaching Class, and I wish your wife a quick and smooth recovery!

https://idahocapitalsun.com/2026/06/05/federal-judge-presses-attorneys-on-how-idahos-transgender-bathroom-ban-will-work/     The Idaho Solicitor General sounded pretty ridiculous in trying to defend this indefensible law.  I imagine he wished he was anywhere else at the time. Too frigging bad, I say.  Let them squirm.  This is such an absurd law that, if it wasn't such a serious matter, would be laughable.  Even police officers hate it.   Carolyn Marie