@Toli   It really is that much harder when you have kids, isn't it? I always hear how kids are resilient and they bounce back fast but I saw someone somewhere say that if that were true, would there be that many therapists? lol! But seriously, it's not an easy choice to make when you have a responsibility for the safety and well being of your children.

My GP put me on anti depressants to help me cope with the day to day depression of my situation, but like you said, they will not prescribe anything to do with gender affirming hrt. I have decided to go private as I have the funding available to me.  I won’t disclose who I’m going with as everyone’s situation is different and what works for me, might not work for others… but in terms of cost, I’m looking at £350 for the first month then £150 per month after and then the cost of prescriptions on top. Hopefully my first consultation should be done within 12 weeks, but it may vary.

This is very interesting, Randi. Thank you!

I facilitated a local support group last night and we had a surprise visit from a member hadn't attended in 6 years. Since then, she transitioned, and friends and relatives made this music video about her journey. Emotional warning - I know that this will resonate with many of you - consider having a box of tissues handy to wipe the tears as you watch!     -Timi

Hey, speak for yourself. LOL.   Wednesday had a follow up with my PCP. Again my T level is undetectable. Which is what this girl wants. A weird thing happened though. My Dr. gave me a prescription for a med to help me sleep. Seems to be working. Anywho, When I went to the pharmacy window to pick up my med. The pharmacist  asked who I was picking up for and my relationship. She must have correlated the name and thought I was a woman picking up meds for another person. A little weird but affirming none the less.   I go for a mammogram today. so, no sleeping in for me. I may crawl back in bed once I am done.    Well got to go coffee is calling me.    Kymmie

Just redone my profile introduction and this time with my name I feel all warm inside it's the first time I've ever used my name in a context that is not in my head now I have a cheesy grin my face lol. But again thank for the idea.

Hi 👋🏻  so I have been exactly where you are right now and it’s a difficult place to be emotionally and physically.    the first step is to talk to your GP remember that everything you discuss (providing you are over 18 and not under care) is completely confidential and free from judgement.    You don’t have to go into any detail with them simply say “please refer me to the Gender Identity Clinic” they can’t refuse this request.    now for the realities of the situation.    you GP is very unlikely to prescribe anything without the GIC having assessed you.    the wait is very long. I was put on the list in September and have been told 6-8 years to initial consultation.    what options are there in the meantime…   you can go private which is a significant commitment financially with many routes costing upwards of £200 per month + prescription costs and with one off registration, consultations and assessments. This route could have you on HRT within 6 months.    I’ve had HRT in the loser prescribed by a private doctor and have since come off it but am planning to go back on but not sure I can afford private and the wait for NHS will see me the wrong side of 50 before seeing them.    I wish you well however you decide to progress. 

This album came out just when I saw Santana for the first time. Carlos got into regilion and came out at the Sports Arena in Toledo and said "Let's take a minute to pray" and someone shouted out "Let's "blanking" Rock and Roll.....    

The first World Cup took place back in 1930, and was proposed by Jules Rimet, who wanted to create an international competition between men’s football teams (at the time, soccer was not a part of the Summer Games). The tournament consisted of thirteen invited teams and took place in Uruguay, who also won the tournament.

Wishing for a more feminine face.

What isthe most important thing you need yet to feel fully yourself?

did not know that, i'm 53, just transitioned, despite wishing to have done it at 20. When i grew up in the stone age, pre Internet, you were not even aware it was a thing. So you could have the feelings, but there was no real option to transitioned for a boy in a working class London 1980's   I knew i liked men, i knew i liked being feminine, wearing female clothes, as i explored my love of men, it opened up a world for me, that culminated in relationships with transwomen, who as a boy then really did open the world for me It changed my sexual identity, while i do still like men, i suspect i am fundamentally attracted more to fellow transwomen now   Never married, but if i did, i just know she would be a transwomen, like me (maybe it's so i can borrow her dresses :)) 

yep will maybe be the hardest learning curve, something you have been doing since birth, something you don't need to think about, and now it's like a massive challenge just to use fingers , i have always had a terrible habit of biting nails, so i've never had long nails, even nails that extrude past the finger, but i do love how they look when i do them

ty, yep pretty much everyone i've known, know , now knows about my new self, everyone been super supportive Just going through the process of changing documentation, bank details, drivers license and all that stuff Love Stephenie 

Oh that sounds helpful. I'm glad for that.    My adorable son woke me at 6:30 to discuss bagels   I feel like I have slept for three minutes, and then eaten salt beef mustard gherkin Beigel for breakfast.    It's not my ideal start to a day to be honest...   Still..