What Can I Do?

[Guest toro]

Hello. I just turned sixteen this month, and for a while I've spent hours on end every night to do research on my sexuality. Seems like I have low or no attraction to either sex, and I have an uncontrollable urge to cross dress MTF. I can say this is probably because my face looks for feminine and petite and would look better in female clothing than male; however I know both my parents are 100% against sexualities other than Straight. No gay, no bi, nothing and not a shade of light of hope. I probably won't move out until the beginning of Junior year of college or maybe not until I graduate from college as a whole. I have no way to get my hands on clothes and no way to hide it even if I do. I have Asian parents and they always snoop around, in the closet, in the drawers, under my bed, under all desks, not to mention my room isn't that big to begin with. I have a desktop pc, two guitars, two amps, a drawer and a bed. So it's quite hard to hide it. I've been suggested hiding it in the floor, but I live in quite an expensive house, plus my room is in the second floor and it's carpet. As well with the garage, it's a two car and nothing but pure cement and a fridge in it.

So I am pretty much rendered useless until the time comes where I move out of my parent's. I have to do one thing though; is to keep my face small, feminine and cute. But I have no idea on how to do this for all my knowledge is dumped on Guitar, Computers, Automobiles, Art, and school work. As for this question, I have many; many questions. So brace for impact!

I barely have any noticeable hair aside from the ones on my head; but it bothers me that I have hair on the first joint of my finger, on the back of my hand, all across my arm, armpits (lightly) and on my stomach (very lightly), and of course the entire leg. How could I proceed to getting all this off? I'm very scared of pain so I don't know if I'm up for waxing unless there is no other solution; but I'd like to verify this first.

1. Shaving - Doesn't it make it regrow faster, and thicker? Ew, bushy body is anything but cute.

2. Waxing - The pain of a thousand men under agonizing pain of Satan.

3. Laser - How does it work, and how much would it cost?

Also, how can I keep my skin smooth, and my hands not-so-veiny and disguising? It's not so much like that right now but I'm afraid it will turn that way. It's noticeably veiny if I flex it slightly. Also, how would I keep my legs even, skinny and petite? I don't like the manly leg, or the Porn Star leg (All sex appeal). I'm not so much of a Transgender but only a cross dresser; so I like to keep it innocent and childish. I'm not looking for any sexual relationships either; so if you understand where I'm coming from...

So I'd like to sum all my questions up for you so it is very simple of a conclusion so it will be easier to get answers from here.

1. How do I get rid of the following hair?

:Finger

;Back Palm

:Arm

;Leg

:Stomach

;Armpit

Some of these are obvious; but I put them there anyways. As said above please read my why and why nots on laser, waxing and etc.

2. How can I keep my face structure and skin petite, young looking, pale and cute?

3. How can I keep my legs all even and petite? (Read above for what kind of legs I'm aiming to keep; so far so good.)

4. How can I keep my hands soft and not veiny/muscular?

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As for solutions, I was thinking of hiding my clothes under the trunk in the spare tire compartment of my car when I purchase mine.

Thank you for reading, if you would please help a CDer in need I'd deeply appreciate all and any support, advice and ideas. Once again, I truly appreciate it. And I said; I told you it would be a big post.

[Guest ~Brenda~]

Hi and Welcome toro,

If I had noticed that this was your first post before approving it I would have moved it to the introductions forum so that everyone could greet you.

Anyway the General forum will have to do.

Well, you did come to the right place for your questions.

First, different people have different preferences and what works for them. I can tell you what works for me.

I shave my entire body. I have been shaving for years. I shave during and right after my morning shower. I can tell you this your hair does not grow back faster nor bushier. If anything your hair growth slows because I have noticed that I don't have to shave as soften as I used to.

My preferred razor is the BIC Twin select razor. The dual blades help to keep the nicks to almost 0. For me, using a single bladed razor, I nicked myself a lot.

I simply lather up with Ivory soap and shave. Once you have a routine down, you can shave your legs, arms, everything within a minute or two.

The first time you shave is the hardest. Make sure that your hair is made soft from a hot shower, lather your legs, and slowly shave them. A common mistake is to press too hard with the razor to shave your legs. This results in razor burn and redness. Take your time and rinse the razor often. Slowly and lightly. Get to know the shape of your legs and arms. You also want to shave in the oppositer direction that your hair is growing in. This will insure a very close shave.

Initially, you will have to shave everyday to keep your hair at bay. If you do experience redness or red bumps, then stop shaveing that area for a couple of days so that area heals. You then can shave it again once the redness is gone.

Keeping your skin soft is real easy. Simply use any type of skin moisturizer on your legs and arms, etc. before you go to bed. Rub it in and wipe off any excess. You will be soft overnight.

To keep everything thin and feminine, I just do a little jogging. I do not lift weights or anything that will have a bulking effect on my body. I also keep my carb intake down in my diet.

Anyway, that is what I do and it works for me.

Welcome again toro,

Love

Brenda

[Guest AllisonD]

You seem to be in a very controlled environment, so I have to wonder just where do you plan on doing this crossdressing?

In a sense, I did this in school, if you look at it a certain way. I was just a very femme boy, very out, and couldn't dress for school at home so I kept things in my locker at school or had a friend bring the item I wanted from her house for me for the day I wanted to wear it. But I was out, wearing my clothes at school. It doesn't sound to me like you want to be that out. So where will you be crossdressed? And wherever that is, are there no opportunities to store your wardrobe there? Or with a friend?

It also sounds like you do not yet have your own transportation. That will definitely make things more difficult, for how will you get to wherever you are going to be crossdressed?

Your is an intrigueing problem to solve but I think a little more information on what you want to do and how you want to do it would help us to suggest solutions.

Allison

[Guest toro]

Thanks for the replies and I will post in the introductory forum. Sorry about that. I plan on moving to Japan two years before I graduate college or after I graduate in order to become a musician/artist. That's where I will have my freedom. Also, I have three friends max, I'm very selective because I've had bad experiences with mass numbers of friends and I am very psychologically aware of how disturbingly closed the society these days is to not-so-normal things. I'm very melancholic as you can see; but yeah, that's what I have for now. Thanks again with deep appreciation.