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Guest Lee-Asher Geo-James

I sit here in the dark

Listening to the sounds outside

The pounding of the rain

The booming of the thunder

Listening to the music escape my speakers

Staring at the computer screen

Seeing the lighting out of the corner of my eyes

Sitting here on the couch that plays the role of my bed

All alone

In the dark

Waiting for the power to come back on

At peace with myself

Relaxed

Thinking to myself

About my life

Thinking about what is to come in the future

All the wonderful things from my past

All the horrible things from my past

All the in-betweens

Being alone in the house gives me that chance to think

Let’s me be me

In this calming storm

The storm starts to fade away

The power still out

Thunder every now and then

The lighting gone almost completely

The rain no longer pounding

Music still playing in the background

The calm that came over me

Is slowly disappearing

Becoming myself again

No longer calm

No longer able to think clearly

Thinking of no longer anything positive

Thinking of only the negative

The horribleness

Of my life sinks in

The rut that I am in

The depression

The horrible sickness that consumes me

This, this thing that I am

The fact that I am nothing but another thing

The fact that I am some mutant

A nothing

A no body

Waiting for the end

~Fin~

Lee-Asher Geo-James

May 27, 2010

12:04AM

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Guest willow ann

i love storms and remember growing up loving them because they always calmed me down. i don't know if thats normal or what but i don't care. i just love you Geo. GEO GEO HE'S MY MAN IF HE CAN'T DO IT NO ONE CAN :P

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Guest Lee-Asher Geo-James
i love storms and remember growing up loving them because they always calmed me down. i don't know if thats normal or what but i don't care. i just love you Geo. GEO GEO HE'S MY MAN IF HE CAN'T DO IT NO ONE CAN :P

There is not such thing as normal :)

I love you too

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Guest Donna Jean

Geo.......

I liked that...very nice imagery...

The last part was kinda dark, but nice, just the same

Huggs

Donna Jean

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Guest Lee-Asher Geo-James
Geo.......

I liked that...very nice imagery...

The last part was kinda dark, but nice, just the same

Huggs

Donna Jean

Thank you. :)

*hugs*

I was just writing and didn't even read what I wrote until after I posted it here :blink:

:lol:

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Guest Elizabeth K

Geo - your poem

Like on a hot day

HOT

Jumping off the board

SLASH

Cooling down in the shock of clear, blue water

AHHHHH

Then hitting your head on the bottom of the pool

CRACK

OWWWWWW

Lizzy

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Guest Lee-Asher Geo-James
Geo - your poem

Like on a hot day

HOT

Jumping off the board

SLASH

Cooling down in the shock of clear, blue water

AHHHHH

Then hitting your head on the bottom of the pool

CRACK

OWWWWWW

Lizzy

:blink:

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Guest Elizabeth K
:blink:

HURT!

Thinking of only the negative

The horribleness

Of my life sinks in

The rut that I am in

The depression

The horrible sickness that consumes me

This, this thing that I am

The fact that I am nothing but another thing

The fact that I am some mutant

A nothing

A no body

Waiting for the end

WHOA!

BUT

Soothes me:

Sitting here on the couch that plays the role of my bed

All alone

In the dark

Waiting for the power to come back on

At peace with myself

Relaxed

Thinking to myself

About my life

Still good stuff!

Do some more?

Lizzy

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Guest Lee-Asher Geo-James
HURT!

Thinking of only the negative

The horribleness

Of my life sinks in

The rut that I am in

The depression

The horrible sickness that consumes me

This, this thing that I am

The fact that I am nothing but another thing

The fact that I am some mutant

A nothing

A no body

Waiting for the end

WHOA!

BUT

Soothes me:

Sitting here on the couch that plays the role of my bed

All alone

In the dark

Waiting for the power to come back on

At peace with myself

Relaxed

Thinking to myself

About my life

Still good stuff!

Do some more?

Lizzy

Thank you!! I was just so confused as always :lol:

Yeah I can do more. And when I get my older poetry I can add it (well er only some of it :unsure: ) and I always am writing. :) So I yeah totally :)

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