Jump to content
  • Welcome to the TransPulse Forums!

    We offer a safe, inclusive community for transgender and gender non-conforming folks, as well as their loved ones, to find support and information.  Join today!

Courage


Guest LilyRose

Recommended Posts

Guest LilyRose

After my third meeting with my therapist, I told her some very horrific things that bullies have done to me. She even had to take a moment of silence to reflect on the pure emotions that were at stake. She said that I was intensely courageous to continue to get up each day. I must wear my battle wounds with pride.

Courage

Inside someone so small was a truth so big

that they could not understand and threatened

the fabric of their entire lives up to this moment.

A tiny boy's soul radiated with the purity that
only a girl could have. Her existence was his only

comfort and he hid her to keep her safe from them.

He knew that she was always there with him, and

he kept her alive. She told him that despite his pain,

she felt his pain as well and they need each other.

Soft skin was forcibly mangled, but she was strong

in their suffering. And each night, the fragile boy cried.

She reminded him that together, they will overcome it.

New wounds ripped open over previous cuts daily,

she can feel the blood oozing down their foreheads

and purple welts on their backs. She held him close.

Dangling arms torn out of their sockets, bruised bones

blue with repeated attacks laced with fear and ignorance.

He wanted to die but she refused as she was maimed too.

After the years pass, he cannot stand to hide her anymore.

Letting her out, he finally realizes that she took on his pain too.

Smiling through broken teeth, she says... "I am the real you!"

Through the sobs, he nods and accepts this truth happily.

The severely beaten woman embraces him as she set him free.

Scars remind this beautiful lady how much courage she has.

Lily Rose

There you have it! I hope you all like it!
*hugs*

Link to comment
Guest DianeATL

Powerful

I am so sorry that you had to experience it to write about it but so happy that you are strong enough to push past it. Stay strong Lily Rose - what doesn't kill you makes you stronger!

Hugs

Diane

Link to comment
  • Admin

You have painted an emotion and vision filled portrait of what life is like to Trans Kids. This is why I always tell people to keep and honor their birth genders some where in their lives. For a long time one must fight and protect the other, but in time will receive the peace and love that is truly deserved. As Diane said, Powerful, and welcome to a fellowship of heros where you both can be loved.

Link to comment
  • Forum Moderator

Thank you dear for sharing your pain and your triumph.

Hugs,

Charlie

Link to comment
Guest LilyRose

Thank you very much ladies, I really appreciate the love and acceptance coming from your words. I am quickly growing a family and joining a band of heroes and warriors who fight along side me. Our fight will continue and we will be heard!

*hugs everyone*

Link to comment
Guest Elizabeth1974

Wow the raw emotion you envoke as I read your work excellent. You allow us to share in the pain through your words keep writing, keep getting stronger, and stay safe and happy.

Hugs

Link to comment
Guest Lacey Lynne

You're amongst friends and "family" now, girl. Bathe yourself in the wamrth and acceptance you have here. Great writing, by the way.

Peace & Joy :thumbsup: Lacey Lynne

Link to comment
Guest Carla_Davis

Hi LilyRose,

I really enjoyed your poem.

Many of us can relate to it.

As you know, I have re-started seeing a therapist.

It also brought back very painful memories of my past and I also did a lot of crying.

I always feel better after purging my body of painful memories of my past.

Love, :wub:

MOM

Link to comment
  • 2 months later...
Guest Brenda Hailey

Amazing poem!

It stirred great emotion in me as I felt much of the pain.

I cant help but think how strong all these things actually made us without even realizing it.

I enjoyed reading your poem even though some of it hurt. :wub:

Brenda Hailey

Link to comment

Create an account or sign in to comment

You need to be a member in order to leave a comment

Create an account

Sign up for a new account in our community. It's easy!

Register a new account

Sign in

Already have an account? Sign in here.

Sign In Now
  • Who's Online   5 Members, 0 Anonymous, 134 Guests (See full list)

    • RaineOnYourParade
    • Maddee
    • awkward-yet-sweet
    • Abigail Genevieve
    • Willow
  • Recently Browsing   0 members

    • No registered users viewing this page.
  • Forum Statistics

    • Total Topics
      80.7k
    • Total Posts
      768.5k
  • Member Statistics

    • Total Members
      12,029
    • Most Online
      8,356

    Selkimur
    Newest Member
    Selkimur
    Joined
  • Today's Birthdays

    1. BraxtonLee
      BraxtonLee
      (26 years old)
    2. Bryanna
      Bryanna
      (45 years old)
    3. Jayde1
      Jayde1
    4. Mireya
      Mireya
      (66 years old)
    5. Shellianne_Kay83
      Shellianne_Kay83
      (41 years old)
  • Posts

    • RaineOnYourParade
      Congrats to your family on the new addition!
    • RaineOnYourParade
      Funny you think that I would be able to get through more than two sentences with how bad my stutter gets (joking, of course)   My topic would probably be mythology, random Japan factoids in my mind, or a favorite story   (Best option would be a fave story of mine including a lot of factoids on Japanese myths-)
    • Willow
      Congratulations @ivy. Nothing beats a family growing two feet at a time!
    • April Marie
      I read each of your entries and learn so much. Thank you, especially, for the TransCentralPA info. I have been looking fora group and activities where I could express myself safely and with support. I missed this year's conference but next year might be possible and I am going to look at their other events, too.
    • April Marie
      Leadership and Management, the differences and similarities between the two as well as the applications of military leadership principles across the spectrum of professions.
    • Abigail Genevieve
      I have read numerous accounts of trans folk no longer being welcome among evangelicals.   I am here for help and fellowship not to rebuke anyone.  I can take a pretty high degree of insult, etc., and you haven't insulted me, to my recollection anyway :) and I usually let it go.  But I thought I would let it all out there.   I am sure I disagree with you on numerous issues.  I appreciate other people's viewpoints, including those who radically disagree with me.  Intellectual challenge is good. One thing I appreciate about @MaeBe.
    • Abigail Genevieve
      Congrats!
    • Sally Stone
      Post 8 “The Ohio Years” We moved to Pittsburgh because of the job with US Airways.  The job involved classroom instruction and simulator training, but no actual flying, so I kept looking for an actual pilot position.  A year after signing on with US Airways I got hired to fly business jets.  The company was located in Cleveland, Ohio, but I was flown commercially from my home in Pittsburgh to where my aircraft was located, making it unnecessary to live near company headquarters.    My flight scheduled consisted of eight days on duty with seven days off.  Having seven days off in a row was great but being gone from home eight days in a row was difficult.  For the first few years the flying was fun, but after a while the eight flying days in a row, were taking their toll on me.  Those days were brutal, consisting of very long hours and a lot of flying time.  Usually, I came home exhausted and need three days just to recover from the work week.  Flying for a living is glamorous until you actually do it.  Quickly, it became just a job.    After five years as a line captain, I became a flight department manager, which required we live near company headquarters.  That meant a move to Cleveland.  Working in the office meant I was home every night but as a manager, the schedule was still challenging.  I would work in the office all week and then be expected to go out and fly the line on weekends.  I referred to it as my “5 on 2 on” schedule, because it felt as though I had no time off at all.   About the same time, we moved to Cleveland, my wife and I became “empty nesters,” with one son in the military and the other away at college.  Sadly, my work schedule didn’t leave much time for Sally.  Add to the fact that while Cleveland is an awesome city, I just never felt comfortable expressing my feminine side.  Most of my outings, and believe me there weren’t enough, occurred while I was on vacation and away from home.   One of the most memorable outings occurred over a long weekend.  I had stumbled across an online notice for a spring formal being held in Harrisburg, Pennsylvania, hosted by a local trans group there.  I reached out to Willa to see if she was up for an excellent adventure.  She was, so I picked her up and we drove to Harrisburg together.    The formal was held on Saturday evening and we had the absolute best time.  It turned out that organizers were a group named TransCentralPA.  Everyone was wonderful and I made a lot of new friends that evening.  We learned the spring formal was one of the group’s annual events but for the following year, instead of a spring formal, the group wanted to do a local transgender conference.  That local conference would become the Keystone Conference, and I would attend every year for the next 12.  My move to the west coast was the only reason I stopped attending annually.  I went to the first annual Keystone Conference as an attendee, but in subsequent years I served as a volunteer and as a workshop presenter; more about those in the next installment.   For my Cleveland years, the Keystone Conference would be my major outlet for feminine self-expression.  Yes, I did get out on other occasions, but they were too infrequent.  The managerial job just didn’t allow me the freedom I needed to adequately live my feminine life, and my frustration level was slowly, but steadily on the rise.  It amazed me how adversely not being able to express the feminine half of my personality was affecting my happiness.   However, a major life change was upcoming, and while it would prove to be a significant challenge in many ways, the events would ultimately benefit my female persona.  First, my mom and dad got sick.  They were in and out of the hospital and required personal care.  My wife and I did our best but living in Cleveland, we were too far from them to give them the support they both needed.  Second, I was experiencing serious job burn out.  I decided I need to find another job and I needed to be closer to my parents.    Things changed for the better when I got hired by an aviation training company as a flight simulator instructor.  I would be training business jet pilots.  The training facility was located in New Jersey, which put us much closer to my parents, and the work schedule was much better for quality of life.  Most importantly, this life change would help Sally re-emerge and once again flower.    Hugs,   Sally       
    • Mmindy
      I made a living talking about bulk liquids in cargo tanks transportation as a driver and mechanic. Safe loading/unloading, cleaning and inspecting, as well as emergency response scenarios.   Hazmat and fire behavior in the fire service as well as emergency vehicle operations and safe driving. "It was on fire when they called you. It will be on fire when you get there." Arrive ready to work. I could also talk about firefighter behavioral  heath and the grieving process.   The real fun thing is I can do this for people who are not Truck Drivers or Fire Fighters. Girl Scouts, Boy Scouts, Citizen Tax payers about Public Safety Education.   I love public speaking,   Mindy🌈🐛🏳️‍⚧️🦋
    • Mmindy
      Congratulations to the mom and family @Ivy on the addition of another child.   Hugs,   Mindy🌈🐛🏳️‍⚧️🦋
    • MaeBe
      Congrats to you and yours!
    • Ashley0616
      YAY! Congratulations on a granddaughter!
    • Ashley0616
      I recommend CarComplaints.com | Car Problems, Car Complaints, & Repair/Recall Information. A lot of good information
    • LucyF
      I've got Spironolactone ___mg and Evorel ___mcg Patches (2 a week) going up to ___mg after 4 weeks 
    • Ivy
      Got a new Granddaughter this morning.  Mother and child (and father) are doing fine. This makes 7 granddaughters and one grandson.  I have 2 sons and 6 daughters myself.  And then I  switched teams.  I think this stuff runs in the family. Another hard day for the patriarchy.
  • Upcoming Events

Contact TransPulse

TransPulse can be contacted in the following ways:

Email: Click Here.

To report an error on this page.

Legal

Your use of this site is subject to the following rules and policies, whether you have read them or not.

Terms of Use
Privacy Policy
DMCA Policy
Community Rules

Hosting

Upstream hosting for TransPulse provided by QnEZ.

Sponsorship

Special consideration for TransPulse is kindly provided by The Breast Form Store.
×
×
  • Create New...