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Pamela Jean & Me , Me & Pamela Jean - Our Love For each Other :

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Poem / Ode # 2 of 7

Dated : August 2015


Titled : Pamela Jean & Me , Me & Pamela Jean , Our LOVE for each Other :


Pamela Jean , O Loving Pamela , My Beautiful & Loving Pamela Jean

We Started Our Beautiful Life / Lives Together , We Shared so very Much

The Mid too Late '80's , Were Beautiful & so full of the future & so Full of Life

That No One truly knew , Except for GOD , How much time We really had

And so We both enjoyed each Other , We both shared so very Much together

From All of our 9 Beautiful & Loving Labrador Retriever's , Both Purebred & Mixed Breed

( Our Kid's )

Too our Home's , Hobbies & Our many Vacation's too Numerous Western States

And all over California & California's Backcountry offroad travel

In Jeep's , Bronco's , Landrover's & even our Mustang & F series Truck's

The One Thing - ( As in the Movie " CITY SLICKER's )

The One Thing , That never changed in all of our Married Life Together

was that She Pamela Jean Loved Me , And I loved Pamela , My Sweet Loving Pamela Jean

We Both worked  very hard , We even worked side by side day in and day out

For S & P , Our Own S & P Enterprises Automotive Parts & Accessories

S & P ??? , Wasn't just a business , Or even just a job , It was Our S & P

Sometimes it seem as though the business , Actually owned Us  ?

But looking back , Their was a lot of times , When Pamela Jean & Me

Laughed & Cried & Shared Beautiful times & Bad times Together

From our first Labrador Retriever " Callie "

Too Our Current 2 Labrador Retrievers , Reagan Jean & Shelby'Anne Kelcee

And the other 6 Labrador Retrievers 

Jack'ie , CJ ( Callie Jean of Callie's Acres ) at our Wedding

July 30th 1989 as a 7 1/2 week old Beautiful Yellow Lab Puppy 

Sammy , Daisey , L.A.B. ( Ellabee ) and Kelcee Jean

Seven are now in Heaven above , Crossing over the Rainbow Bridge

And are now in Heaven with Pamela Jean

Or as I like too Say

Pamela Jean has 7 Labrador Retriever's , With her in Heaven

And I have 2 Labrador Retrievers , With Me down here on Earth

I Love You , Pamela Jean & I always Will Love You & I will Never stop Loving You

My sweet & Loving Pamela Jean

You were always the Love of My Life , And You always will Be

As God is My Witness , I Promise You Pamela , Our Love Was & Is FOREVER

As You & I took Our Wedding Vows Serious , On that day in July 1989

In Sickness & In Health , And in Good Times and in Bad Times

For Better or Worse , Till Death do us Part

Well Pamela Jean You are in Heaven now & I still Love You so Very much

My Love for You , Is still ongoing , and our Love will never End

I will Love You for Eternity , As You & I will always Be One

The Time & the Dreams , That We both shared together as Us

I will never Forget " You " , My daily Life without You , Is so very lonely & Hard at Times

The Girls / Labradors & I are doing our best and at times I still cry and miss You so

You're Family & our Friend's & GOD , & our 2 Beautiful & Unconditionally Loving Lab's / Girls / Our Kids

Are what is now Absolutely keeping Me Going , Day in & Day out

Until the Day , That We Both & All , can be together again , For All of Eternity

Just You & Me & The Furbabies , Pamela & Me & the Furbabies , Me & Pamela Jean & the FurBabies all make 9

Or more if GOD so chooses to allow me the time :


GOD Bless All , Who read this & I hope All that read this Enjoy It :



Reagan Jean

Shelby'Anne Kelcee




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