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Ermahgerd! Hermerns!


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My GP finally received the confirmation from Daventry GIC to prescribe hormones for me. I'll be on leuprorelin injections to stop production of T and estradiol valerate tablets. Shame I have to wait until after the weekend for the pharmacy to get them in, but I've waited this long so a few more days don't matter too much. Looks like I'll be on HRT in time for my 46th birthday on Wednesday. :)

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Congratulations, get ready for the ride and hold on. I started HRT about 14 months ago at 41. I have loved every minute of my journey thus far. I won't lie, it's a roller coaster. Good luck on your journey and do keep us posted. 

 

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Shawnna 

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Seat belts are not required but highly advised.  Actually i took me time to feel much and even then changes were slow and subtle.  Enjoy your journey!

 

Hugs,

 

Charlize

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Great news!! And what a wonderful birthday present. I hope the process is smooth for you, with nothing major to get in your way.

 

Gwen

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Congratulations.  Breath, relax and begin a wonderful journey.

 

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Charlize

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Well, so far I feel exactly the same. I'm assuming the oestrogen is just counteracting the initial testosterone surge of the leuproreline injection. Hopefully I'll notice something once that's over. <_<

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Time.........  I also felt impatient but remember just like puberty years past for all the changes to be visible.  Oddly i sometimes forget the amount of change that has happened.  Perhaps the most noticeable changes took place when my breasts were extremely sensitive during early growth.  Don't worry you will have the "joy" of the ouchies as well.

 

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Charlize

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Its more the fact that mentally I don't feel any different, which is why I'm assuming it's due to the surge in testosterone. Hopefully by next week my T-factories will have shut down and the oestrogen will start to do its work.

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For some of us even the mental changes can take a few days. The first thing I felt was a sense of calm. Remember it's not a sprint it's a journey. Enjoy it, Slow and steady is always the best. If the changes happened over night we would loose our minds. I know I would have. 

 

Many hugs 

 

Shawnna 

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  • 3 weeks later...

Ermahgerd!

 

I almost peed my pants laughing at the introduction!!!! I have a similar saying that I send out on some birthdays on facebook. Any updates on how you're feeling? I was 46 when I started HRT as well, that was three years ago. It changed my life sooo profoundly that all I can say is ermahgerd !!!! Relly looking forward to hearing  how you're doing. Some dread the crying spells but for me I have learned to appreciate them so much as it constantly reminds me of how hormones put me in touch with my sensitive side. 

 

Still Laughing,

 

Tess

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Not hugely different; it's just taken the edge off so that my brain is no longer screaming at me. Also, my skin is starting to get softer and less greasy and I don't stink like a man when I sweat. I'm at the start of week 4 so still early days.

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HRT, your mileage may vary....:)

 

For myself by week 4, my mind just felt a lot clearer. Other trans friends I know were complete emotional roller coasters, and other trans friends felt little emotional change. Remember your watching grass grow!!!

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Oh my gosh, if I spoke that way like you did in your title to my wife she’d figure me out in a second I’d have a lot of explaining to do. And just like a joke I recently read, she’d yell at me,  accuse me of being a cross dresser, and tell me to get out... So I’d have to pack up her things and go. 

 I’d have to say I felt much like you did in the beginning, I didn’t notice much and felt very similar, but now approaching a year things are very very very very, wait where is my seatbelt, very very different. My mind is improved 92% my ability to reach For emotions far greater, enjoyment of myself Unimaginable. I no longer want to fight with my spouse or my daughter, I just want to hug them and love them. I plan on mending some old fences and I know it’s going to make me cry... I typically cry about something three or four times a week where I don’t think my face saw water for the last 40 years. But it’s all good, just like plants need water to grow let your feelings out sometimes... Write some terrible poems, it’s doing me wonders, you can access things you had no idea that you needed to put down on the page, and if you do let me know I’d love to read it.

squishy hugs,

Jae

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I'm lucky in that my fiancée is pansexual and was actually the one who convinced me to start transitioning, so when I picked up my first prescription I literally shoved the box in her face and screamed "Ermahgerd! Hermerns!". :D

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I am sooooo Jelly! You are so spoiled, I wish my wife wanted me that way, what an amazing love story!

Squishy hugs,

Jae

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Errrggggg.... I am so jelly of you dang it!!! can't get it out of my mind!

tight sqeezey hugs,

Jae

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Six weeks in and I'm starting to see things happening. The hair on my arms and hands is starting to look a little sparse compared to how it used to be, and the ouchies have started. 

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Awesome! I miss the ouchies for some weird reason! Just wait until your mind calms down, that's the real treat... Took me a while to get there but it's great. Had my blood work done today, I am hoping it is in proper range, I can't wait to find out! Congrats on your ouchies! My wife is starting to warm up to all the new changes since I came out to her, but I wish she wanted to be involved like your honey! Things might get better if I give her more time, I'm still way jelly of your fiancée that is all on board...

Soft gentle hug,

Jae

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  • 2 weeks later...
On 3/2/2018 at 6:06 PM, jae bear said:

My wife is starting to warm up to all the new changes since I came out to her,

That's awesome jae, great to hear..

 

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Hi Jaime,

Things have gotten even better since I wrote that, there are little ups and little downs but that’s normal, we talk a lot in the evening after the kid goes to bed and things seem very productive. Last night we discussed talking with our insurance and medical providers to get a therapist for her and also a joint therapist that can see both of us. I saw my therapist yesterday and I can’t tell you what an Enormously valuable tool that is to me, that and my therapist is really quite fantastic. We talked a little about art, colors, cross dressing and things that I liked about it all, some of my childhood experiences that I’ve kind of forgotten about, I’m starting to see how that shaped my entire process when dealing with myself as a boy in the world, it’s really quite eye-opening to examine the things that made you who you are, I don’t think any of us realize that these little tiny things that happened so early shape and mold our behavior patterns with others... I  am now of the opinion that it’s OK to break all of that old programming and go back to where you feel like you belong.

Squishy hugs,

Jae

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I love my GP! :D

So I'm on Leuproreline as a T-blocker and it was time to switch from monthly to 3-monthly injections and she put 3 of them on the prescription. That's 9 months of T-blockers for a single £8.60 prescription charge. :D

She also does my oestrogen 3 months' worth at a time. What an absolute star! :applause:

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