Bears & Bunnies

[jae bear]

so long I've been hiding from everyone but me
I denied it and I'd hide it from all who might see
mom sewed on my bear suit when I was eleven
so others couldn't see me, so only we'd know

 

I peeked from the shadows and honesty saw me
it caught me and bit me and tore at my body
found a stitched thread then looked deep in my eyes
quietly called me a coward a fraud and a lie
pulling me close, said it still loved me
as it started to pull on that little brown thread

 

fast stitches opened revealing a small sliver
of soft furry lilac that shouldn't quite live there
unraveling thread exposed color hidden forever
everyone knows bears are just brown black or silver

 

calling me out of the dark, commanding me to stand
I am so scared of knowing the light is at hand
I looked down to see my old suit was now threadbare
it was beaten and tattered from such poor bear care

 

time has worn me and torn me, I've lost my excuse
my time as a bear grasping the tail of a caboose
the bunny is growing, she does not want to pretend
her ears are becoming impossible to bend
bunny tails don't fit on brown bear behinds

 

my wife's a big bunny, I love her so dearly
her paw pulled away when I let her see clearly
she still does not know what is inside this bear
but sooner or later she will see what is there

 

everything's happening so fast, my heads gonna pop
the clock keeps on ticking, I can not make it stop
I must tell her soon, I don't want her to cry
we could be bunnies together if she just let us try

 

my growl and my roar failed with those stitches
now I cry ever time she scolds and she bitches
brave bear hormones no long there to protect me
estrogen and progesterone profoundly affect me
 

I desperately need some bunny friends of my own
very soon my fur color will be have to be shown
in less than a year my ears will be sticking out straight
my bear nose with fall and show my scared bunny face

 

all the dogs and cats go on just like normal
I doubt that they'll notice one fat grizzly bunny
I have no plan to tell them they don't need to know
I only want my wife Bunny to take me back home

 

 

Edited February 19, 2018 by Dev
Edited at Jae's request.

[bobbisue]

     Beautifully poignant 

 

bobbisue

[jae bear]

Thank you Bobbiesue, the words came so fast it was hard to write down... The tears didnt help one bit either. I see I need to edit here and there and I would love to revise things, unfortunately I can figure out how to do it.

squishy hugs,

Jae

[Timber Wolf]

Hi Jae,

You've got friends here. Always remember that. Hopefully soon we'll be friends you can share joys with, but we're here on the rainy days too.

 

Lots of love and a big hug,

Timber Wolf?

[Charlize]

If there is some major need for a revision please contact one of the moderators.  I found i needed to proofread and that has helped me although i forget from time to time. Hence my typoooos.

 

Hugs,

 

Charlize

[jae bear]

Hi Charlize,

I'm sorry, I was rushing and wiping tears off then my wife came home... I didn't want to get caught- I will take the time to rewrite it and ask to revise it later today. Thanks for the help!

Squishy hugs

Jae

[Petra Jane]

The way I write is to use a text editor, even if it's just Notepad, then once I'm happy with the result, and checked the syntax, spelling, grammar etc, then post it to my site. The best thing to do would be to copy it from the original post, if you haven't got a copy on your device/machine, paste it into Notepad, make your tweaks, then as Charlize says, contact a Mod and ask them to change the text for your edited copy.

[jae bear]

Hi Petra Jane,

 How funny, that's just what I did, I thought it was to low end but it worked fine for me...

squishy hugs,

Jae

[jae bear]

oops, forgot to mention I sent a revised copy to Dev...

Thanks!

[jae bear]

thanks to Dev for revising my post... I felt the changes were needed, it's funny what you still leave out even when your trying to be completely honest.

Love to you all,

Jae

[BrandiBri]

My heart goes out to you, Jae. It's pure h___ if your spouse won't support you. I know from experience, my wife would have no part of it and demanded that I not dress that way, so I had to dress behind her back. That's hard emotionally and I completely understand how you feel. I guess I could have been the one to write that poem as it's my story as well. You nailed it!

 

Love, Brandi

[jae bear]

Hi Brandi,

 I only came out to her about the cross dressing, I have yet to drop the girl and hormone part... That's gonna take a while and some counseling before it happens- As I've said before, "if she screams, accuses me of being a cross-dresser and tells me to get out, I'll just pack up her things and go"

 

(not really, I'd beg at her feet on my hands and knees and lie my tail off)

 

squishy hugs,

Jae

 

[BrandiBri]

Jae,

I understand completely, at that time even I didn't know that I was transgender.  She died before I realized that I was more than a crossdresser. When the time comes to tell her the rest, I wish you the best of luck. I truly it goes well.

 

Love, Brandi

[jae bear]

Thanks Brandi, I'll take all the luck I can get! I'm about to post a new poem you might like!

HUGE Hugs,

Jae