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Covering my tracks

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jae bear

lived all of my life as a big angry bear
not caring for other as much as I dare
hurting their feelings with angry bellows
dragging my claws in the tracks that followed

 

swiped at the bunnies and made them all scared
roared and stood up as they hid under chairs
I knew I was wrong but I was just hiding
the scared little bunny inside bear pajamas

 

all at once something happened, spinning the bear
a flood of hormones that changed the fur there
from brown to a soft fuzzy light purple exterior
the tracks in the snow didn't look quite familiar

 

I saw the big feet and the claws on the pathway
turn slowly sweet and small with long strides
the tracks led to little rabbit feet of my own
as the bear fell away and left the small bunny shown

 

other bunnies still scared, on sees me one doesn't
white bunny, my wife, sees quite much more clearly
still blinking she's not sure what to make of it yet
the bear fell away, revealed something different

 

my place on this path only leads to this point
I hope our new path leaves three bunny tracks
it's up up her now, the white bunny controls me
I'd beg on my knees if she'd only console me

 

 

squishy hugs,

Jae

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