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Trapped with in my self imposed fears


Jocelyn

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It's been a while since the urge to write poetry, I have always struggled with writing but amazed at what ends up on the paper.

 

Trapped

Living a life no one sees

Lost within the soul of another

Destined to be trapped looking at me

Tears never seen, cries never herd

The girl who never was yet always there

pushed down deep never to the light of day

the fear of lost self reality living the lie

living to be everything to everyone except her

looking to find a way to break thru self

trapped within an unauthentic life

 

Thank you for taking the time to read my wandering thoughts.

Jocelyn

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you just described my life. I felt the same way until I finally broke free last year. Wandering thoughts sometimes reveal things we don't know about ourselves. Very beautiful poem!

 

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Brandi

thank you for your kind words, I was writing in my journal trying to figure out somethings about my life and un expectantly the poem came out.

I am pleased with what comes out when I write poems, they are what is inside of me.

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Jocelyn

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I love it! I found poems really allowed me to dig deep and reveal hard to access thoughts... I wish you all the best, your poem speaks to all of us.

Squishy hugs,

Jae

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thank you Jae bear, I find that I really connect to what some members write about. It helps me to feel not so alone and different.

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Jocelyn

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Jocelyn,

You are not alone, nor are you different. The great thing about this forum is that we get to meet people from different parts of the world, different cultures, but all the same nevertheless. Rereading your poem, I am reminded of my own life as "him", and how happy I am to be where I am now. 

 

Hugs,

Brandi

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On 3/7/2018 at 8:41 PM, BrandiBri said:

You are not alone, nor are you different.

Hi Jocelyn,

I can only double Brandi’s thoughts on this she is right on the mark, as she so often is, this is a place for all of us, and we are not different, we are all remarkably similar with her own unique problems and issues,  but we’re all here for each other and that’s what draws us close. I myself have drawn immense power and strength from all the wonderful people here and couldn’t imagine my life without them, I would still be living a lie or at least denying myself and being miserable if I did not know this resource had existed. My only recommendation here is soaking in the love and acceptance of those here around you  and love yourself and allow yourself  The time and importance that you yourself deserve, this realization we’ve all come to is not an easy thing, but it might be the most important thing, as many Of us have come to realize. I really love your poem, I look forward to reading more poetry from any member. Your poem really speaks to me, even if it makes me cry I enjoyed it thoroughly and look forward to every new posting, please dig deep one more time and let us all enjoy what you have inside to share, I myself will be anxiously awaiting.

Big squishy hug,

Jae

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