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Hey my names luke i'm 23, about a week ago I essentially decided to stop lying to myself about my true identity as a female, I'm feeling really overwhelmed by these feelings that i've been repressing for year and years, at the same time I feel very relieved, and this explains some odd feelings that I've been having since about the age of 13 (even thought I knew deep down what it really was) I'd honestly like someone whos older than and also going mtf, for more guidance really, I need someone to speak too, because i'm worried about lots and lots of things like will people accept me, how will my family react, will I pass, and I really have no one to speak to about it. If someone could PM me i'd really appreciate it!

 

thanks and hello! ^^

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Hello Luke.  I'm glad you found us and joined the forum.  Finally admitting the truth to ourselves is a relieving experience.  You can gauge how people will react by bringing up the subject in conversation (did you see that story about...) or by wearing a necklace to see if you get any response.  Then add other items.   Don't worry about passing right now.  Work on accepting yourself; its the first step.  Since you're in the UK, try connecting with the closest GIC to get an appointment.  It may take a while. 


Cheers, Jani 

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24 minutes ago, Jani said:

Hello Luke.  I'm glad you found us and joined the forum.  Finally admitting the truth to ourselves is a relieving experience.  You can gauge how people will react by bringing up the subject in conversation (did you see that story about...) or by wearing a necklace to see if you get any response.  Then add other items.   Don't worry about passing right now.  Work on accepting yourself; its the first step.  Since you're in the UK, try connecting with the closest GIC to get an appointment.  It may take a while. 


Cheers, Jani 

Thank you for your reply, this is a very strange experience It's been 10 years of me lying to myself and this is the first time i've ever acknowledged it like this, and I'll see what I can do, it doesn't make it any less scary though, unfortunately my nearest GIC is quite far away, but i'll speak to my GP about it and see, do you know how long it could take exactly? 

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Hello Luke, 

Welcome to TransPulse forums.  I would do as Jani suggested. Bring the subject up casually in conversation and see what the reaction is. If it seems favorable, by all means, come out. However, if you get a negative reaction, it would be better to remain silent. There will always be time later for the coming out declaration. As far as how long the transition will take, you need to realize this. This is not a 100 meter sprint. Rather, it's a marathon. Go slowly. Take baby steps, as we call them. Slowly but surely, you will get to your goal. You'll run into setbacks but don't be discouraged. If you persevere, you'll get there. If you have specific questions, feel free to ask. There will be somebody here who can answer. :)

 

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Hiya Luke(MoonBune), 

 

I'm not sure what(if any) resources you have locally but I can give you some links that have helped me figure out a timeline, set expectations, and gather a better understanding of what hrt can do

 

As with all things take what you need, leave behind what you don't. 

 

https://www.rainbowhealthontario.ca/TransHealthGuide/gp-femht.html

The "what to expect when expecting" for women transitioning. 

 

https://pairedlife.com/gender-sexuality/How-to-Get-on-Transsexual-Hormone-Replacement-Therapy-Relatively-Easy

Title says it all =P

 

WPATH has set a "standard of care" according to this guide you are eligible for hrt after seeing a therapist for 3 months before starting hrt, and a year living in your desired gender before surgery. Of course money trumps this but it's better to take your time. The desire to rush is strong I know (I'm with ya sista!) but we've waited this long a bit longer is a small sacrifice for safer and more stable long term results. 

 

I recommend reading through some members greetings pages (the HI my name is X pages) just reading the back and forth is remarkably soothing and helps you get to know them a bit aswell ?

 

Stay strong, you'll get there! We're all here for you and with you! Xoxo

 

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4 hours ago, MoonBune said:

unfortunately my nearest GIC is quite far away, but i'll speak to my GP about it and see, do you know how long it could take exactly? 

Speaking with your Gp is a good idea to start.   I don't know which GIC would be the closest to you but you could call to inquire about their services, appointment queue, and if there were anything more local to you.

 

Also you might try connecting with a local LGBT support group, although a specific transgender group would be better. 

 

Jani

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Hi and welcome to Transpulse Moon, I usually have three pieces of advice for people just starting their transitions. 

1. Be honest with yourself. In addition to those opposed to me transitioning, others were cheering me down the road. But in the end I had to figure out who I was not who everyone thought I should be. If I did transition for the wrong reasons and the wrong way, it could have been just as bad as I did not transition at all.

 

2. Go at your own pace. There is no first place, and no need to rush things. But I would definitely sign up for GIC clinic based on the wait times I have seen other posters from the UK mention.  

 

3. Only do what you feel you need to do.  In some circles I encountered there is expectation that being MTF means you do XYZ. Not all MTFs go through the same transition. My girlfriend is MTF, but has no desire for GCS, but wants facial feminization and breast augmentation. For me, GCS was a huge thing in lessening my dysphoria. 

 

PS: When did the UK take South Carolina back? :lol:

 

 

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Just now, MarcieMarie12 said:

PS: When did the UK take South Carolina back? :lol:

 

I think they recaptured Charleston!  

 

Jani

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Hi Luke,

Welcome to TransPulse. I'm glad you've found us!

 

Can't add much to what was said above, except to take a deep breath and relax. I know at first it feels like we've got to dive right in to the deep end, but we have to learn to swim in the shallow end first.

 

Lots of love,

Timber Wolf?

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Welcome Luke,

Take a deep breath.  Finding and accepting ourselves is more a slow walk than a sprint.

Enjoy it.  You are not alone.

 

Hugs,

 

Charlize

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Oh wow I wasn't expecting to get this much support, thanks a lot everyone, I'm starting to accept it a bit more mentally I think, I'm just feeling a bit overwhelmed and insecure at the moment but I'm sure I can get past that with time and help from psychiatrists on Monday I'm gonna go to my GP and talk about what I can do (hopefully I don't get messed around) hugs all around and thank you everybody ?

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