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KymmieL

Good morning All. Coffees on.

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ShawnaLeigh

Long drive to work this AM heading into NH with hot coffee and very loud music.  I think I can sing good or something, but apparently not that good as I have to drown out my own voice with the volume.  LOL

The craziness continues out there and I am hoping all my friends here are staying healthy and safe!

Have a wonderful day!

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TammyAnne

In the 40s here, foggy but supposed to be sunshiney today.

Regardless of the weather there's nothing so good as that first sip of coffee in the morning.

I'm feeling antsy with the "social distancing" thing going on. I had so wanted to meet a nice guy, be held and cuddled for as many hours as the day is long. Instead I had a "telephone date" with a guy I'd met who told me he thought I was strange and not in the least bit pretty. Crushed. Totally crushed. I at least thought I had pretty eyes.

So it's literally back to the drawing board.

I can scribble away the aching need inside for a while.

《《《 hugs 》》》

TA

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KymmieL

TammyAnne I'm so sorry that your date turned out to be a <water balloon> bag. keep your chin up and smile. 

Well still no news on the baby front. But my daughter in law has a Dr appointment today and the Dr may induce either today or tomorrow.  He is as stubborn as his father. He was later too, and had to be induced.

 

Well new on the work front. We are now closing at 7:30 instead of 9. We have slowed down quite a bit. I did get my hall pass yesterday. A letter stating that I worked for an essential business and can be out. in case of a shelter in place order comes. 

 

Waiting on coffee again. On my closing shift days and days off I should set up the coffee pot and just turn it on once I get up.

 

Keep healthy and happy, everyone.

 

Hugs

Kymmie

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ShawnaLeigh

Ouch @TammyAnne that was not just mean but down right rude.  I would never say that to another human being even if I did not think they were the least bit attractive and I am dead sure honey you do have pretty eyes!!!!

I am floundering around myself with this very topic.  I have caused quite a stir in my circles and have been attracting some weirdos recently.  I guess every girl need to practice being a bitch at one time or another. (wink wink)

I main just politely refuse them but some of them are persistent.  Like that is attractive?!?!  Not to me anyways...

So keep your head up and keep smiling.  Be your best most positive self and that my dear is what your soul mate will lock on to.

At least that's the advice I am telling my self as I go to bed lonely every night.  LOL

Honestly I am in no position to date anyways.  I need to get passed this divorce and learn more about who Shawna really is.

 

 

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Jackie C.
3 hours ago, TammyAnne said:

Instead I had a "telephone date" with a guy I'd met who told me he thought I was strange and not in the least bit pretty. Crushed. Totally crushed. I at least thought I had pretty eyes.

So it's literally back to the drawing board.

 

Well that guy obviously wasn't worth your time. That's just not something you tell a lady. Ever.

 

On the bright side, all experiences are good experiences in the sense that they can inspire your art. The next guy will probably be better. They teach them to be gentlemen in the south, right? 😀

 

Hugs!

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Susan R
7 hours ago, TammyAnne said:

Instead I had a "telephone date" with a guy I'd met who told me he thought I was strange and not in the least bit pretty. Crushed. Totally crushed. I at least thought I had pretty eyes.

The phone guy is the odd duck.  I would’ve said to him, “Oh stop! Hon, You had me at...You’re Strange!” and promptly hung up on him.  So much for chivalry.  Some people just don’t know how it works. Sorry you had to deal with this idiot. Dating isn’t always fun.

 

I’m home (isn’t everyone?) and having a very late morning with scrambled eggs with bacon bits and a vanilla caramel mocha. Mmmmm... the added vanilla works so well with my usual caramel mocha.  My wife loves it too.

 

Anyways, I’m in a really good mood despite the world going to ‘hell in a hand basket’. Yesterday morning, I found a new therapist for another letter of recommendation for GRS as my surgeon requires two letters.  She said she’s booked right now but will call me back if she has any cancellations.  Well late last evening, she emailed me and said she has an opening this week. She will do the therapy via video but needs to see in person once initially ...this Friday!!  I am so happy about this.  I was hoping it could all be done via video conference method but she did say her office is sterilized between patients and she now inserts a 15 min. gap between every patient’s scheduled visit.  I feel good that I’m able to move forward on this road to my surgery even if it’s in a very small step.  Most of the other things in my life are on holding pattern so finding this therapist and getting this all lined up yesterday has really helped.

 

Hope everyone is doing OK..hang in there!

Susan R🌷

 

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TammyAnne

Thank you for the encouraging words @KymmieL @ShawnaLeigh @Jackie C. @Susan R I'm recovering my happy self, but it sure stung at the time.

I'm determined I can do better and deserve better.

I seem to get a lot of friend requests from weirdos too. When the written English is very badly broken but they claim to be from nearby, alarm bells go off for me.

TA

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Emily michelle
14 hours ago, ShawnaLeigh said:

OMG @Emily michelle it was 7*F at my house this morning!  I'm about done with being half froze all the time.  Though it does lock up all the mud here when its this cold.  VT is in the thick of Mud Season.  LOL

WOW yeah I couldn’t do 7 degrees. We only get that a few times a winter which is perfectly fine by me because I’m a field mechanic so I spend all my time outside. We have had no shortage of mud I’m so sick of it lol.


Tammy I’m sorry your date didn’t go well. I’m sure it will get better just keep your head up. I give you a lot of credit I couldn’t do it if I had to start dating I had insecurity issues before I got married and I know I couldn’t do it now.

 

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Willow

Hi

 

well no coffee today, used the last of it yesterday and haven’t gotten to a store.  Our temperatures are at least reasonable but shifty.  50s 70s 60s 80s just all over the dial.

 

my family will be joining us today. They are coming here from Virginia and our granddaughters will be staying with us for 3 weeks.  
 

The only bad news is Willow has to go back in the closet.  They don’t know about here.

 

Willow

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ShawnaLeigh

OMG terrible day yesterday afternoon. 

Company car broke down on my way home.  Front wheel bearing crapped out and it was all but undrivable.  Almost home too dang it. Like 10 miles or so.  I naturally tried to call my office, but Sweet, no cell service and I knew about where I needed to walk to before I could make a call.  Great.  This blows.  

It was not to cold out but walking the side a main route in VT in Dansko clogs was not a fun thing.  I kept rolling my ankles in the uneven ground.  It sucked.  I almost feel down once and was so angry at the entire situation.

THEN there was the multiple cars that stopped to offer me a ride.  I'm thinking "sweet" but then I see, or smell, what has stopped and I'm like "No thank you".  Some wear fairly insistent and it was a tad scary.  I did not realize how many creeps were in VT but I suppose I have been sheltered from a lot of this my entire life.  They might of been nice guys but I did not get a good sense from many of them so Pass!  There were like 7 cars that stopped in my first mile and a half.  Hmm that's kinda cool but risky.  

I'm not worried with my past military training but still I don't need that sort of crap.  I did keep a hand on my "little friend" in my purse even so.  

Eventually a guy I knew stopped to offer me a ride.  Though he did not know it was me.  LOL

Yea that's the weirdest coming out I have had to date.  But he was nice and still offered me the ride.  He was always a nice guy when I knew him as male so I accepted.  He drove me to the cell service spot everyone seems to use on this road and waited and drove me back to my car.  It was pleasant to chat with him and he had a ton of good questions which I never mind answering.  Unless they get a tad personal on a physical sense.  Which he only asked one of those but felt bad instantly.  I gave him a pass on that one since he was being so nice.  Though its so true that men are so captivated by breasts.   He just had to know if mine were fake or real. Them being real was a shock to him. Though he did not ask me to prove it.  So its all good.  I took it as a compliment. LOL

 

I am now sitting at home working "remotely" before the car appointment.   Basically playing online until its time to go.  Authorized by my supervisor so I am still getting paid too.  LOL

 

Hope you all have a great day!

 

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Emily michelle

Oh wow your luck sounds about like mine but at least your home safe and you get paid to stay home now lol. I volunteered to work from home but my boss just busted out laughing and said hell no. Haha

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KymmieL

Shawna, wow. Glad you are OK and actually didn't have to walk all the way to service and back to your car. at least it wasn't snowing and cold.

 

Well news on the baby front, my daughter in law is at the hospital, She started contractions about 11 last night. Went to the hospital about 3:30-4 this morning. Got the text a little before 6 this morning. So it is a waiting game now.

 

Kymmie

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TammyAnne

Wow ShawnaLeigh an eventful time with your car!

I am glad you can pick up on what I refer to as my "slime meter" interacting with others. It's good to be able to have that sense kick in. Otherwise things might have gone very wrong.

Congratulations on getting through that safely.

TA

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MetaLicious
23 hours ago, TammyAnne said:

Thank you for the encouraging words @KymmieL @ShawnaLeigh @Jackie C. @Susan R I'm recovering my happy self, but it sure stung at the time.

I'm determined I can do better and deserve better.

I seem to get a lot of friend requests from weirdos too. When the written English is very badly broken but they claim to be from nearby, alarm bells go off for me.

TA

I agree - you simply do not ever say that to a woman, or heck to any person.  Lordy, if that's how he treats a first date, how abrasive would he be once he got to know you?  That's is so not okay...  I'm glad you are recovering, though.  As you said, you deserve better, and you will do better,  just keep yourself out there and don't settle for losers like that.

 

I have a dear friend who grew up in my neighborhood, and his writing is atrocious.  Like, most people who speak English as a second language write better than he can.  Those weirdos might actually be from nearby!  Still, if an alarm goes off, don't ever ignore it - ignoring warning bells always gets me trouble.

 

7 hours ago, ShawnaLeigh said:

THEN there was the multiple cars that stopped to offer me a ride.  I'm thinking "sweet" but then I see, or smell, what has stopped and I'm like "No thank you".  Some wear fairly insistent and it was a tad scary.  I did not realize how many creeps were in VT but I suppose I have been sheltered from a lot of this my entire life.  They might of been nice guys but I did not get a good sense from many of them so Pass!  There were like 7 cars that stopped in my first mile and a half.  Hmm that's kinda cool but risky.

This is the kind of thing that drives home how little choice we have.  Why would someone choose to become a target for creeps and weirdos?  I'm just glad that someone you could trust came along.  And what a coming out!  You were able to see both sides of the coin that is human nature...

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KymmieL

Well I am a grand parent for the 4th time. 12:33 my new grandson was born, 7# 3oz, 21inches.

Tomorrow We take off after work and head to Lincoln, NE to help my oldest move. the Sunday We will stop by and visit our new grandson.

Kymmie

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Jani

Congratulations  Kymmie and family!

Jani

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Emily michelle

Congrats kymmie!

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Aidan5
35 minutes ago, KymmieL said:

Well I am a grand parent for the 4th time. 12:33 my new grandson was born, 7# 3oz, 21inches.

Tomorrow We take off after work and head to Lincoln, NE to help my oldest move. the Sunday We will stop by and visit our new grandson.

Kymmie

Congrats Kymmie!! That is really cool, the kid is lucky to have such a cool grandma :)

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Jackie C.
36 minutes ago, KymmieL said:

12:33 my new grandson was born, 7# 3oz, 21inches.

 

Goddess, he's HUGE. Imagine what he'll be like when he's an adult. 😋

 

Congratulations on the new family member!

 

Hugs!

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MetaLicious

Congratulations, Kymmie!  The li'l guy just needed some encouragement, after all. 😄

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Debra Michelle

My daughter Heather and I getting good news,I am her bio father.Heather and I were tearful hearing the good news.The results of the paternity test came in yesterday.She can finally sleep at night knowing who her bio dad is now.Plus doing well with my recovery from my gender corrective surgery still,2 months and is healing very well.

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KymmieL
6 hours ago, Jackie C. said:

 

Goddess, he's HUGE. Imagine what he'll be like when he's an adult. 😋

 

Congratulations on the new family member!

 

Hugs!

He takes after his dad. He was late and 8# 8oz.  now he is 6'2.

 

Kymmie

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TammyAnne
6 hours ago, KymmieL said:

Well I am a grand parent for the 4th time. 12:33 my new grandson was born, 7# 3oz, 21inches.

Tomorrow We take off after work and head to Lincoln, NE to help my oldest move. the Sunday We will stop by and visit our new grandson.

Kymmie

Congratulations. The most wonderful thing about being a grandparent is that you're a superhero to your grandchildren all the time. It's something that really took me by surprise, but I quickly learned to enjoy it.

And you've got four now! That is just awesome.

TA

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TammyAnne
59 minutes ago, Debra Michelle said:

My daughter Heather and I getting good news,I am her bio father.Heather and I were tearful hearing the good news.The results of the paternity test came in yesterday.She can finally sleep at night knowing who her bio dad is now.Plus doing well with my recovery from my gender corrective surgery still,2 months and is healing very well.

My my my. That is really wonderful news.

I know you are pleased, despite the long wait.

Heal up quickly dear. There's a young woman who wants to catch up on lost time. I wish you both the happiest of times as you get settled into parenthood.

TA

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Susan R
9 hours ago, KymmieL said:

Well I am a grand parent for the 4th time. 12:33 my new grandson was born, 7# 3oz, 21inches.

Not sure how I missed this big news but congratulations on the new addition to your family, Kymmie!

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