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Jani
2 hours ago, SamanthaC said:

Today I got up at 6:30am, took the dog for a long, long walk (trying to get in shape). Had a banana and yogurt for breakfast and of course a coffee. Best things about the mornings for me now are shaving my legs and moisturizing! Looking for an nice tinting lotion for my legs - any suggestions!

@Samantha C  That's great.  It's never a bad idea to take care of our bodies!   Moisturizing our skin is a wonderful anti-aging technique too!   I don't have any specific suggestion for tinted lotion other than to wear shorts and let the Sun do its thing.   I am sure you can find something with a little color at your favorite drug store.  Don't go too dark as it will look odd.  

 

Cheers, Jani

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Ellora

Good morning! Another beautiful day in paradise. Finished most of my coffee, and had some Chinese leftovers for breakfast, yum! 

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Cyndee
Just now, Ellora said:

Good morning! Another beautiful day in paradise. Finished most of my coffee, and had some Chinese leftovers for breakfast, yum! 

 

It is paradise there Ellora :)

 

We are having a lovely day up this way in the shadows of Big Tahoma, gonna be in the upper 70's and sunny. Rain returns tomorrow however, and there was a little nip in the air earlier this morning. Just back from my 5 miles out,  was honked at by a passing biker :P. Sipping sparkling water at the moment. 

 

Enjoy 

 

C -

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Jani
4 hours ago, Cyndee said:

was honked at by a passing biker :P

Validation points!  

 

I'm glad you're still enjoying time off!  Sounds like a great day!

 

Jani

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Josie Beth
7 hours ago, Ellora said:

Good morning! Another beautiful day in paradise. Finished most of my coffee, and had some Chinese leftovers for breakfast, yum! 

I guess if it had eggs in it that could work. Somehow that reminds me too much of yat gat mein (yakame) the breakfast of champions for people with hangovers. Personally I don’t like the smell of the stuff but those that eat yakame swear by it. I’ll stick to my moo goo gaipan, foo yuong and Kung pao... lol.... At lunch or dinner. Maybe chow mein sometimes. Just can’t reconcile breakfast with Chinese food. Unless there’s plenty of eggs in it. Maybe fried rice? It’s at least got eggs and goes in a pan. 

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Ellora

Good afternoon! In case you were laughing at or wondering, #ThisInstagramHoaxIsStillAHoax

 

It happens every year, and tons of people still fall for it. 

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Debra Michelle

Friend of mine came to visit me.My friend Carly and her husband visited Texas,were in Johnson City and she knows Martin Bros Customs is one of my favorite custom car builders.They stopped there,Carly bought me a couple t shirts telling me one I will like.One is autographed made out to me by the owners.

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Charlize

That is a sweet gift.  It is lovely when someone thinks of you that way.  I had a dear friend who was visiting the John Deere headquarters and he brought me an awesome Deere hat with green and yellow embroidered flames.  

 

Hugs,

 

Charlize

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Debra Michelle

My friend Carly also knows Iron resurrection is a tv show I like

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Jani

That was nice of Carly.  I always appreciate it when someone thinks of me outside of face to face interaction.   

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Cyndee
Just now, Jani said:

That was nice of Carly.  I always appreciate it when someone thinks of me outside of face to face interaction.   

 

Thinking of you now @Jani, I hope your day is going well out there...

 

Here we have rainy morning and cool, hints of fall in the air, the leaves are beginning to show color here. 

 

Have a great day all

 

C -

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Jani

Thank you Cyndee!  

 

PS I love your vacation photos.

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KymmieL

Another beautiful day. cup o coffee is about done.  Just got out of the shower getting ready for my first OB visit. excited and nervous. However it is just another step in my journey. Need to get my pills in me and breakfast then decided what to wear. Wish me luck.

 

Kymmie

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Jani

You'll do fine.  Smile and be yourself.  No luck needed, you're well on your way to happiness.   

 

Just in case, All my best to you today!!

 

Jani

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Debra Michelle

Did get a call from the cops and it was good news.Found  and recovered a hand gun and shotgun of mine I reported stolen 2 years ago.Happy to get them back

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Jani

Wow that was a long time ago.  Good for you!

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Debra Michelle

I have a gun shop owner to thank,he saw something was not right.Called the cops suspecting they were stolen,suspect brought them in to sell.

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SamanthaC

Good morning everyone. Woke up yesterday morning and confidently announced to myself, "I'm a trans woman". Made feel feel incredibly content and happy. Went about my day and left a voice mail for a endocrinologist, "I'm a trans woman'. And it felt so good to say it aloud and to someone else, even if it was an answering machine. Lost a bit of this bravado when back with my family last night, butbtjis morning, I'm feeling good again. This site really has and continues to help me. Sorry rambling on. On a side note, I assume most of us here dont change and shower at the gym? Im reluctant to go to the mens locker room with a shaved body. Any thoughts?

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Charlize

Debra,

 Did they catch the thief?  Amazing that they tried to sell them in a legitimate market.

 

Samantha,

 Admitting to ourselves who we are and then accepting that is a long term process.  I wouldn't worry too much about being hairless.  Many men are.   If it becomes too difficult then showering at home may be the only alternative.

 

I'm almost done cutting the firewood for the house.  I've got 3 cords cut, split and covered on pallets ready to move near the front door.  We unfortunately have hundreds of dead ash trees on the farm.  The emerald ash borer is killing them all.  I feel like crying as i take them down but at least they make great firewood.  I've  also set some pieces aside for hafting axes and hammers.  In time wooden baseball bats will disappear. Another ecological disaster.

 

Hugs,

 

Charlize

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Cyndee
Just now, Charlize said:

I'm almost done cutting the firewood for the house.  I've got 3 cords cut, split and covered on pallets ready to move near the front door.  We unfortunately have hundreds of dead ash trees on the farm.  The emerald ash borer is killing them all.  I feel like crying as i take them down but at least they make great firewood.  I've  also set some pieces aside for hafting axes and hammers.  In time wooden baseball bats will disappear. Another ecological disaster.

 

 

Wow Charlize, that's something. 3 cords should be a good supply for winter. We only go through about a cord per winter here, depends. 

 

Have a great day

 

C -

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Debra Michelle
2 hours ago, Charlize said:

Debra,

 Did they catch the thief?  Amazing that they tried to sell them in a legitimate market.

 

Samantha,

 Admitting to ourselves who we are and then accepting that is a long term process.  I wouldn't worry too much about being hairless.  Many men are.   If it becomes too difficult then showering at home may be the only alternative.

 

I'm almost done cutting the firewood for the house.  I've got 3 cords cut, split and covered on pallets ready to move near the front door.  We unfortunately have hundreds of dead ash trees on the farm.  The emerald ash borer is killing them all.  I feel like crying as i take them down but at least they make great firewood.  I've  also set some pieces aside for hafting axes and hammers.  In time wooden baseball bats will disappear. Another ecological disaster.

 

Hugs,

 

Charlize

seller was the thief,arrested him on the spot.

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Willow

Hi,

 

Well, I am back from my trip to Portland,  We had a great time with our son and his wife.  Got to see how Mt. St. Helen has changed.  I last saw it in the 80s just a few years after it blew.  We managed to avoid the ANTIFA and the Proud Boys.  

 

I was having paperwork issues with my latest sailboat purchase, but I got that all resolved today.  I'm looking forward to doing some organizing and cleaning now that I know for certain I'll be able to sail it when I am done.  

 

Could be a rainy windy weekend with the storm coming up the east coast from Florida.  I hope it doesn't come ashore.  

 

Hope everyone is safe and not in the way of the latest California wild fires.

 

Willow

 

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tracy_j
18 hours ago, Charlize said:

 

I'm almost done cutting the firewood for the house.  I've got 3 cords cut, split and covered on pallets ready to move near the front door.  We unfortunately have hundreds of dead ash trees on the farm.  The emerald ash borer is killing them all.  I feel like crying as i take them down but at least they make great firewood.  I've  also set some pieces aside for hafting axes and hammers.  In time wooden baseball bats will disappear. Another ecological disaster.

 

It's  sad about the Ash trees here as well. I have one that has self seeded beside my greenhouse. Totally the wrong place and I don't  have room for one either but I am loathe to remove it. I cut it back, but am happy to see it grow back. I will keep it as long as possible. I am not sure if it can be transplanted anywhere.

 

Tracy

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Debra Michelle

My husband and I decided to take in a transgendered teen.Her name is Meghan,15 years old and her mom kicked her out after coming out in June.Friend of mine mentioned her to me first 3 weeks ago.I told my husband next,told me lets do it.Meghan moved in on Thursday and much happier knowing I'm transgendered too,a pre op transsexual.Does know My husband and I are there for her.I even took Meghan shopping and getting her hair done today.Had a huge smile on her face for the first time.

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Josie Beth

That’s wonderful news @Debra Michelle! This post made me so happy 😀 

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