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RithiaAllen

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RithiaAllen

I was just talking online with another forum member and going through old photos and found these oldies back from 2010 when I was roughly three months into HRT. Man those where the days.

 

The feeling of the testosterone receding and the estrogen flowing and then youth. This makes me want to resolve. I am going to lose al the weight I have gained and get back to this. Diet time and then changed eating habits never again.

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tracy_j

There is nothing like old photographs to give us twinges, both good and bad. You have some nice ones there! Just take things steady and gradually lose weight at the same time as modifying your diet (probably with a little exercise, which most of us do not get enough of). You will get there!

 

Tracy

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RithiaAllen

That’s pretty much it. Sterling and my job in DC gave me tons of walkable space. I used to walk miles a day. I got to Winchester and there is nothing. But where I am right now i’m Half a mile from a trail and it’s protected side walks all the way there so I’ve started walking again. I’m considering buying a bicycle again and getting back into that too.

 

I’ve cut the pop/soda/coke (it’s funny how different areas call it different things) and I’m going to start fasting during the day and eat a single small meal at dinner for a while. This way I can burn off the stored sugar and then fat. The good thing about burning off the sugar is getting rid of thenwater stored with it so bye bye bloat.

 

Then there is the fact I’ve been off HRT since November which got me low energy and depressed. Then I got out to Texas for the new job and I didn’t know who to go to for HRT. I discovered that Planned Parenthood does and scheduled online, but it didn’t give me an option to say I started and stopped and needed to get back and switch doctors. So I’m going to have walk in and explain then hopefully they do whatever tests they need and give me a prescription so I can get back on. This year has been an absolute killer.

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RithiaAllen

I wish I could edit, I have to proofread. 🤨

 

The good thing about burning off the sugar is getting rid of the water stored with it so bye bye bloat.

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Jani

You looked great back then!  I hope your interaction with PP goes well.  Good luck with your weight goals. 

 

Jani

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RithiaAllen

Thanks, next year at the job costume party I’m coming as Misato Katsuragi. She’s the original strong female role and I feel like I can identify with her and she looks cool so it would be a great costume.

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Raven1981

Hello RithiaAllen

 

Love the memory lane pictures.  You look so good.  I have done the same thing so far and yet I am still early in my HRT and transitions.  But I can see some changes on me.

 

I am with you, time for Diet.  Need to change my eating habit.  

 

Lots of Love

 

Amy

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RithiaAllen
Just now, Amy LeBlanc said:

Hello RithiaAllen

 

Love the memory lane pictures.  You look so good.  I have done the same thing so far and yet I am still early in my HRT and transitions.  But I can see some changes on me.

 

I am with you, time for Diet.  Need to change my eating habit.  

 

Lots of Love

 

Amy

Thanks.

 

Its sad but I forgot all about that time. Low self esteem, the grind, getting outed at work and it grinded on me. I feel like just talking about it has woken me back up.

 

no one is going to tell me what I can and can’t do. I’ve lost the weight before, I can do it again and this time once I have a good diet I’m going to make that my permanent meal. Every now and then I can slip in some spaghetti, regatonti or some chicken parmigiana. Especially when I get back to my daily run routine of two miles and another few walking but I have to build back up to that.

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RithiaAllen

I was looking at the photos on my super old 3GS and found this photo when we where in Italy. So that was completely before transitioning but it was before HRT.

 

This second one was after SRS about a year and a half after The first photo.

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RithiaAllen

Hmm the attachments flipped order while posting.

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Susan R

Wow, Rithia..you've come a long way. The transformation is so amazing!  Thanks for sharing.

 

Susan R🌷

 

 

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RithiaAllen

Thanks. What I really want to do is get back to that point as much as possible.

 

The funny thing is as a guy I had to do tricks like wear darker pants to hide the 41 inch hips and I look at myself and think how unnatural I looked. Oh and yes I’m the exact same height as my youngest sister and only a few inches taller then my shortest sister.

 

Infact before I gained all the weight if you put us side by side my Mom started mixing up the names. Very gratifying.😄

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typeox1jo

Memories are very nice to have.. Some say leave the past in the past BUT i say.. the past can be just as

alive as the future.. I donno.. I think of all the cool things of the past.. In fact In a way you can reflect on the

past and make it a happy future ... Am I being too abstract? 

 

oh well.. you did look real well in the pics!! Very positive.. 

I also am trying to lose weight.. about 60 lbs.. 

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