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Hello all!

I just found this site after looking around on reddit.  I feel one cannot get to much information if one belongs to a group of people wo does not exactly fit into the norm set by society.  and I am a double whammy of not fitting it.  I am intersex and transgender.  Research indicates that my case is common in a bout 1/40000, which means, about 100 or so years ago I would have been the sensation of a traveling carnival exhibit! (and sometimes I feel like this)

I have an advanced degree in biomedical sciences, and made my living in research on infection control & prevention.  Somebody decided at my birth that I was to be a male, and I tried to grow up as one, but failed most of the time to reach the goal.  After my male peers reached puberty, it was pretty clear that I was different, because I never developed any of the secondary male sex characteristics and continued to remain rather feminin in my appearance.  I did pretty OK as a man because my more or less female body was hidden under the clothing, and people are not good observers, they see what they want to see.  Nobody ever realized that I do not have an Adams Apple, and have a rather female ja line, a female typical hairline, and a higher frequency pitch voice, until I pointed these features out when I came out as a trans woman.

I actually don't consider myself as a "typical" trans woman, but rather as an individual who reclaimed her gender  that was taken shortly after birth.  a genome analysis indicates that I seem to be about 2/3 female and 1/3 male, and that I had a female type menopause about 16 years ago.  And that was the time at which I slowly started to drift into my transition. I am now living as a woman for quite a while, and am sad that I missed out on many years of living as one.
i have the rather unusual ability to switch into a male presentation, whenever this is of advantage to me (going to an auto repair shop, etc.), and I have no dysphoria about it at all!  My psychologist feels that this great, because it shows that I am so solidly anchored into my femininity  that this male presentation is more like a dressing up for Halloween or for cosplay.

 

Anyway, this is me in a nutshell, and like most intersex persons, I look about 20 or so years younger than my biological age is.

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Hi Linde, welcome to the forums, I confess that I have never found a "Typical" Trans woman in my years on either side of the coin, but your story is ONE of the variations we have in things here, so you do fit this group very well.  Xy Mosaic is a real issue, and we have some stuff in the forums here, that if not helpful should at least be reassuring. What goes into our career choices  is interesting and often comes from special questions we  have about ourselves.  

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16 minutes ago, DeeDee said:

Wow! What a brilliant and interesting introduction. Hello!

Thank you for reading it and complementing me!

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9 minutes ago, VickySGV said:

Hi Linde, welcome to the forums, I confess that I have never found a "Typical" Trans woman in my years on either side of the coin, but your story is ONE of the variations we have in things here, so you do fit this group very well.  Xy Mosaic is a real issue, and we have some stuff in the forums here, that if not helpful should at least be reassuring. What goes into our career choices  is interesting and often comes from special questions we  have about ourselves.  

I think I choose the profession because I have a very strong drive to help human beings to have a better life. In addition, my job was absolutely gender neutral (we all were wearing the identical white lab coats), and the pressure to transition was not very strong at that time.

It is very hard to do a good self analysis about those things, because the wants are very often overshadow the reality.

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Hello Linde, it's a pleasure to meet you.  I'm glad you found us here.  I agree with Dee in that you have written a wonderful intro which was very interesting to read.  Some of the biggest decisions in life are made for us early in life.  At least today, one can sometimes benefit from medical advancements to correct these decisions if they're wrong.  You seem to have  done just that.

 

1 hour ago, Linde said:

I am now living as a woman for quite a while, and am sad that I missed out on many years of living as one.

This is a common theme among many of us here including myself.  If it wasn't for my wife and family, I'd probably redo the last 22 years of my life given the opportunity.

 

18 minutes ago, VickySGV said:

I confess that I have never found a "Typical" Trans woman in my years on either side of the coin, but your story is ONE of the variations

I second that.  Nearly every Introduction story on this forum contains some unique element. The variations are plentiful.

 

I want to add...I have met two other intersex TG individuals on our Discord chat.  You might give it a go if you have any interest in live chat with others like us.  Thanks for sharing.  I hope to read more about your journey in the future.

 

Susan R?

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Hi Linde,

Welcome to TransPulse. I'm glad you've found us!

 

Lots of love,

Timber Wolf?

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1 hour ago, Timber Wolf said:

Hi Linde,

Welcome to TransPulse. I'm glad you've found us!

 

Lots of love,

Timber Wolf?

Thank Timber Wolf, I like it here.  Your name reminds me on my former residence in North Western Wisconsin.  I had some of those beasts living on my land there!

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Welcome Linde!  Don't be saddened by missed years as they do form the person we have become.  

 

See you around! 
Jani

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