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ToniTone

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Well, in a week I have my appointment to meet with the primary at the local train clinic to discuss my gender dysphoria, and consult (and hopefully) getting on hrt. 

 

I posted in this thread prior about alot of doubts and fears I had. Thank you all for your input, so much of it and your experiences you shared with me gave me a lot to consider. I've been deliberating thoroughly on it, and I truly have no doubt in my mind or apprehension about following through with it. I know who I am, and I know I don't want to be this. I know it may effect my sex "drive" "negatively", and quite frankly I look forward to it if anything, I'm over it, I can be chaste... I just want to be something I can embrace and have less loathing about, something closer to the image of beauty and the feel of something soft and lovely. I know I want this, nay I need it. 

 

Now for logistic issues of pursuing this, I don't know how access to hrt works in a legal sense. I'm in pretty good health imho.  Moderate diet, slowly getting active again this spring. No diseases. My enzyme, cholesterol, nutritient and electrolyte levels were all in ideal ranges for my physiology four months ago (when I last had a physical w/labs). Sober 6 months, quit smoking cigarettes a few weeks ago (nic replacement, in anticipation of hrt, and for my health in general). 

 

The clinic I go to is informed consent. They monitor labs monthly, for like the first 6 months I think? Now (especially after a rather sedentary winter I'm sure) I'm not triathlon athlete healthy by any means. But I'm sure I'm at least 'ok'..?

 

I don't/am not scheduled to see a psychologist/counselor, in general or about my gender dysphoria. I used to see a few for anxiety and depression, but stopped years ago bc I found it all so pointless and unbeneficial, like talking to a wall that nods and takes notes and has absolutely nothing beneficial to say to me that I can't learn from reading a medical text book. I don't really see myself as depressed or (cripplingly) anxious anymore and am not diagnosed as such. If the only way to get hrt is to talk to a counselor I will, but I know I'm trans and know this will benefit me. I feel validation and support from support groups and friends and forums such as this are all the counsel I need

 

So what I'm wondering is, is it difficult still to acquire hrt via informed consent protocol? Does (in your experiences/non-mo opinion) the description of my health sound like I could or could not be a candidate for hrt? The reviews I read on this clinic (disclose maybe? It's in mpls, mn) are quite good, say they aren't very gatekeepy at all, and can get the process going pretty quickly (like within a week or two). But I don't always trust reviews.

 

I'm really anxious about the prospect of being declined access to hrt, or having the process of beginning it hopelessly delayed/prolonged.  I'm trying not to give my hopes up about it, but I'm really eager to begin this transformation! 

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Lol, train clinic. CHOO-CHOO!.. Supposed to say transgender* Forgive me, I don't know how to take the auto-correct on my phone and I didn't proof-read. 

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8 hours ago, ToniTone said:

So what I'm wondering is, is it difficult still to acquire hrt via informed consent protocol? Does (in your experiences/non-mo opinion) the description of my health sound like I could or could not be a candidate for hrt? The reviews I read on this clinic (disclose maybe? It's in mpls, mn) are quite good, say they aren't very gatekeepy at all, and can get the process going pretty quickly (like within a week or two). But I don't always trust reviews.

 

Under Informed Consent you are the one in charge.  You are provided some educational material and ask to sign a document that you understand the ramifications.  They will look at your medical data to see if there are any markers for danger that you (and they as your medical team) should be aware of.  Don't worry about being declined.  You will look back at this time fondly.  

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Yeah don’t worry about being declined. If they are a good clinic, and you go in ready to be open and honest they will know that you are who you say you are. They see lots of trans patients and know what’s up. You have nothing to hide. And you’re just trying to be yourself. That’s all they are looking for. Reassurance that you have thought about this and know what’s coming. 

Good luck! Not that you need it. ?

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Yes exactly what Kristen said. Be honest and you have nothing to worry about. Good luck and let us know how it goes.?

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Thanks y'all! I do plan on being truthful and fully disclose my health to then, I take medical protocol quite seriously.

 

I have alot of interest in the medical field despite not having a formal education in it actually. In my spare time I've been thoroughly studying the chemistry and pharmacological dynamics of hormones. *Is nerd*

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Well, my appointment's tomorrow morning, so excited I just want to get started! 

 

Hope my lab numbers are still in ok ranges. I had a pretty sedentary, stress-eating riddled winter. 

 

Oh shoot, I just realized I forgot to fast for my labs! 

 

Well anyway, wish me luck y'all! 

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