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(So. Whew. I'm here)

Hello! I'm Lee (that's my chosen name), I'm amab and I've been questioning myself for basically years without really getting nowhere, until over the last year and a half I crashed headfirst into the realization that I wasn't a guy.

It felt obvious, at first. I'd never really thought of myself (or other people, for that matter) as a boy or a girl, so I assumed I must be nonbinary, right? But I'd always thought about being a girl, and dreamed about myself as a girl. And experimenting with pronouns and clothes I felt more comfortable in a feminine shape. I thought it'd be safe, telling my parents and girlfriend.

I was wrong. My parents reacted as you'd expect, and we've been fighting for the last three weeks. My girlfriend had been witnessing my realization from the start, but my worsening dysphoria and resulting depression (coupled with her own depression and anxiety) broke us up two weeks ago.

I am basically trying to understand how to deal myself on my own, now. I found this site through an Instagram LGBT+ support page, and browsing through it I thought it may help, talking to people who are in my same situation or have already managed to get better.

So...that's why I'm here. I don't know any of you yet, but I'd love to, and hope we'll get along well.


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Hello Lee and welcome!  Don't worry about labels, just be how you are or how you feel.  I know its hard for parents and SO's.  They have this vision of you that has been in their heads and nurtured for years.  Change can be hard for all parties involved.  Have you tried seeing a therapist?  You would find it helpful.  


This is a nice safe site with friendly people from all over the world.   Please join in the conversation!

Cheers, Jani

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Hi, Jani! Thanks for the welcome, yes, I've tried seeing a therapist. Or, actually, me and my parents are going to one, but she's not specialized in gender dysphoria. It's just to help us deal with our relationship problems before, well...before they can even entertain the idea of me transitioning.

Thanks again, I really hope I'll be able to find a free space here.


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Great.  Thats certainly a start.  All my best to you!



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