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my story

00- Born ( mother hoped i was a boy )

6 weeks old - in hospital in a oxygen tent due to breathing problems separated from mother no touching for 2 weeks

2years old - Hit on the head with a house brick - brain damaged - sexual abuse started -

10 years old - raped and witness to my mothers rape - started getting bullied at School - physical abuse started

13years old- ritual abuse started -got pregnant - started self injurying

14years old - gave birth on my own baby was still born

16 year old - moved out of house - become homeless - started selling my body

17years old - starting going out with M - M pimped me and rape me

20 years old - left M - homeless again

21- got my own place -- started drinking

29 - raped by clint - stoped selling myself - met A online - A and i got together - dignozed with having BPD and DID/MPD -stopped drinking

30- married A

32- started to question my gender - joined here

i cant go in to detail about what happened its far to painful but that the only way i can tell my story

thanks

Angel

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Guest Neuro

Awww Angel; 'cmere with us even the boys don't bite! This is a safe and comforting community that is gonna be here for you 100%%%!!! *hugs*

Tons of cookies and a huge welcome caaakee!

Lost ones come here for comfort *HUGS* You are very welcome home from all of us, I hope the others get here soon and sey hey!!

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Guest Nikk

*HUG**HUG**HUG**HUG**HUG**HUG**HUG**HUG**HUG**HUG*

You are totally safe here, and I hope things get better. I'll be here if you ever need a friend - as Neuro said, us boys don't bite.

~Nikk

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Guest Elizabeth K

Angel!

I had no idea!

My goodness - you are home here with us! We are not judgemental - but God help me - the people who abused you! So easy to condemn them - but I will just say, they really need to know the error of their ways...

Lizzy

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  • Admin

Angel, dear. To say your life has been a struggle would be a gross understatement. But you have to believe that things will get better. All of us here at Laura's will help you along the road to happiness, self-discovery and peace of mind. You deserve nothing less. We're here for you. Please share and let us help.

Carolyn Marie

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Guest Sophie H

Oh my god, you poor thing. You really have had a tough time of it. Some of the things you have mentioned I also was a victim of, but I never mention it as it's too painful and I just try to repress it. I do hope that you manage to find some happiness in establishing your gender identity. You really have been through a horrific ordeal and I deeply feel for you my friend.

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Guest Angel21

Thank you all for your replies hugs and friendship i really feel that am home here and that i am safe here as well

thank you

Angel

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Guest brenda lee
my story

00- Born ( mother hoped i was a boy )

6 weeks old - in hospital in a oxygen tent due to breathing problems separated from mother no touching for 2 weeks

2years old - Hit on the head with a house brick - brain damaged - sexual abuse started -

10 years old - raped and witness to my mothers rape - started getting bullied at School - physical abuse started

13years old- ritual abuse started -got pregnant - started self injurying

14years old - gave birth on my own baby was still born

16 year old - moved out of house - become homeless - started selling my body

17years old - starting going out with M - M pimped me and rape me

20 years old - left M - homeless again

21- got my own place -- started drinking

29 - raped by clint - stoped selling myself - met A online - A and i got together - dignozed with having BPD and DID/MPD -stopped drinking

30- married A

32- started to question my gender - joined here

Angel , You are more than welcome to join us and you now have a safe place to turn to.We are all glad to be of some help in any way we can.LOL Brenda Lee

i cant go in to detail about what happened its far to painful but that the only way i can tell my story

thanks

Angel

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Angel,

You know now that you have a safe place to come and there is no need to dwell on the pain of the past, lessons have been learned and you have gotten a better control over your life.

There is no rush to find all of the answers, let them some to you like a gentle stream, like the one in the corner of the playground, it is a little late tonight but would you care to join me there tomorrow and just sit and watch the clouds and listen to the birds and the stream - I'll fix a picnic lunch (I'll bring a lot of food, it is a very popular place among those of us looking for a quiet spot.) - I'll bring some fried chicken and sancwiches, I'm sure to have something that you like.

Just come along and enjoy the calm - the world doesn't know where it is so it can't barge in with all of its problems.

Love ya,

Sally

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Hi Angel and welcome to Laura's. Thank you for sharing your story. You certainly are safe here.

Gennee

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