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ONE YEAR!!


Kirsten

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August 3, 2018. That was the final day in my coming out process. That was the day that I went to work and told everyone that I was transgender and would be living as a woman from there on out. That was a year ago now! And man did it ever FLY by!!! 

 

I’ve done a lot of things over the past year. But one thing was not step backwards. Always forward. Even when it was hardest, I made sure to push forward. When I was scared, I’d take a deep breath and go head on into whatever it was. When problems arose, I would deal with them right away and the best I could. Even when things were good I would be very thankful, but still try to do a little more. When things were bad I leaned on my support structure here and elsewhere. But always moving forward. And at the end of this year I am quite proud of where I am at. 

 

So this year I went thru 6 months of laser (waste of time and money), I have changed my name, I have changed over all of my IDs and bills to my new name, I have lost an awful therapist, but found a much better one in doing so, I have left the safety of Fenway Health for a private endocrinologist, I have had 5 or 6 med changes, I have lost 20+ pounds about 3 times and overall am sitting about 7 pounds heavier than last June. I have become a lifestyle coach, I have walked in a pride parade, I have made no less than a dozen real life new lbgtq+ friends ranging from mtf retirees to ftm teens. And god so much more. But it wasn’t all peaches and cream. 

 

Along with all that good, my marriage has suffered, I have lost my immediate birth family and possibly many of the extended as well because of that. I have had issues with harassment at work. And I have suffered a lot internally with things like anxiety and depression. Or dysphoria as well. And some of that has been as bad as I’ve ever had in my life. But the difference has been that it’s usually short lived. There is always a path to understanding and forgiveness. It’s always for the sake of forward progression. And even though all that bad has happened it’s still been the best year of my life! 

 

So here’s a day early transition Tuesday pic. August 5th 2018>August 5th 2019. Barely any makeup either side. And I think there’s some change? Idk. Not at all enough for me, but with a year of med changes and low e high t numbers, I am at least content and excited for this next year! Hopefully there’s lots to come still! ??

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Oh one last thing I think is important to mention is the fact that I don’t get “sirred” anymore. At all. Usually not even on the phone. Although sometimes that does happen. But irl I am ma’am now 100%. Don’t think I pass yet but at least enough to keep the boy pronouns at bay. 

 

Also the memory of who i was is already fading for everyone close to me. I find it hard to remember male me at all now. The feelings and emotions of that person are gone and they’ve been replaced by what I feel and think now. And I think it’ll continue still. My wife even says she struggles to see the old me. And my kids are well past that. As are the friends that stuck by this past year. Before too long that old life will be a memory and that’s pretty crazy. Especially to see it so soon like this I think. But it has. The only time I feel that part of me is if I’m drinking heavy. Then I can feel old me creep in. But that barely ever happens. 

Anyways if anyone has questions please feel free to ask. Maybe help shed some light on a topic. ???‍♀️?

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Congratulations Kirsten.  I knew you'd break through and do all right.  Keep on moving forward! 

Jani 

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Congratulations!!! ?????????? That’s great! Wonderful to hear about all you the great news on Your Journey! Both pics are amazing, but I must say that the one in green looks especially nice, and that eyebrows are on fleek! I hope the days, months , and years bring you even more joy!  

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Congratulations girl! Im hitting a year this month! Loving life now. You look fabulous! ♥️♥️♥️

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@Kirsten You've made some great progress over this past year and it shows.  You're an inspiration to many of us including myself.

 

Susan R?

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Thank you so much everyone! It really means a lot! ??

And congrats to everyone else who’s coming up on their 1 year marks as well!! That’s really awesome! Too bad we couldn’t all get together for a party! Lolol. It’s been just as helpful to me seeing all of your posts as well. It’s a great thing to know we are all together in this sometimes difficult process. So thanks for sharing as well ?

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