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For Adults only, I hope i am not offend anyone but is normal to have a wet dream with 0 T

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Alex C
21 hours ago, Maid In Bedlam said:

 

 

I did. a few threads  ago in. " Hey My T count is down to zero"
 
Needs to be sorted out or corrected. Im surprised they would not give you an exact amount when discussing your levels. I know mine exactly. Well up to the last test anyway.  Thats pretty rough. But hey ho. I guess thats how they roll over there.
 
I Once dreamt i caught in a rain storm that just never stopped. (We are talking biblical here) Does that count as a wet dream?
 
haha yes
 
 

 

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Alex C

wow..My dream was me M.D to myself dress as a woman..its weird,

 

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TammyAnne

I find it interesting that someone would think me lucky for being female in my dreams.

For the longest time it was a torment, as I'd dream I was the passive/receptive/submissive partner in a physical relationship only to awaken feeling conflicted and upset.

My therapist and I have tried to sort this out. In the end I'm pretty certain it is my inner reality expressing itself when my habit and training kept insisting "no, that's not me. I'm not like that." But I am like that. And love giving of myself that way.

I don't feel very lucky. But I am trying to count my blessings that I understand myself finally.

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Maid In Bedlam

Hey Tammy. I am sad that you found it frustrating that you dreamed as female to find it brought out diffrent emotions and not the sort you would acumulate as a useful expreaince.

 

 

My expression of luck would be  and im making assumptions here. Many trans persons if they be male to female or female to male would delight in dreaming they are of the gender they aspire to. I do personally. I dont want to be male in my dreams. to which 99% now are of or are attached to the life i now live.

 

It pains me Tammy you would need thearpy after a dream.

 

This is easy for me to say but  it is just a dream. I have had dreams that play out the concequences of the desions i have made in my past which were not all for the best for the other people involved but were necesecery to advance my life. But after i wake up they linger for a while then crumble away. 

 

However i cant say i have had a dream where i played out a passive/receptive/submissive partner in a physical relationship. Ive just played me without predijuce.

 

Good luck tammy I hope you have sweet dreams from here on in.

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lauraincolumbia

I often dream that I am female. Nothing sexual, or not in general, just going about my life and I happen to be female.

I do find it odd when I remember that, as I haven't come close to starting any kind of transition.

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TammyAnne

I'm past finding dreams of being a female upsetting, thank goodness. But the conflict and upset did require some therapy. I've come to accept myself and understand myself better.

I have also awakened believing my male genitalia weren't there, being very disappointed to discover that they were.

Dreams are the canvas we paint on with our hearts when we sleep... or so I believe.

I wish everyone pleasant dreams and the opportunity to be fulfilled as themselves in living out their dreams.

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Dana Michelle
On 9/10/2019 at 6:56 AM, Maid In Bedlam said:

My expression of luck would be  and im making assumptions here. Many trans persons if they be male to female or female to male would delight in dreaming they are of the gender they aspire to. I do personally. I dont want to be male in my dreams. to which 99% now are of or are attached to the life i now live.

I often have dreams where I see or feel my genitals, and they are always male. I wish I had dreams in a female body. I've had a lot of dreams where other people who see me see a female body, even though when I look at my body it is male (which seems sort of the opposite of real life; people perceive me as male and I see myself as a woman in the wrong body). I don't know if anyone has seen Quantum Leap, but it is like when he leaps into other people's bodies. He still sees his own body, but everyone else sees the "leapee's" body. People usually call me Dana in my dreams now, even though I'm still called my male name in real life (except at therapy). Up until about a year ago, people in my dreams always called me by my male name. Now it only happens occasionally.

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Alex C

Huh D. Yeah its still hit and miss with me..Sometimes.I see my old male self , sometimes I will see my new female self..and sometimes( When I am drunk and watch to much South Park) I will Betty Davis wearing a Tom Cruise nose with Ellen hair cut and Tina Fay body

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Maid In Bedlam
On 9/13/2019 at 9:16 AM, Alex C said:

Huh D. Yeah its still hit and miss with me..Sometimes.I see my old male self , sometimes I will see my new female self..and sometimes( When I am drunk and watch to much South Park) I will Betty Davis wearing a Tom Cruise nose with Ellen hair cut and Tina Fay body

 

 

Its funny you saying that.

 

Sometimes i see Denise van Outen. Then relise the mirror is on the other side of the room. Thats just a propped up magazine. Doh :banghead:

 

You got this t count sorted out yet Alex?

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Alex C

Hey MIB. not yet..But I adding victim c and d to my diet....I hope that helps with bone strength. Thank you so much for your concern very kind and sweet of you, Much lv alex

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Ellora

Have you checked into your "0T" reading yet?

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NB Adult

I had an orchiectomy several years ago, was on a topical estrogen gel for several years, then switched to the patch. It seemed that I still had a certain amount of libido when it came to intimacy. Finally I quit transitioning altogether and am now using a topical testosterone gel 2X per day and maintaining a non-binary persona. Oddly enough, though I have lost weight my boobs are more pronounced than ever. I had initially thought they would dissipate some, but I now have zero libido. The endocrinologist is scratching his head over it. Every body is different!

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Jackie C.

I'm not sure transitioning has changed the frequency of my erotic dreams at all. I've had "wet dreams" back in my teen years, but not since. I imagine it makes sense you'd have them again for puberty 2.0. I personally haven't experienced that. For the ones I've had lately (that I remember anyway) I keep waking up before the "good part."

 

Interestingly, the ones I've had since starting my transition have involved transitioning. Without getting graphic, in the last one I remember, I'd found a way to acquire "girl equipment" alongside what nature gave me. I'd tried it out a little, was happy with the results and was headed for the marital aid in my nightstand when I woke up.

 

Dreams are weird.

 

Hugs!

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