Depressed

[JustineM]

Lately I’ve been in a depression spiral and can’t seem to break it. Work has changed my route so I’m working 12-14 hr days. I am so tired that when I get home I have no energy to do anything to make myself feel pretty. Body hair has been a major trigger for me and I haven’t even had time or energy to shave my face in a couple days.  I just don’t know what to do. Right now I’m in a cycle of eat, sleep, work. Barely even see my kids.

 

Sorry for the long depression post, just venting.

 

[VickySGV]

One of our reasons for being here is so you can make those posts if you need to.  I know what depression is from the inside, and I am not the only one here. 

[lauraincolumbia]

Why are you in a such a work cycle?  It sounds like something you should get out of!  I once working like that, 12+ hour days, 7 days a week, for several months. I had to get out of there.  I would have been dead if i had stayed for much longer.

[JustineM]

43 minutes ago, lauraincolumbia said:

Why are you in a such a work cycle?  It sounds like something you should get out of!  I once working like that, 12+ hour days, 7 days a week, for several months. I had to get out of there.  I would have been dead if i had stayed for much longer.

Our corporate in the “infinite wisdom” decided to eliminate one of our routes and condense our areas to make it “easier.” Well it has turned into a complete 

disaster. I’ve had some other offers including a bank that wanted me to name my price. The only reason I haven’t done anything yet is that I have a vacation coming up in a month and I don’t want to ruin it. Physically I don’t think I can do this kind of work much more, I’ve been hauled out in an ambulance x3 in the last 2 yrs.  

I guess I shouldn’t say I didn’t know how to break it, I need to get out of security. I just need to keep it up for another few weeks so I can start looking. 

[JustineM]

UPDATE: probably coincidence ? but about an hour after making the original thread post, my supervisor called and met up. Took enough stops to cut about 4 hrs off my time.  I was able to get home see my kids and take a bath. Got to make with the silky smooth

[Jani]

Well that was good.  I hope you got a nice rest.

 

 

[Lexi C]

Hey Justine. Yeah I start my own business to avoid those very issues. However, I work more now then I have every done. So I know how you feel...I happy you finally get so relieve. I know that I in process of trimming some time from my schedule so I have more time for myself which is super important for us...Be Proud, Stay Safe, and Kick Ass

[JustineM]

So a follow up. Things are starting to even out at work slowly. Still working extremely long hours but it’s getting better. Then my wife pulled something on me. We had to get my son some clothes and she snuck in a couple of feminine shirts and some leggings. I was able to take a long soak last night and clean up. Right now I’m wearing some of the new clothes and I feel better than I have in the last several weeks. Thank you to everyone who offered encouragement or just listened (read) my griping. 

[Rachael]

It’s good to hear things have gotten  some better for you. Good luck. 

[Lexi C]

Hey J.M why to kick Ass..Glad your doing better...

[JustineM]

Having some deep thoughts tonight. Kind of a bitter irony but I’ve actually been on HRT for a couple years, just the wrong way. While in denial about my true self I was diagnosed with Low-T. So I’ve been on T-shots for about 2 years. Going to talk to my endocrine about at least coming off the shots until I can start the right HRT. 

 

As a side funny, I had a random thought in Walmart yesterday. Once I start estrogen I should develop hips and butt, so I’ll finally have something there to hold my pants up! 

[Jani]

Well.... you may want to speak with your physician and stop this if there is no serious medical reasoning.  As to hips, Estrogen didn't help me in that department but you may be luckier.    I use a belt!