lately

[BrandenLeon]

sorry i haven't been on much lately.

i been diagnosed with schizoaffective  disorder depressed type. and mainly it kinda been a mess for me. i am still trying to change in some ways and be more productive. as well as taking care of myself.

i have been dress in men's clothing and binding more. as well as packing more then i have in the past. it has been helping me out with my confidence lately, but with my mental illness it makes it hard to tell. if this is what i really want. do to the fact my voices won't shut up half the time about me not being male.

then again they say that about my fiancee not loving me. so my voices mainly feed on my doubts and it makes it hard for me to make desertions for myself.

especially when they won't shut up about something like this, but they are always wrong about everything. it just makes it hard are to know, if it's something i want. i do feel more like myself as a guy.

though my brother see's me as a girl. he says i am to much of a girl. and that really makes me mad, but i don't say anything. i keep my mouth shut about it.

my father  thinks i have DID, but i don't have the symptoms for it. then again he doesn't think i have a psychotic disorder (which i do, because I've been diagnosed by a physiologist.) 

pules i been feeling uncomfortable in my own skin since i was 15 and i am 24 now. 

 

i do have a funny story to lighten the mood.

i was in the women restroom at work and i had a lady walk in. she looked at me confused and asked "is this the women restroom." looking at me and questioning why i was there.

i said "yes."

she looked at me as, if i didn't belong in there. and that honestly made my day when that happened to me.

[NB Adult]

1 hour ago, BrandenLeon said:

i do have a funny story to lighten the mood.

i was in the women restroom at work and i had a lady walk in. she looked at me confused and asked "is this the women restroom." looking at me and questioning why i was there.

i said "yes."

she looked at me as, if i didn't belong in there. and that honestly made my day when that happened to me.

 

Stick with that experience as your personal confirmation, after all everyone knows that a genetic female does a pretty perceptive job of reading others. I'd say that you scored there Branden!

[BrandenLeon]

52 minutes ago, NB Adult said:

 

Stick with that experience as your personal confirmation, after all everyone knows that a genetic female does a pretty perceptive job of reading others. I'd say that you scored there Branden!

thank you very much! i a feel like i did to!