Confused and in denial

[Damien Mcknight]

I’m confused. About everything. I don’t know who I am or who I want to be. Half of me knows I’m a guy, but the other half doesn’t know. I’m also going through a depressive episode, which makes it worse. I just want it to stop. I want all of me to know I’m a guy.

[MaryEllen]

Ethan, you can be whatever you want to be at any given point. If you want to be a guy, by all means, be a guy. If you want to revert to a more feminine roll, by all means, do that. Just be you. You don't have to conform to any given gender. Be yourself. As soon as you're able to manage it, counseling with a gender therapist would be very beneficial for you. Something for you to think about.

 

MaryEllen

[Damien Mcknight]

Thanks

[MaryEllen]

The point is, don't stress out over it. Just be yourself.

[AnnaD]

i get that too, it sucks  what Mary said is great advice though and i have to use that advice too

 

good luck  

[TTheta]

The great thing is that no one is forcing you to be either at the moment, (well I hope not, because they will eat my shoe) you still have time to explore ?

[A. Dillon]

You have no idea how much I feel this. For years, I would literally tell myself that I should have been a boy, that I was just waiting for the testosterone to kick in, everything like that, but totally dismissed the idea that I was trans. It was (and still kinda is) confusing, but eventually I learned to just do what made me the happiest, which I now know is rocking a man's jeans, a man's haircut, and a man's name.