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Tristantulaine

Here goes!

 

My name is Tristan and that maybe the first time I have officially introduced myself that way.  I was born in a body that I dont recognize on so many levels and, as yet, can't fully define.  I have had people try to define me for so many years that I have no idea what I really want for myself and that is part of the problem.

 

I hope that here I can find friendship and support as I puzzle through the jigsaw of identity that is me. 

 

Right now I would like to use the pronouns he/him.

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Jackie C.

Salutations Tristan! Welcome to Transpulse!

 

We're glad you're here. I'm going to stop short of chanting, "One of Us! One of Us!" Please avail yourself of the boards and the discord server. Join in the conversation, ask questions, participate as much as you're comfortable with. I think you'll find us an understanding and supportive community of folks who have, let's face it, been there.

 

I look forward to getting to know you!

 

Hugs!

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Miseria

Salutations Tristan, as someone still on their journey I can only say take your time and explore ypurself. Step by step be they leaps or bounds, baby steps or even down to a crawl... The direction is to the truest you that you can be.

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Susan R
2 hours ago, Tristantulaine said:

I hope that here I can find friendship and support as I puzzle through the jigsaw of identity that is me.

Hello Tristan, I think you are only a few steps away from starting to realize that hope.  I bet in no time you’ll read a story or two that ring true for you in so many ways.  I know I have.  Every journey is as unique as the individuals who experience them but there’s solace in the fact that others are trying to figure things out here like you are.  You’ve joined a forum that works hard to support it’s members by sharing our experiences, our knowledge and precious time.  You get what you put into the process so please join in the conversation whenever you can.  Thank you for taking the risk and putting yourself out there.  We look forward to reading more about your journey thus far and in the future.

 

My Best,

Susan R🌷

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Aidan5

Howdy! Welcome to the forum!! we welcome you with open arms and minds! :)

Feel free to message me whenever if you ever need someone to talk to, or just need a friend :D

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Tristantulaine

Thank you all.  I have been reading through a few threads already and I like how diverse this community seems to be.  I am glad to be here with all of you!

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Susan R

We are lucky to have you.  You not only add to that diversity but you help continue to build our little community.

 

Susan R🌷

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Carolyn Marie

Welcome to Trans Pulse, Tristan.  I hope you find what you need among these forums and topics, and make a few friends along the way.  Most people come here confused and unsure about what they want, who they are and how to get from point A to point B.  I think this place will help you find yourself, as will a good gender therapist.  I look forward to reading what you have to say.

 

HUGS

 

Carolyn Marie

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Timber Wolf

Hi Tristan,

Welcome to Transpulse. I'm glad you're here!

 

Lots of love and a big welcome hug, 

Timber Wolf 🐾

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TammyAnne

Hello and welcome Tristan!

This is a nice, safe place with friendly caring people. You'll feel right at home in no time!

TA

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KathyLauren

Hi, Tristan, and welcome.

 

I am new here myself, having only just signed up yesterday.  I am farther along in my transition, but I well remember the first time I signed up on a forum and started questioning who I was and what I wanted.  I think all of us are there at some point in the journey, so you are in good company.

 

Regards,

Kathy

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