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Kellysinclair101

Giving up is to easy ( not )

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Kellysinclair101

I gave up on my dream once . Over the years its been a constant  depression  . Im tired of giving up . I dont know how but if theres a way i find it . Some things  you just cant get rid of it like a itch  you cant scratch  it just gets  bigged to the point you cant denie what  you are . That were i am now . So if it ment to be ill well become  what i truly  am for once  .  Prayer  welcome  hugs 

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Carolyn Marie

Kelly, most of us have times when we've put our dreams aside for one reason or another.  Sometimes we put them aside for years thinking we'll never see them come true.  But then something happens and they do come true.  You have to keep hoping and taking whatever steps you can, when you can.  Journeys can take years, but every journey starts with a dream.  Please keep your dream alive.

 

HUGS

 

Carolyn Marie

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Jackie C.

I gave up on a lot of dreams sweetie. Fortunately, transitioning and becoming my authentic self has helped me wake up and start reaching for them again. Maybe someday, but you can't give up hope.

 

Hugs!

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