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Guest Corrine

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Hello everyone, my name is Corrine. I am a 48 year old MTF transsexual.

There - I did it. I actually typed the words that have been whizzing round inside my head for Lord knows how long. My hands are shaking as I type. I've only just really accepted the truth and it's taking some getting used to.

I live in the North East of England were old fashioned values and prejudice are at circa 1975 levels. On top of that - I'm married. Not very happily, unsurprisingly. No kids - I did not marry until I was 41, which is just one piece of the heartbreaking jigsaw puzzle my wonky life has been until the penny dropped.

Looking back it is so obvious why I was never happy growing up. I experienced all the classic symptoms but had absolutely no clue what was happening or why. Lately it all started to make sense. My dalliance with crossdressing, years ago (more on that later) and why at the time it felt just so right and perfect but yet I ran away from it, not wanting to admit what my mind and body were telling me (I so wish I hadn't). So many things not right, so many clues and that feeling that something was way wrong but not knowing what until now.

My world has just completely flipped 180 degress and I feel like I woke up for the first time and I see the world with new eyes. Was it like that for anyone else when they realised?

Anyway - I hope to get to know people on these forums. It is an immense relief to be able to talk to people, albeit through a clumsy medium like this, who know how I feel.

Love to you all,

Corrine

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Welcome Welcome Corrine!!!

Welcome my MTF transsexual sister!!! Now, doesn't that feel good to hear someone say that??

Sweetheart you an I are the same age. I am sure we have much in common!!! Look at my profile when you get the chance.

You are now in good company, and among friends. Sweetie after 5 posts you can use the PM system here to communicate with people like email. Aslo Laura's has chatrooms too!!

Now come right on in and hang with me as others come and greet you too.

Post to the forums hon!!!

HUGS

Brenda

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Guest Donna Jean

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Hello, Corrine!

So very nice to meet you!

Hey, I was getting another plate of Sally's cookies and some hot coco and I'll get you all fixed up so you can relax and get all comfy!

There!

Now....

I see that you met Brenda...sweet, eh?

We all break out at different ages...I came out last year at 58......now I'm far along into HRT and becoming extreamly happy!

And I'm a MTF Transsexual, too.....!

Now you've met two of us besides yourself....

See? You're not all alone.

Welcome to the Playground, Sweetheart!

Glad that you found us!

Huggs....

Donna Jean

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Welcome Corrine, I know what you mean about the shaking hands...I used to tremble so much (especially when doing my introduction) as I typed...half fear and half excitement about finally expressing myself. You'll meet some really great and supptortive ladies and gents here who can definitely sympathize with you.

Hugs

Jaymie

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Guest Corrine

Guest Corrine

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Thank you all for the lovely warm welcome!

Bernii, when I read the word sister, well, it also feels so good to know I can say I cried and not fell embarassed or ashamed.

Loads of confusing thoughts and feelings running through my head right now so I might not make much sense at the moment so apologies up front. Perversly everthing makes perfect sense. Why I could never fit in as "one of the lads". Why people keep telling me I would have made a wonderful nurse. Why to this day I can never ever no matter how much I wriggle and pull at them I can't get my Y fronts into a comfortable position ;o)

I can't tell you how lovely it is to meet you. I don't feel alone anymore.

Love to you all,

Corrine

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Guest Erica A

Guest Erica A

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Hi Corrine,

I too have just joined Laura's Playground and have received such a warm welcome from everybody here that it just touched my heart deeply. Don't ever despair about your age. I didn't come out of hiding until I was almost 51 years old, but made up for lost time very quickly going from the back of the closet to full transition and living full time as me in 20 months.

I know how hard it was for you to type those words for the first time. I knew from a very early age, but it was something entirely different to actual express them either verbally or in writing, but it does feel good to just get them out and into the open. The important thing is that you have come to grips with the reality of who you are. A very important first step!

Once again, as a fellow new comer here, welcome. If I can ever be of help, please do not hesitate to contact me and enjoy the cookies and hot coco. Mine were delicious! :D

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Hi, Corrine! I see you've met some of my favorite sisters here. Wonderful women, every one.

You've come to what we like to think of as the friendliest, most inclusive TG support site anywhere.

I was really shy at first too. Like you, I had never told anyone in the world how I felt. The relief at being

able to discuss it was overwhelming. So I know exactly how you feel, Hon.

We're very glad you found us. Now your journey really begins, and we get to share in it. Yay!

Carolyn Marie

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Enjoy your journey and now you have some of the greatest travelling companions you could ever hope for..welcome to the world of 'bonding' and friendship.......Mia

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