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Guest Mike.N

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Hi Y'all, I'm new here and I'm glad I found this site. I read a few of the topics, and liked the support that was gave for ppl that needed.

So let's cut to my problem, I was born a girl but I never felt like one , I've always been a boy. When I was little my mom kind of forced me to wear girl clothes and I didn't had a choice then, but as soon as I became a teenager I started to wear what I wanted and act like I wanted and my parents got used to the fact for now, that I'm not gonna change but they are still waiting for me to grow up and act like a woman. I'm 19 now so I look pretty much like a boy, I have an athletic body because I'm practicing judo for eleven years so I don't pass as a girl anymore for those who don't know me and that's great but the worst thing is when I have to show an ID I get embarrassed.

So the main thing is(and I hope ur not asleep or on the verge of falling because I've rumbled on so much :P ) that I'm terrified of coming out to my friends and family, because I've never threw them a clue about me being a trans, except maybe they could figure for themselves by the way I look, but I guess they think that I'm just a tomboy and I'll change in time, and so it's with my friends they all see me as a girl. So I just think that they may think i could be a trans but are denying strongly. Don't know what scares me the most the fact that when I'm gonna tell them they will just be mad at me forever or would think that I have some kind of a mind illness.

Thank you to all of u who read my story and please tell me ur opinion.

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Guest shotgun_sinner

Hey Mike!

Welcome to the playground.

Mama Sally should be here anytime with a cold drink, maybe some cookies or pizza... So pull up a seat and we'll chill 'til she gets here! :P

hehe, that kinda sounds like me! so totally know where you're coming from. I get the whole "You need to dress more in style. How else are you going to get a guy/get a good job/succeed in life." :lol::P my mom doesnt like that I wear guys clothes but it could be worse... Of cource you're not going to change. That isnt who you are! Everyone here is totally kool and understanding of that!

I'm 18 about to turn 19! WooHoo! Are you in college yet? Thats where Im at. Its so much better living on my own now.

So wish everyone took me as a guy. Some of the people here that I've come out to still call me Megan or introduce me as 'the chick that wants to be a dude.' :P Told them so many times my name is Leigh...

Coming out is one of the most difficult things we can do. Another is getting people to accept it. (and call us by our real names :P )

Do you have any idea what your friends or family think of the trans community in general? It may be easier to tell them once you know their opinion... But I shouldn't talk! hehe, Im not even out completly yet. :P

So, lets chill-ax. Wait for the more informed about life people to get here. Promise they'll have some good advice and nice welcomes!

~SS

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Hi Mike,

I just dropped in to get the virtual ovens fired up today - I start baking the cookies about now but I notice that Shotgun has been by and told you that I'd have pzza - good news the pizza ovens are still warm from last night so it won't take anytime at all and we do have cold drinks so have a seat in the members lounge and we will have a few dropping by pretty soon.

As you have noticed we are a global site so people come and go all day and all night so keep checking back to see who else has come by.

We have a teen's forum and you are welcome in all of the forums, take advantage of all of the resources here.

Welcome to the family.

Love ya,

Sally

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Guest Donna Jean

Hey, Mike!

What it is?

Nice to come on here an see that you've joined up!

No obligations...just to enjoy yourself and have a good time with all of the wonderful folks....

HEY, SALLY! How 'bout a pice of that pizza....smells good!

Kick off your shoes and get comfortable, Hon...we're REALLY glad to have you!

Huggs!

Donna Jean

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Do you have any idea what your friends or family think of the trans community in general?

Well I know that they are familiar with the concept of sex transition, and we've watched together some show about a trans woman they didn't seem to have any reaction but their faces kinda told me "come on this is a joke, this is not natural" they are a pretty traditional folks who I think doesn't accept so easy this kind of stuff.

But i can't picture their faces when I'm gonna tell them...I'm quite sure that would be like something just drop from the sky on them :lol:

Well about college, in my country it's called University and don't know if it's the same thing what u call college in the US. The main idea is that I'm first year in the University and it's gonna be even harder for me to tell them...Anyway thanks for the reply:) and for the wlcome

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Hey, I smell PIZZA! Yay!

Hi, Mike. Let me add my welcome to those of Leigh and my sisters.

This is a great site with a lot of resources and some fantastic members. Please do look around

the forums and the chat rooms and make yourself at home. We welcome everyone and

all are free to express their opinion. All we ask is that you familiarize yourself with the site rules.

I hope you make a lot of friends here. We like to do that, you know?

Carolyn Marie

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Guest ~Brenda~

Hey Hey Mike!!

Welcome to Laura's!! Glad that you have come out to us!! Take things slowly Mike. Everything will be OK. Don't fret about coming out to your friends. In time, you will know when to come out. Let coming out be natural, not forced.

HUGS Mike,

Brenda

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Let me tell you something that I have come to realize-they already know even if they wished they didn't. I been a boy since I was 5, now and again-I'd be forced to be femine. Once I got prego-I thought I HAD to be female then and was so for few years. I finally came out of the closet last April or May to everyone. Know what their response was? Even my family and high school buddies? "Already knew you were TG, just waiting for you to say it from your mouth." I thought they figured I was a tom boy-not TG, but most likely everyone around you already knows your TG, even if they don't like the idea and won't admit it. You're right-they already know.

You got to be you and that's all there's to it! It's your life, in the end, what counts is you feeling you had a happy and best life you could have led, doing the things you loved doing and being with the people that loved you for you and accepted you for you. IF they don't like what you are, or shun you-then they're not worth your tyme or heartache. It might be hard at first for some-don't give up on people, but like I stated-don't pretend anymore-it's not helping you or your friends/family out. In fact-it's harming you all more than doing any good. I wish you the best of luck! Keep us posted on what happens!

-Mick

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Thanks to all of you, I really feel like I've already found some friends that understand me...And u bet I will post some more, I have to get this load of me cause otherwise

I'll just go nuts :lol:

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