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[Guest xBrandyx99]

ok, first of all you can call me Brandy, im a 19 year old guy who is androgynous?.. think thats what its called. i found this site a few months ago and am just not gaining the guts to get on here. so this is all kinda new to me. well about my story, where to begain. ok so as long as i can remember iv had a problom with who i am. i remember cross dressing as young as 5 or 6 and even before them i would pray to one day wake up a girl. well i never thought much of it as i was growing up because i didnt find guys atractive, i never realy thought about doing anything with a guy so i didnt pay to much attention to it. well when i got to be 12 i had an opportunity to mess around with a guy and i thought well hey why not so i gave it a try. it was kinda wierd at first especaly since the guy was my best friend so i kinda distanced myself from him. i still saw him ever now and then and out of thoughs few times we ended up messing around a few more times and i couldnt help to think that i liked it. i didnt understand it because i still wasnt attracted to guys but i still had an urge to be a girl and cross dress. well about a year after first expeirimenting, i ended up going all the way with one of my other guy friends. after that i was in total denile till i was 16 and in that time i only messed with the first guy about twice. all the time that i was in denile i couldnt help thinking about how amazing it felt and i just couldnt stop thinking about it. well im 19 now and i know who i am i just dont know how to go about expressing myself. i crossdress all the time and im very femanin but i have to hide all of that when people are around. ya iv had a few friends and gf that i can be myself around but not many. so from hear i would love to get on low does hormones to see if i like the change and go from there. i am also very thank full to have a wonderfull girl friend that loves me for who i am and supports me in what ever i decide to do. i dont know how id go on with out her. well that bout it. if ya wana know more message me or some thing. hope fully i can figure out how to repley. well ya peace

[Sally]

First I would like to welcome you to the forums at Laura's playground.

So, Brandy come on in and have a seat in one of our comfy chairs, I'll bring you a plate of my fresh baked cookies and Donna Jean is right here with a cup of hot cocoa for you.

Now you mentioned going on low dose hormones so I will stress to you one of the most important rules here and that is we never discuss dosages and we urge everyone to see a therapist who specializes in Gender I dentity Issues - never do any hormones without a Doctor's suppervision because it is very dangerous.

Others will be along soon so you had better take a couple of extras.

Welcome to the family.

Love ya,

Sally

[Paula ult]

Welcome Brandy to Laura's Playground, please listen to Sally's advise, hormones are dangerous and can be deadly if not prescribed and monitored by a doctor which includes your blood levels monitored on a regular basis.

As Sally said find a gender therapist and work with them, since you say you are androgynous and cross-dress but have to hide it from people, hormones after awhile will make things harder for you to hide, facial features will soften, you will more than likely develop breasts, after a time these become irreversible, that is where a gender therapist can help you determine if you are just a cross-dresser or MtF trans.

I am not trying to discourage you, i only want you to do this the correct way. There may be a point where you feel comfortable without going farther, that is where you want to get to.

HUGS!

Paula

[Guest rachael1]

Welcome to Laura's Brandy.

You'll like it here as the people are friendly and the advise is second to none.

Hugs

Rachael

[Carolyn Marie]

Brandy, hello and welcome to Laura's. BTW I've loved that name ever since that old song came

out in the 70's. I'm sure you know the one.

Well, you've got your plate of cookies and something to drink, so relax and enjoy!

You'll find that this is a great place to learn and make friends. We have a teen forum that

you should be sure and check out. If you can't find answers to any questions, please do

post them yourself. We will all do the best we can to provide honest answers.

Be sure and also check out the chat rooms if that's your thing. It's pretty hectic in there

but if you are fleet of finger you'll fit right in.

Carolyn Marie