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Guest Jackson

This very instant?

I'm up in my bedroom in my old farmhouse at the desk in a sweatshirt and flannel pants and wool socks just about to go to bed early. I was out all weekend playing soldier and fighting a 150-year-old war. It was raining and in the forties all day yesterday. Today was nice and sunny, but I've still got a chill. I'm afraid I may be getting sick since I have had a severe headache all day and my allergy/decongestant medication didn't work today. In about fifteen minutes I'm going to take my dog out for the last time and go bury myself under the blankets and sleep until I can't sleep anymore since I have the day off tomorrow.

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Guest Kimburly

Hi, Lydia, and thanks for asking!

Fairly content at the moment, with the woodstove keeping me warm and John Coltrane on the stereo, a fine meal settling and good company on the 'puter. I shall wake up tomorrow with a great attitude.

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Guest Robin Winter

Can I do this a second time? Ok, good...

Right now I'm pretty pleased. As soon as the little one is asleep my wife and I are giving each other pedicures!

Foot spa, moisturizers and pretty painted nails. *sigh*

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Guest Natalie92

I'm sitting on my bed watching South Park and listening to "Shining Star" by Earth Wind & Fire while waiting for my blanket to come out of the dryer in an attempt to get rid of my stress before I have to take on a whole new weeks worth of it.

Natalie

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Hi, I'm A.S.

Sitting on my bed typing and checking some messages to see what I had missed since Oct 2.

I am wearing sweat pant and white tank top (really getting ready to exercise in few hours). I am FTM Cross-dresser (not to pass yet because i just find myself not ready to pass.)

Following my doctor's advice on losing weight and try to quit smoking cigs. which quitting is a hard thing to do.

How are you at this moment and hope you have a great day.

A.S. or Ami.

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Guest Jess_W

I'm at my computre at my house getting ready for work, i'm doing ok, a little down because a family member i thought would take my coming out to him okay, on the fact that he's gay, better didn't react so well, sort of put me down like i was playing some "game"...

anyway gotta get my pants one and go play with dogs fora few hours, love my job!

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Guest Tammy Maher

I am very tired, but extremely happy at the same time.

I had my first cast/crew meeting for my copllege's production of grapes of wrath. I learned at that meeting that I will be the sound board op....... !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Basically what that means is some huge don't **** up responsibility. The board is brand new and never been used. The show has a couple 10K being put into it. So basically I am a freshman with limited experience in general and they gave me that kind of power in the show. XD

So I will end on my happy note before disclosing the bottomless pit below that happiness of despair and depression.

^^/

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I'm currently on my side, in my bed, curled up in a blanket with my laptop in front of me procrastinating. I should probably be studying, job hunting, and doing college application stuff but I feel like my time right now is best spent winding down from my currently failing job search.

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Guest Donna Jean

Just got an e-mail from an old friend from the past!

Haven't seen him in 20 years...he is coming to see me tomorrow!

I've told him that I am Trans, but, he's never seen me that way...

So, tomorrow...best top, makeup, shoes.....yadda, yadda, yadda.....

And I never hugged him in male mode...that changes tomorrow!.....LOL!

I'm in 7th heaven.... (what ever happened to 6th and 8th?)

I can't wait.....

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Guest OneOutOfnOne

Thank you for sharing, everyone!

My moments have been rather dark since last night, so I am more than glad to share in some of yours.

Right now I am at a computer in a library, where I feel utterly emotionally exhausted. Bits of Scriabin's Poem of Ecstacy are running through my head, which I recently listened to, hopeful that the title would indicate an ability to improve my mood, which, for as great a piece as it is, it did not. My mind is set apart from my immediate surroundings, as though the people in the room, this table, my books, none of them are real. I am terribly hungry, and mean to return home soon to fix this.

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Guest Natalie92

So... and update:

I have just done 3 hrs of homework and STILL haven't started on my AP Government Project on the VA Governor's race thats due Thurs. Uggh, why didn't I listen to my friends when they told me I was crazy for taking 4 AP and a dual-enrollment (college class taught at high school, gives you BOTH HS and Comm. College credit) classes? It's enough to push me over the edge.

Natalie

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I am in a rather good mood tonight and in a very good place - almost too excited to sleep but I am going to try.

Tomorrow I have my first session with my therapist since I started on hormones almost 7 weeks ago and the first since I went to Memphis and actually got some of that real life support that she has been wanting me to get.

Love ya,

Sally

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Guest Jess_W

well im back at my comp at 2 in teh morning wondering why i'm up, whent to bed at like 9 then woke back up at one, jeez, feeling good though, experiment with make up earlier today went well, made me feel nice

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*hugs Lydia* I like this thread!

I am feeling pretty good today, I started going out full time in Fem mode this week. I duno if I will keep it up or not, as I am not on hormones yet. But it feels good to just be myself while I do my shopping. So far no funny looks or comments that I am aware of, YAY! B)

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I'm sitting alone at home during the first cold day of the year listening to gaudy neo-classical music and browsing through proana sites while drinking ice water.

I'm also wondering what'll happen if I get kicked off my health care plan and run out of hormones.

This is a good thread idea!

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Guest Steven22

Just had a bit of creative inspiration, I was listening to my playlist and watching, Alexis's Video log and while it was on, "Call the Ships to Port" (Covenant) started playing, so I wrote a poem, that I titled "A sailor's Journey. I might post it later after I edit it. ;) , Now I need to start my homework.

-Lauren

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Sitting down in front of my laptop listening to Korean music. Numb sadness hits like a cloud from a comment a friend makes, as though my sadness is nothing compared to hers when it can't be compared. My dog lay beside me and he brings slight comfort. Not a great deal of it but enough to bring me to neutral stability. Although I am somewhat tempted to get angry at him for his annoying licking. My lizard sits on his rock, sunning and the friend to whom I blurted out my troubles to has still not responded back. I am not sure whether I am relieved or saddened... Nor am I sure if I can deal with her yet.

So instead, I am typing on my forums, including this one, and attempting to retreat into my roleplaying.

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Guest Mr.Yoav

Hello, I am Ben (although my user name says Yoav) and I am sitting home alone on a cold October night studying me Hebrew, which is something I dearly love. I am wearing jeans, a Berlin t shirt, and and black sweatshirt. My kippah, which I wear when I study Hebrew, is also black suede and it has a border of Jerusalem on it. I need a hair cut, but I don't go for another few weeks.

School is going great, and I have found great joy in Geometry. And I hope all are well. I love this place! (yeah.... bit of over-happiness going on here... lol)

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Guest Elyncia

This very instant? :o

Well! I'm... um... kinda chilly, actually. And hungry. But happy :D. I like being on this site.

Hrmmm... I think I'll go make some hot tea. It always has its way of warming the insides, and soothing the body... It's like a hug in a mug!

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