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so lol, i guess a small intro

My former name is/was ****, its still my legal name and for that matter i'm not really girly yet so many people still call me taht lol, i plan to start my regiment of hormones when i get the money to visit a doc about it.

anyway here's a small bit about me

born in colorado, moved to the guts of texas before i could remember, i've always had a tendacy to feel romantic towards the same sex as i did the opposite sex, i dunno if genes play the part as some say, but i was bisexual at birth

just a bit shorter, still since i was a young kid, i've always wanted to be pretty like a girl, felt girly, you who felt it when yall where young new how it was, i flet more with girls than anything, like i was born into the wrong sex.

being born in a far right wing republican family in the gut of texas was hard, when i started showing my femenem side in my christian grade school, or my tendency to flirt with boys rather than hang with them, at least i was repremended, sometimes i was punished with time outs and such.

I learned at ayoung age what i was, was wrong... sinfull. i came out as bisexual around the same time i quit christianity, at age 13, and only to very few friends and family members i could trust, mostly cause they where gay or such.

i still kept my fem ways to myself, even quited on the net, it didn't make me happy to do so though. I became a pagan and found out how good it felt to be free-er and more open from other x-christian friends, i opened up my bisexuality more, told mostly everyone that mattered, but still i wasn't myself.

not too long ago i struggled with this side of me, wanting to be more fem, how far i wantd to be fem, how fem i really was. Was i willing to leave it hidden with only a few clues, the natural sway of my hips and closeness of my legs i've had sinec i was young, the love of my long hair brushed a little different than a man's.

no, i decided, for now i'm going to be more fem, and be more open, it''ll make me feel better if anything. Hell if i know how i'm going to come out about that one to mom lol....

but that dosen't matter, because i'm happy, and for once in my life being myself.

Jessica Kristi Winters

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Guest Amanda joan

Hello Jessica,

I am glad you are here with us.

This is a wonderful place full of friendly helpful people.

I have brought you some chocolates, so sit down here in the members lounge and let's talk.

I know how you feel because my story is like your story. I waited a lot longer to come out with it to everyone. Well actually still working on that. Any way your are doing a good thing. Let Jessica out into the world to live the life she deserves to live. I want you to know that after you post 5 times you can PM-private message other members. We really want to know all about you. So post ask questions and have some fun. We like to have fun here. And if you are like me sometimes I blush after I hit enter but, what the heck we are all friends here, so let it all hang out that's what I did and I feel great about it.

I am glad you are shaking up Texas. You can teach those cowbots a thing or two.

You go Girl!!!

Peace & Love Amanda

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Guest Jean Davis

Welcome Jessica

So nice to meet you. I'm sure you'll meet a lot of new people and make a bunch of friends here at Laura's. And the best way to do that is to post, we love to read new opions and answer new questions. When you do that you'll meet new people and be able to PM them after you have 5+ posts. So when you feel up to it Post, Post, Post and have fun.

Hope to hear from you soon. :P

LUV

Jean

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Guest Leigh T

Hi Jess and welcome to Laura's.

You'll meet many wonderful men and women here who you can get to know and confide in, if you like. They are very understanding and helpful to your needs. They can also be a shoulder to cry upon we the need arises.

So come in, take your heels and pantyhose off, and relax. You are now among friends.

Leigh

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Congratulations for finding yourself Jessica.

Bye the way,I really like your full name sweety.Wondered where Jess came from.

Welcome to the Playground,and all the loving supportive ladies and gentlemen here.

You have come to the right place to be who you are,as you are starting your journey

of self discovery.Once again,welcome new sister.

Hugs,

Angie

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Jessica, welcome to Laura's!

I'm so glad that you have found yourself, and that you are happy and content with your new life.

We will be here to support you should you every feel the need, and welcome your input and

experience in the forums. You've found a great place to be you, and that's right here.

We are so pleased that you are with us!

HUGS

Carolyn Marie

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A Warm Welcome and Big Hug Jessica! I had replied to your previous posts. Hun, you have found soul sisters here! Your family background is just like mine. Well here you have a new family where you can be love, understood and accepted as yourself. I posted a thread on spiritual abuse if you care to read and/or contribute to it BTW.

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