Why Is It Called A Wonderful Life?

[Sally]

Why Is It Called A Wonderful Life?

By Sally Michelle Jackson

When ever I am down and feeling that the world is against me

Someone always chimes in to say, it’s a wonderful life you see

Well I just don’t see it has never been very good to me

I have never had anything to live for I just continue to be

I cling to life like a drowning man to that rope

I still manage to survive on nothing but hope

But times keep getting tougher and yet no one will ever care

As long as I do everything that they want they are unaware

Why am I punished, what did I do

Maybe I killed someone but who

Only the person that you loved and the you treated so kind

Even though he only existed completely in your own mind

You saw him as a he

And that was not to be

I was born in the wrong body, my only sin

But once I told you that signaled the end

My world has gotten even smaller with friends in my life no where to be found

Onto the Internet and a whole new world where I found friends the world round

But nothing can help those cursed at birth

Nothing will change and I can gain no worth

I have spent fifty-eight years in this endless fight

With no wins at all for nothing ever turns out right

So to all who think that it is a wonderful life I say

Open your eyes and see it’s another horrible day

One day it will end and I must say I hope that it will be soon

I am tired of not living and only existing surrounded in gloom

If in the afterlife I chance to meet the one in charge

I will be forced to ask why it was that evil was at large

Why were the nice people so downtrodden and meek

Not even on top for a day or heaven forbid a week

No the happiness was reserved for only the evil and the greedy

No time to be bothered by the pleas and the cries of the needy

So to the winners go all good things and countless treasures

The losers be gone and suffer a little more for good measure

It is a wonderful life for some

But as for me, well I’m done

* * * * * * * * * *

There are some things in life that do make me want to hang around

Like friends who know just when to call to bring me back to ground

People who I have know from afar for less than a year

Who truly care about how I feel and I hold them dear

So whenever I find myself down and out

I think of them and hear my heart shout

There is nothing in the world so dear

As a true friend and now that is clear

So now when someone says it is a wonderful life

I will try not to think about my troubles and strife

Instead I will look them in the eye and say

I think you may be right so I think I will stay

The redeeming last lines are dedicated to two of those friends who called me today, thank you so much Lizzy and Dee Jay.

Love ya,

Sally

[Guest ~Brenda~]

Sally hon,

I did not know that you were feeling low again I thought that things were really looking up for you since this past spring. You are now actively moving forward in your transitioning Six months ago that still seemed unclear as to when you would actually begin HRT. Now you are there.

I am glad that you are close to Lizzy and Dee Jay. They are real sweethearts as you are. You have met them in person, and deepened your bond with them. You see sweetie, you do have friends in this world

You have a job. You are transitioning. You have friends

Life is good!!!

Keep living!!!

Love

Brenda

[Guest Zenda]

Kia Ora Sally,

Life is 'full' of 'wonder' that's what makes life 'wonderful'

Emotions come and emotions go-

nothing is permanent and you [sally girl] should know...

It's a fact of life we must face each day-

whether it be clear blue sky or clouds of grey...

So please keep this fact in mind-

nothing is permanent change doesn't bind!

Metta Jendar

[Sally]

Jendar,

I forgot to thank you for your lovely and poetic words of comfort when I first read them.

You have no idea how much our little exchanges mean to me, some here may not remember or have been aware that we had sort of a bumpy start to our friendship but because neither one of us is willing to just write someone off we communicated through PMs and found that we were probably having the friction because we were so much alike rather than so different.

I now count you among my true friends and if not for the time differences would be chatting with you all of the time.

So be sure to watch for it because I am sending you one of those Chocolate cakes that we send as thank yous.

Thank you for being a friend.

Love ya,

Sally

[Guest mia 1]

I miss you Sally sorry I'm not there for you.

But my heart and hands are always there.

I love you sister,and always will.

Why are we born with a blessing and a curse...who knws

We are different.

Not our choosing.

But we live with it and can't live without it.