Dont Know What I Am

[Guest Angel21]

right now am feeling very confused about what i am weather i am bi gendered or weather i am FtM

some times i feel am trapped in the wrong body i like i shouldnt be female that i should be male

but i wear mostly women trousers unisex hooded tops

i want to bind my breasts the more i think about it the more i want to do it

but then i think about my family and what me being ftm would do to them

my family wont understand my mother would call it a way for me to get attention or a phase

and am unsure what the rest of the family would do

my husband is supportive and is happy to be with me no matter what i choose

i just dont know what i am

Angel

[Guest Wanderer]

Well, honestly, if you're really unsure, you should seek counseling from a professional, but when it comes to things you feel certain about, I would say the heck with what your family says about it. I know it's harder than that, and I'm in the same bind myself, but I often feel that I want to ignore what my family thinks, and that every person encouraging me to be me and just let them do what they will helps toward that end.

In the end, you'll just have to weigh it out. If you have friends and a husband that can understand, I would suggest just trying to be yourself, but it all depends.

[Guest scooby]

Angel-

im in my 40 s-i was born with a f body and hated myself for years-i was confused and had no understanding of what i was!

i did at one point think i might be a lesbian but this didnt feel right either!

i then[thought i]realised i was a transman-and then realised that i wasnt quite like other transmen aswell-and nearly screwed myself up completly!

as ive said elsewhere on here-im a cross between trans/bi gendered and androydginis-im about 3/4 male and 1/4 f-

i have a male name now-i dress as male-im on t and i like the affect its having-i look half f and half male-[this is good cos this is what i feel like]

i bind and im hoping to have top surgery-and i screeem like a girl!!![can you see what im saying]

and you know what-im happy with this!

its took me a long time to get to be like this and being myself has let me out of my prison!

i hope you can find some peace with youreself!

scooby x

[Guest jayke]

we only get one life. If we hold on to others and the prejudiced attached to them, EVERYTHING that is not part of their life or ideals is scary. If we let them go on their own journey, make their own choices, allow them their prejudice and just be confident in who we are. Then they will either work it out in their own time, or not. But, if we have let them go, then it doesnt matter what they do.

I am not saying let them go from our life. But, not holding them accountable to their thoughts and actions and just let them be who they should be. I've also found this helps them be less prejudiced anyway.

[Carolyn Marie]

Angel, I concur with Wanderer. If you are confused and conflicted, the best way to get things figured out

is through counseling with a G.T. They will help you sort through your feelings and hopefully gain an

understanding of who you are and what you need to do to acheive happiness, peace of mind and

clarity.

I wish you luck.

Carolyn Marie