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Hi,

Im new to the site. Im looking for someone that has a personal experience with being married and realizing that all there life the have been denying who they really are. Just to give you a insight to me. Right now I am not comfortable saying this but i am a U.S. Marine deployed in Iraq. I am married to a wonderful woman but our marriage is not on the best of terms right now. I have always used relationships to hide my female side more like i am trying to live my life through them. But i have finally realized my true self that i want to be a passable female in society.

My big problem that I have is that i dont think that my wife will take it well. I guess that the thing that im looking for is the right way to tell my wife about myself. Im just looking for someone to talk to about they way i want to live my life. The big reason is that I dont have anyone to talk to especially being in iraq in the military. I feel that i can talk with everyone here. Any response from anyone will be greatly appreciated. Well i think that i will have a little cry now.

Jamiee. :D

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Guest Madison_Always

i've never been married but i have heard of people who have told there wives and they have been totally excepting and they even help with their transition. maybe you could tell her that. hope that helps a little

-haley

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Hi,

Im new to the site. Im looking for someone that has a personal experience with being married and realizing that all there life the have been denying who they really are. Just to give you a insight to me. Right now I am not comfortable saying this but i am a U.S. Marine deployed in Iraq. I am married to a wonderful woman but our marriage is not on the best of terms right now. I have always used relationships to hide my female side more like i am trying to live my life through them. But i have finally realized my true self that i want to be a passable female in society.

My big problem that I have is that i dont think that my wife will take it well. I guess that the thing that im looking for is the right way to tell my wife about myself. Im just looking for someone to talk to about they way i want to live my life. The big reason is that I dont have anyone to talk to especially being in iraq in the military. I feel that i can talk with everyone here. Any response from anyone will be greatly appreciated. Well i think that i will have a little cry now.

Jamiee. :D

hi jamiee,

first thing i want to say is " thank you "

secondly, i have a SO that is not accepting at all. i want to go pretty far with my transitioning and after many years of marriage, i'm sort of afraid of what she would do. she can be very vindictive and with our finances, it could be a diaster for me. tread lightly jamiee but in the end, it will be ok for both of us. since you're younger, you got lots of time so go for it.

hugs from the usa and me,

geri danielle

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Guest Michelle M

Welcome to the forums first of all! I've never been married, so I don't know how much help I could be; but from doing tons of research, I've learned that either it will completely destroy a marriage, or bring you much closer together; it depends on the person. I can't write anymore or I'll be late for work :P but; if you ever need to talk or vent off some steam, PM me, or ask me for messenger info, I use AIM, yahoo, and MSN. I could use more people to talk to lately; honestly, because my current change in life has alienated me from many friends, as you can imagine.

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Well Hello Miss Marine,

My name is Angie. I was married for twenty three years to the same woman.

Coming out to those you love is hard...Coming out to your spouse not only takes courage but planning.

I found that it is best to approach the subject of transgenders then back off.

It is common for girls when they first realise who they truly are to blurt it out.

Obsess over finally finding the real you...And driving her away(really it can happen)It happened to me.

Your girl is in love with the man...The thought of losing him will cause her to fight back and deny.

IF,you start slow and approach this logically,broaching the subject without pushing it...She May Stay.

But...Be prepared to lose all that you love and care for,friends family and your precious wife.

All to be true to yourself.Think of this like a doctor telling you to prepare for the worst...

And if the worst doesn't happen,then Great!

Geri,you can PM me any time,be my guest.

I have been out for five years,in transition eight months.

And...My ex and i are good friends now.

But it took quite some time for that to come to pass.

Welcome To The Playground.

And Big Ol Hugs Too,

Angie.

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Im glad to see that there are other people out there that are like me Angie.

I have been reading some forums around the internet about how to come out to your spouse. (I almost got outed to early and was on a website that was considered PORN which was just a blog at work) Dodged the bullet on that one though. I have read a lot of good blogs on the internet though and they say there are many different ways to tell your spouse but the most important thing is that you do tell her cause in the long run you are going to ruin your marriage cause of your desire to want to be the woman inside that makes you happy, but at the same time you are going to not want to get caught by your SO. So you do it in private do to the way society makes people think about how a man and a woman are "supposed" to be and act. In there eyes what you are doing is wrong but you are just doing what feels right to you.

Miss Marine

Jamiee

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