What Is Wrong With You?

[Guest Emily H]

I have no place to run to,

No place to hide,

There's just too much around me

And everything is so far away.

I see these kids in the hall

They think they have problems

Maybe they do, but they sure don't act it

I'm sure its nothing compared to me.

Oh, but how seemingly self-centered it sounds,

To brag without telling a tale of misery,

Eveyone has their own problems though,

And why would we brag about them?

So lets all think of this,

Everybody has problems, in all shapes

Even if they don't see their problems,

They are their, always there.

The strong seem in complete self denial,

And the weak seem in complete self-acceptance

Don't run, some say, solve your problems

Running can only make it worse

But no, running, it solves a lot,

If you were under gunfire, would you stay?

Running would not solve it, or, yes it would?

It your choice which way to go.

My heart is un countable miles away,

As my soul lies split from here to there,

Meanwhile I slowly flux from feminine and male desires,

One of them seems to be stronger, more confusing.

All of this going on, as the rest piles on,

More work, more arguments, more places to have to go,

If only people could see the agony I've seen, then they would stop asking,

"What is wrong with you?"

[Guest ~Brenda~]

Andrea sweetie,

The first thing to understand is that there is nothing wrong with you! Your mixed feelings of masculinity and femininity are very normal and not unusual. Being transgenderd is very complicated. So know this, every feeling about yourself has meaning and is very OK. Embrace each day with how you feel. By doing this, you will open up to yourself and truely understand

There are no rules stating that you must feel a certain way at all times. Female feelings, Male feelings will come and go. They will merge. They will separate. They will always be you.

Love

Brenda

[Carolyn Marie]

Lovely poem Andrea. Lots of deep and painful feelings. Poetry is a great way to bring them to the surface, look at them, and

make peace with yourself.

I enjoyed your poem very much. Thank you.

HUGS

Carolyn