Need Some Advice

[Guest 91curiouskitten]

I do consider this a weakness, caving in or wanitng to really, and I'm just lookign for someone to talk, and vent to. Since I've started gettign serious abotu dressing, it scares me, terrifies the livign urine out fo me, I always thoguht I knew exactly who I was, I was Brandan Paul Graham, the nerdy kid with glasses who diddnt talk to anyone and sat in the corner of the room reading a book, and now while I still enjoy a good book, since I started dressing seriosuly not just to do ti but to become hapyp and joyful by it, I've changed. Contacts now, I'm usually a fun guy! Go otu and talk to compeltel and total strangers just tos ay hey, everyones friend kinda dude, but as of late when thigns havr gotten really serious, telling my mother, no lgoner just ym secret, really committing to this, things have only gone downhill, I find ymself worrying over thigns that sued to never even cross my mind, never a self-conciosu guy, when I dress I'm terrified of criticsm, I know I'm a muscular bulky guy, I dress because it makes me feel pretty, but when nisutls or criticisms sare hruel my way I cave and collpase, my left arm has scars from my wrists up to my elbows, some arent even scars yet but bright red gashes, about 25 now, some fresh, noen compeltely sealed yet and I'm scared, I dotn know who I am, I dont know whats going to happen to me, I dotn know what IS happeneing to me, I dont even know if I'ms traight, gay or bi anymroe! I thoguth I was straight, but never really cared, never a guy to go after the girl, I've found ymself fantaszig abotu myself beign the girl, and that terrifies me, I sue to be a mans man ont eh otuside, Football and abseball player, Long reciver, pitcher and firstbaseman, lifted weights at school, but then I come home and put on makeup and tights and some panties and feel like it just fits, like my guy life is just me in a guys body like I was given the wrong body at birth, and I joined this site because a friend from a chat site, Crossdrsserchatcity, told me to explore, and I've never opened up like this, ever and thats hwy I dont want this to be approved, I just need some help, some advice, someoene to talk to

[Sally]

This has been approved by request of the user, I didn't just ignore a request - we don't do that here!

So please feel free to comment that is why it is here.

Love ya,

Sally

[Guest Donna Jean]

Kitten, Honey.....

No one here can tell you what is going on in your head and heart...

That's not what we do...

We do support and help...by reading posts in the forums you might get some ideas of where you are coming from and help to work out who you are.

But feeling guilty about dressing shouldn't happen...

Like they say.."there's a million stories" and that's true, but so much of them intertwine back and forth...overlap..and you'll see things in yourself in those stories.

Oh course I'll suggest you see a good gender therapist as they will help you to find where you are. They won't tell you, but, they'll guide you to the answers.

Give that a thought...OK?

Come on, Honey...chat and ask questions....

HUGGS!

Donna Jean