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[Guest Selkia]

Well today i found out why my mother hates me soooo much...

well it seems my dads cousin was a FtM transexual....and he got the sexchange and my mom said he wasnt happy afterwards...now they said it was because he figured out that that was not the way god made him....though i think it is more likely he wasnt happy because everyone was tormenting him...my dad refers to him through out the whole story....as wooded penis...which he said thats what they called him.....well Larry (that was his prefered name) got really depressed and went into drinking...and one night he was drunk driving and hit someone and the person ended up dying..and larry went to jail...which later he killed himself...when my mom was explaining this she was saying it as if the only reason why drunk driving happens is because of trans people...and thats what she ment...now after the story she kept going on about if you are trans you are a freak...and you are a murder and you will die....she kept ranting on about how she knows i was born with a penis so i am male..and if i think that i am a girl i should stop and be a man she says that no matter what if you are born with a penis your a male and if you have a vagina your female...so i said well what happens if you are born with both and she awnsered well then the kid shouldnt be born..well after i got extremely mad at her i went upstairs..and she came up and told me if i want to be a girl i should leave...and that men who want to be girls are had intercourse up.....and she went back downstairs telling my dad that i have girls cloths and every little thing she was been picking up about me through snooping through my stuff since i was 1O...now my dad has always hated LGBT...and he has harmed me for wanting to dye my hair because in his mind only girls do that and if i wanna do that i am a queer...and im sorta waiting for him to come upstairs and go crazy on me...now..i hope he just thinks that im not trans so he wont come up..because if he does i could either end up outside in the middle of a snow storm....beaten or dead...the wrost thing of all is..i have been waiting for so long to start hormones...and im the legal age to start them without my parents permission...and i had planned to go to a clinic in toronto with my friend and start HRT...now i fear that i will never be able to because they know that theres a clinic there...and i dont wanna know what they would end up doing...well im gonna just finish this here..because i hear them complaining downstiars and they may come up...v_v i cant stop shaking...well goodnight

[Guest NatashaJade]

Selkia,

You are in a horrible situation. I don't know where you live or where you can go, but I imagine your government has shelters of some kind. If you are living with the thret of violence or worse, you need to get out of where you are and get to a safe house or place, even if it is the police station. Go to a friend's house as soon as you can.

Be safe.

Gin

[Guest DeniseNM]

Selkia I have to agree with Gin on this, if you are living with the threat of violence (and it definately sounds like you are from what you said) then you need to get out of there and right now. Go to a friend's place or shelter or somewhere that is safe. Your safety is the most important thing there is girl. Stay safe and let us know what is going on.

Denise

[Guest ~Brenda~]

Selkia,

Being transgendered is not the end of the world. Being transgendered is not the root of all evil. I am sorry for what happened to your dad's cousin, but that is not truely representative of us. When one struggles through life with this itch... something is wrong... why do I not fit in? Then one day, one glorious, magical day, it hits... My body is wrong!!! I know it!!! This is what has plagued me all of these years!!!

When you realize that you are transgendered, a peace, a peace I cannot descrbe to you comes over you. Everything falls into place.

I do hope that you find that peace hon

Everything will be all right after that.

Love

Brenda

[Guest Donna Jean]

Well, that totally sux out loud....

You've gotten the very best advice so far...get to safety...

Nothing else can happen if anything happens to you ...so get clear!

Get back to us when you can, Honey...we care!

LOVE

Donna Jean

[Guest AshleeB]

Hey honey.

Its been a while since we spoke but i want you to know that if you need a shoulder to cry on, you can just email me. Im always happy to take time out of my day for you. I just wish so badly that i could help >_< I mean, if it were up to me, i would totally drag you down to australia and have you stick it out with me but its NOT up to me... bleh...

Its awful you have to deal with this everyday. Your parents have no right to treat you like this... I think the others are right. Its time you left and stayed with someone you trust coz im scared something terrible is going to happen to you =(

Lots of love and best wishes

"Fizzy Fox"

[Sally]

Dear Selkia,

We have talked a bit about your situation before and I am always available through PMs - you know that - but this is a new revelation that is very troubling.

There is definitely the threat of violence and extreme physical harm - you need to get away, find a freind who is willing to help you or go to a shelter you are of legal age to take hormones without their permission so you should be of legal age to separate from them to protect yourself - anywhere is better than where you are now!

Please do get to safety, you can not transition if they decide to help you to 'your inevitable end' in their sight - they have the explanation for the high suicide rate among us and it seems to be people like them!

Remember, they are about as wrong as you can possibly be - you are no more of a freak than a child with a cleft palate - do they think that they should not be born?

They need to come out of the Dark Ages - bleeding you with leeches will not 'cure' you nor will continual harassment - maybe a change of scenery would do you some good, check into all possibilities for government aid but do it from somewhere else, somewhere safe.

Love ya,

Sally

[Guest sarah f]

I am so sorry for you with the situation you are in. I agree with everyone that you need to get out asap because it is not safe there. I know now that most of will lose some if not all of your family by coming out. You have to do what is best for you and make yourself happy. Please please get out before something bad happens.

love,

sarah f

[Guest Selkia]

Thanks everyone for your concerns...ive spent a few nights at my sister o.o she had no problem with it...anywho im back home right now because my parents have went on a trip for a week and my sister is watching the house...though i have till the end of the month to find a new place to live because my sister is moving out of her house to another one. so by the end of the week i gotta move all of my stuff outta this house...im gonna give a try to my friend who lives in england now to seee if i can move in with her...that way im far away from my parents....well i guess we will see how it goes and ill try to update whats going on...though alot of the time theres no internet

Byes for now...love Sel