Motivation

[Guest Zabrak]

So I need some kind of motivation to work off of - to care about moving anywere with my life. A goal of some sort. First it was school and to live on my own, I finsihed school and I live on my own. It turns out theres no work in the small town I live in and no way to make the money I need to move to a bigger town. I am only just paying rent and some food and stuck that way.

I'm so sick I feel like I'm going to drop dead any moment - I must of caught some flu and it came on randomly, fast and hard.

My computer tower decided to break on me so it wont read any DVDs/CDs. Theres no way to replace the driver for free - theres no way to fix it for free. More money to waste. I am not motivated to get it fixed. I do not have the money for a new computer.

Two people are after money from me. One of them scammed me, the other one lost money to a online scam and wants me to pay for it. Me and her had put our money together to buy something and that turned out to be a scam - we both lost our money. She now wants me to pay the money she lost. It was a year and a half ago that this happend - well she foudn me again and shes hounded on me like the greedy person she truely is. She's got a full time job and makes tons of money, I do not, she does not care. The one thing on her brain is money.

I don't really feel close to anyone lately. I mean I have friends and all, and I talk to them, but it doesn't feel like any legit connection. I have been playing a video game and my character dated another character. For some reason, I felt more connetion to that one character then I have to anyone in real life. When the game came to a end, and it was a happy end, I was sad because I would no longer be chatting with that character on my game. Does that make sense? My head is spinning and ears are popping from being sick so it might not make sense.

Most of my goals in life and the things I enjoy arn't working out for me. When things go right, a 100 wrongs come along to make that right seem less great. I am not looking for support or a pat on the back, that doesn't help things. I posted this in hope for some answers to help.

[Guest viv]

Hi Zabrak,

Gee Hun, forget re that money thing , you cant pay what you aint got **end of story**.

I would move if I were you , you got to work to get any kind of quality of life . With luck you

may not have to move far . Ive been in a similar position and had to dig deep to get myself

out of that ""rut"". You can do it Zabrak. Luv,viv ..

[Guest sarah f]

I am sorry to hear about your struggles. My only suggestion would be to start sending out resumes to other towns around you and hopefully someone will call you for an interview. That will be your best bet to get out of the town you live in currently. Sorry I can't help more.

Love,

Sarah F

[Guest ~Brenda~]

Kyle,

First get well. Being sick makes everything else seem worse. When you are better, re-look at things then. If you are still dissatisfied with conditions in your life, then it is time to address them and understand why you are dissatisfied.

You are not obligated to payback your friend because of some failed venture. You both took a risk. She is a grown woman, she just has to deal with that. Sometimes, one looses financially. One cannot always expect equity in every financial endeavor. She needs to understand that. She needs to get a grip.

It sounds to me like you have found yourself in a rut. You need a new goal, a new challenge. You should ask yourself what is it that you would like to be doing regardless of things like money. OK you have gone to school. Do you need more schooling? What professional aspirations do you have? Where would you like to see yourself in 5 years? Do you see yourself married? Do you see yourself living in a large city? If you would like to make more money, what kind of credentials do you need to be able to do that.

There are many things that can e changed in your life if you identify what is truely bothering you and apply yourself to resolve those issues.

For now, just rest. Don't think about these things when you are sick. Wait until you are over this flu you have.

Brenda