So Now What ?

[Guest Chandra]

Thanks for all your love and support sweethearts,

The last 40 years of my life have been miserable and lonely, because my spirit has been imprisoned in the wrong body.

The last few weeks, for the very first time, I felt hope for the future that I might be able to express myself as I truly feel, female. But this big male honking body says otherwise. My entire life I have been living a lie, and I hate lying.

Your support has given me the courage for the very first time to think that the lifestyle I have craved might be do able.

I feel that most of my life is behind me, as I am 48, and I am tired of lying to people. Just thinking about transission makes me happy beond control. I never thought it was obtainable, but now I do. So I am thinking about it seriously for the first time.

Thank God my sister is a PHd. she has helped me very much, but this is not a field of her expertise. She recommends that I see a GT first and take it from there.

But I know in my heart this is going to happen. Once I set my sights on a goal, rest assured it is going to happen. So to all my new friends out there , especially Brenda and co. I will be leaning on you a little more for your wisdom to guide me, hope you can help me.

Most Sincerely, Love Chandra

[Paula ult]

Chandra hon,

I know what you mean by "most of my life is behind me", i am 57 and started this journey at age 56, it definitely is doable, take my word for it.

Your sister is wise, find a GT maybe she can recommend someone, this is a long journey and many of us start out by getting on that speeding runaway train, and they lose family, friends, job etc, i took things lots slower and was lucky i lost very few family and friends and my company was ok with my transition.

Paula

[Guest Katrina Reann]

I know 1oo percent what you are talking about because I am at the same stage in my life. And though I long for SRS I would find happiness in HRT and just living the rest of my life out as a woman. I am now 47 and thinking about the past and my future. The past was what it was and none of us can change that but our future is whatever we want to make of it. And just like a teenager fresh out of high school we have to start planning out the rest of our lives. What we have to be careful of is thinking like that teenager fresh out of high school by thinking we are going to set the world ablaze and achieve our hopes and dreams overnight. We have to set goals. Short term, medium term, and long term goals. We have to learn from our past and make sure we set attainable goals. And if we truly want what we feel inwardly we cannot let our fears control us. But at the same time we must not act recklessly.

I am trying to figure out what my next step is as well. I know I need to go to a GT as well and it is sound and solid advice. And I know I will do just that but because of my situation I wonder if that is the next step or the one after the that. That is why I started my thread on my present struggle. Maybe we can figure out our next step together along with all the wonderful people here who have been through what we are going through. Feel free to PM me anytime or to add me to your friends list...Hope it helps in knowing you are not alone in what you feel...Huggsss

[Guest ~Brenda~]

Dearest Chandra,

Never forget that support here at Laura's is undieing. I will never leave you.

Take my hand darling and know that you are safe in your journey.

Love

Always

Brenda