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Hi, I'm new to this whole thing. I've always had issues with my gender, tended to be minor and getting confused especially when it came to grouping people I would think "oh cool, there's 4 guys and 4 girls in this group neat... Oh wait, that's right, I'm guy".

I have never shaved my facial hair, the thought horrifies me. I just wax it off :S. Over the past year though my gender issues have got worst. I guess it was quite prominent when I was 15-18. I had a need to be female, I wanted to be female, but never considered SRS. I just assumed I was too male, and just simply wish I had been born female to make it all a lot easier. But over a year ago now my Dad made me start an electricians cause, which I hated so much and dropped out of before I finished my first year. The shire disrespect for women, and blokes constantly talking about sex and how there such a womanizer.. It was basically a bad experience.

I think it was about February last year where I watched an episode of some program called skins, and the episode was about these to lesbians. It was such a feminine and beautiful episode, it really touched me. There have been cases before where a feminine influence such as this episode had put me into a week or so of just hating my masculinity and begging to be female before it just drifted away I guess.

This time though, it stuck for months. I knew then that I really had a problem. I got in contact with a psychologist through the NHS, but he was so manly towards me. He treated me like "one of the lads".. After a few appointments I just canceled because I couldn't tell him because, I don't know, I feel stupid for it now.

So it had been lingering with me for about half a year, and I didn't do much about it I guess. Just ignored it like always did before, but with it still being quite prominent. Eventually in November I decided to get another psychologist. NHS waiting lists... Then there was some charity event where a few of my friends were playing dodge ball but in drag. I leaped at the opportunity, and had a great day.

Due me having to reschedule my psychologist appointment, I don't have it until march the 18th now. I haven't officially been diagnosed with GID. How ever, I got an epilator for christmas (which I love despite pain), I am now using female deodorant and shower gel, I now have lovely hair free.. Well, hair free-ish with several scabs and ingrown hair legs.. I'm plucking my eye brows, and I wear female clothing.. after 10p.m in my bedroom only, because my step mum won't let me wear them around the house.. My Dad surprisingly doesn't mind though.

Finally, before I went to get the new psychologist that I still haven't even met yet, I didn't know what I wanted. Now I know I do want to be female. Just there's so much.. Man I need to beat out of me. The prize is defiantly worth it though, and I can not wait until I start HRT!

Thanks for reading about me, and HI!

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Hi, Freyja, and welcome to the Playground.

Please come into the Members Lounge and make yourself comfy. I've got some hot cocoa, or if you prefer tea I think I know where Sally keeps the

Earl Grey. Sally baked up some fresh cookies this morning before she went off to work, so get some before Donna Jean shows up and eats them all.

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Guest Donna Jean

HEY! I SMELL COOKIES!!

Carolyn is exaggerating...I NEVER show up and eat them all...only about half...LOL

How are you doing, Honey..It's so nice to meet you.

Oh, My...you've been through a LOT so far...

But, you're going the right route...getting that therapist will work wonders for you!

Please make yourself at home (because you are) and POST....POST....POST!

Welcome to the Playground...It's so very nice to have you!

HUGGS!

Donna Jean

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Yay I love hugs XD. To be honest though.. When it comes to me and food.. Well, I have a strange relationship. Some times I can go all day with out eating, and it hardly bothers me. Some days though.. :). I'm not a christian, yet I go to these weird bible readings. Some times they have krispy kreme donuts there because the vicars daughter is the manager of one, so gets free donuts. Well, I had a box of 6 at the last one, then 4 for breakfast the next day. Today I have a bowl of soup, that is all. It's like my sleep as well. During weekdays I have to get up at 6:30 and get never get to sleep for some reason. I useally get about 3-4 hours sleep a night, but that's enough. Weekend comes though and I get up any where between 12-6p.m XD.

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Hi Freyja,

<<hug>>

Welcome to Laura's Playground.

Please feel free to come over and chat sometime.

The Chat room does require another registration that is separate from from your forums one.

Please read the chat room rules before coming in, and expect a short interview with one of the chat room moderators.

One of the things that they will ask you is if you read the rules. :)

We have MTF meetings-Mon & Sat 9pm est, and you are welcome to attend.

We all look forward to seeing you.

:wub: vanna

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Guest ~Brenda~

Welcome Freyja :)

My that is a beautiful name. Now don't worry about a thing sweetie. Know that you are safe here at Laura's and you can be yourself here :)

Relax and enjoy posting

Love

Brenda

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Welcome to Laura's Freyja! Do make yourself at home and come relax and get to know your family here. You will learn a lot and find you are not alone, Hon! You will find sooo much in common with others here. And glad to hear your dad is accepting of your dressing as yourself.

Ricka

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Welcome to the forums and the family as well.

You are part of the family now and we are all here to support each other.

So glad that you could make it here - it is a strange world out there.

Love ya,

Sally

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