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Guest Danielle17

Hi all, I'm Danielle. I'm 17, and an MTF transsexual (although slightly androgyne too)

I started realising I was attracted to men at primary school, and genuinely didn't think there was anything at all wrong with it. Then, quite late on at primary school, I asked my mum what the word 'gay' meant, and guess what?! She told me that it's when a man loves another man, and that's it's VERY SINFUL! Then I 'realised' that I was a freak, and suppressed my desires until I was in Year 9 (as in 13/14) when I started to gradually come out (initially as 'open-minded', then eventually I said I was definitely bisexual!) I had my first boyfriend, a charming lad called Umesh, and told a few close friends.

Unfortunately after a few months the relationship broke down, and my parents subsequently read my emails and found out about the relationship. They cried and moaned and said it was totally wrong, and grounded me and banned me from using the computer! Hooray for tolerance!

It was about this time that I realised I wasn't just attracted to men, I wanted to look like a girl. I started small, straightening my hair and wearing some light pink tshirts, and after a while I plucked up the courage to sneak into my mum's and sister's bedrooms, steal their clothes and dress up! I LOVED it :)

I carried on my sneaky habit of crossdressing for quite a while - I didn't really get any sexual pleasure from it, I just felt... right.

I had a couple of girlfriends between 14 and 16 - I wasn't planning to get caught again with a lad. At about 15 I met a guy called Jack, who I thought was lovely but was actually an idiot, and after getting screwed over by him I thought I might as well give up on guys. Then I began to realise that Joel, a lad in my year, wasn't just camp, he was gay... and actually quite cute!

After a while he asked me out, and we went out for a while - we tried to keep it a secret at school, but after a while everyone found out - including my brother, who of course told my parents, who in turn grounded me. Wonderful.

Since then I've not had another boyfriend, but I've continued gradually dressing more and more as a woman, and my general demeanour is very effeminate. I only ever feel really happy when I'm dressed as a woman. For about the last year and a half I've been considering going full time and wondering what would happen. I started going out with an amazing girl called Suzanne a year ago, and she's done nothing but encourage me. I told her really early on about being a transvestite and she was really happy and glad that I told her. It was her who started chatting to me seriously about going full time when we move in together, and suggesting that if I wanted to pull it off and pass well I should start taking hormones.

At the moment I'm taking hormones and have noticed a couple of small changes. I've told my parents I'm a transvestite, and I'm planning to tell them I'm a transsexual after I've moved in with Suzanne. A lot of people at school know/have worked out that I'm transsexual, but I'm not dressing at school yet, for obvious reasons. We're planning to get married (as an M/F couple so we don't have to get a 'civil partnership') later this year and I am really, really happy! :D

Thanks for reading :)

Danielle xxx

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Hello Danielle,

Welcome to Laura's Playground. Thank you for sharing your story with us. :)

MaryEllen

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Hi Danielle,

<<hug>>

Welcome to Laura's Playground.

Please feel free to come over and chat sometime.

The Chat room does require another registration that is separate from from your forums one.

Please read the chat room rules before coming in, and expect a short interview with one of the chat room moderators.

One of the things that they will ask you is if you read the rules. :)

We have MTF meetings-Mon & Sat 9pm est, and Teens meetings -Sat 1pm est & Sunday 8pm est and you are welcome to attend.

We all look forward to seeing you.

:wub: vanna

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Hi, Danielle, and welcome to the Playground.

It was great meeting Suzanne earlier. You are so lucky to have such support from your partner.

I wish you both the best of luck and look forward to reading posts from both of you.

A couple of things I want to mention; this is a moderated site and we review all posts to ensure compliance

with Laura's site rules. I would appreciate it if you would take a few minutes to read the Forum Rules; there

is a link at the top of most pages.

Secondly, the word transvestite is frowned on these days; cross dresser is much preferred. Thanks!

Lastly, you had not mentioned seeing a gender therapist. I do hope that you are and that they have assisted

in you getting your hormones with a doctor's supervision. Not being monitored by a doctor can be very

dangerous, and we want you to be safe, honey.

HUGS

Carolyn Marie

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Guest Donna Jean

Hello, Danielle...

How are you?

Welcome to the forum!

Oh my goodness...you sure can do a post! But, then again, you probably have a lot to say!

Well, that's ok...you just go ahead and say it....OK?

It's nice to have you here!

HUGGS!

Donna Jean

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Guest Danielle17

Hi!

Sorry, didn't realise the word transvestite was frowned upon :huh:

Thanks for all being so nice to me :)

Yes I have a LOT to say, I'm a very talkative person! :)

HUGS

Danielle

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Guest Chandra

Welcome Danielle,

You now have found the greatest bunch of people to talk and bounce ideas off of. the sincere outpouring of love and support will blow you away.

We are glad to have you here as our new addition to our family, and we take care of our own, because the sincere caring here is as real as it gets. you will quickly see what I mean.

Take Care, See Ya sweetie Love and hugs, Chandra

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Hi!

Sorry, didn't realise the word transvestite was frowned upon :huh:

Thanks for all being so nice to me :)

Yes I have a LOT to say, I'm a very talkative person! :)

HUGS

Danielle

Well, unless you're Eddie Izzard. =3

And welcome to the forums!

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Guest Suzanne Emilia

I hadn't realised it either, so we're sorry! No offence intended!

Danielle is such a fab girlfriend. She is loving, considerate and just so so good to me. To me she's a girl, nothing more or less. She might not be in quite the right body at the moment, but she's still a girl to me. I'm excited to stand by her every step through transition :) xxx

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Hi Danielle!

I just noticed that you have been here a couple of days and no one has offered you any hot cocoa and fresh baked cookies - where are my manners?

Won't you sit in this comfy chair and I'll bring the aforementioned cocoa and Cookies.

So good to have you with us, welcome to the family.

Love ya,

Sally

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