Why Am I Still Here?

[Sally]

Why Am I Still Here?

I have seen others as they come and they go

They say when it is my time I will just know

I have never been able to figure out when in the past

I just wait to be kicked out when they get tired at last

So unlike some others who come and may go

I will be here until that day that Laura says no

So if I am bothering any of you with all of my posts

You will have to tell me that I am getting your goats

Because I have spent a lifetime where I wander and roam

But here in the forums I have truly found at last my home

So a huge thank you goes to Laura for making this place

And to MaryEllen and Petra Jane for making me space

To come here in times of darkness to moan and to wail

When my body feels to me much like a prison or a jail

And to come when helping others is my need

With chat being so fast the forums my speed

A place where I come to make my dark thoughts go away

So for the sake of my sanity and mood I will forever stay

Love ya,

Sally

[Carolyn Marie]

Because I have spent a lifetime where I wander and roam

But here in the forums I have truly found at last my home

Love ya,

Sally

Sally, that is a lovely poem. I so identify with the lines above. This truly IS my second home, and I can't imagine either

ever wanting to leave. I found such wonderful friends here, including you. I would never dream of saying goodbye.

Thanks, Sally. You're a peach!

Love

Carolyn Marie

[Guest sarah f]

I would have to agree. This is my home away from home. This is my getaway from reality right now because my reality really is not what I want for myself. I just want to experience what it is like to finally be a girl on the outside not just the inside.

Love,

Sarah F

[Guest Elizabeth K]

Sally - Laura's without you would be an entirely different place! It's you that people come to rely on. Over eight thousand posts - not a bad one in the bunch - well, a few that were a bit too sad, but those don't count!

You do not have it easy. We who know you understand that. We who know you watch your posts and jump on it immediately when 'Mamma Sally' gets the blues! You are also a barometer at Laura's - when Sally gets excited about something 'off' here - we know to take notice. When she is happy - we are happy!

I know you are editing your poems for publication - a job that unfortuately takes you back into reviewing some difficult times. But this process also takes you back to the wonder times! I wish your poems could have all the comments included with them! What people wrote - how they were touched! So much good!

And there you are!

Momma Sally! No one could EVER ask for anyone better as a moderator, confidant ... and friend!

Gushing maybe - it just hit me in this poem.

It just hit me...

I love you

[a not so secret admirer]

[Guest viv]

Hi Sally ,with poems I would say we all take something

different from them ....for me you spoke for us all at

Laura"s with this poem . I love knowing you hun, even

if its only a little , viv

[Sally]

We so often rush to help those in need, it is at our very core, the reason that we have chosen to survive when so many others have not. that we so often just pass by those good feeling posts without much discussion, a quick, congratulations and then go look for a crisis.

That is how we are and why we help each other so much but i would like to take a moment to seriously thank those of you who took the time to not only read but to comment on this poem - it has so special a meaning to me - this is my home and it allows me to deal with life outside of the playground - it has changed me and I know that Lizzy is a ware of a lot of the changes but But Donna Jean and Evan were here before me and they had talked to me and made an effort to get to know me along with several others - Skyy was one of my first friends and then Zabrak but it is that close circle of friends that give me what little strength I have and that circle is expanding.

Carolyn Marie is a newer member of the circle and one that I never want to see say goodbye and then Sarah my newest and closest friend in actual physical presence and contact (sharing a hug or two makes the bind so much stronger) of course Viv you have been a breath of fresh air - to see so many happy and helpful posts and only complaints seem to be about your computer - I love your outlook on life - now where does that leave Lizzy?

Lizzy is among my oldest and dearest friends here - the first that I shared a hug with - a special memory that can never be replaced it was a wonderful moment, Donna Jean may have been driving the van when I was recruited to become transsexual (that's the way outsiders see it) but it was Lizzy who called me when I had been so upset by overpaying so much for my hormones that I was too angry to take that first pill and talked to me, calmed me down and waited while I went to get the bottle and chatted with me for a long time to make sure that my first dose would be a pleasant experience - that is surly the definition of a true friend - I am so glad that we found Skype - my phone bills were getting ridiculous.

To just say I love you all seems such a small thing but you know me and you know how much I do love you so it is all I can give and I hope that it is enough to show how much you mean to me.

Love ya,

Sally

[Guest Elizabeth K]

We so often rush to help those in need, it is at our very core, the reason that we have chosen to survive when so many others have not. that we so often just pass by those good feeling posts without much discussion, a quick, congratulations and then go look for a crisis.

That is how we are and why we help each other so much but i would like to take a moment to seriously thank those of you who took the time to not only read but to comment on this poem - it has so special a meaning to me - this is my home and it allows me to deal with life outside of the playground - it has changed me and I know that Lizzy is a ware of a lot of the changes but But Donna Jean and Evan were here before me and they had talked to me and made an effort to get to know me along with several others - Skyy was one of my first friends and then Zabrak but it is that close circle of friends that give me what little strength I have and that circle is expanding.

Carolyn Marie is a newer member of the circle and one that I never want to see say goodbye and then Sarah my newest and closest friend in actual physical presence and contact (sharing a hug or two makes the bind so much stronger) of course Viv you have been a breath of fresh air - to see so many happy and helpful posts and only complaints seem to be about your computer - I love your outlook on life - now where does that leave Lizzy?

Lizzy is among my oldest and dearest friends here - the first that I shared a hug with - a special memory that can never be replaced it was a wonderful moment, Donna Jean may have been driving the van when I was recruited to become transsexual (that's the way outsiders see it) but it was Lizzy who called me when I had been so upset by overpaying so much for my hormones that I was too angry to take that first pill and talked to me, calmed me down and waited while I went to get the bottle and chatted with me for a long time to make sure that my first dose would be a pleasant experience - that is surly the definition of a true friend - I am so glad that we found Skype - my phone bills were getting ridiculous.

To just say I love you all seems such a small thing but you know me and you know how much I do love you so it is all I can give and I hope that it is enough to show how much you mean to me.

Love ya,

Sally

Speechless in New Orleans...

Lizzy