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No one expects a lesbian tomboy to be anorexic. It's completely contradictory to the rest of my personality. I didn't even have to hide my eating disorder very well. I went through it alone, I came to terms with it alone, I got over it alone. Frankly, it's embarrassing. In the process of exploring my masculinity and trying to make mind match body, I developed an eating disorder.

But now I'm waking up and thinking "maybe I just won't eat today" everyday. I make myself eat anyway but I'm worried. Is it possible to get over something like this without telling anyone?

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Guest ~Brenda~

Welcome Alt :)

Is it OK of I call you Alt?

Since this is your first post, I moved your topic to the introductions forum so that everyone has a chance to greet you.

Eating disorders are not that uncommon hon.

I want you to know that you are not alone and we are all here to support you :)

HUGS

Brenda

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Guest AltSpin

Thanks.

Yeah, that's fine.

I tried to post this topic and an intro at the same time. Oops. Sorry for the confusion.

Thanks for the support. I appreciate it.

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Guest Alex Blitzen

Alt,

I am also an FTM and I have anorexia. It is actually very common. It is better to have help to overcome it. As of now i am going to be going to a nutritionist and I plan to talk about it to my therapist.

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Hi AltSpin,

<<curtsey>>

Welcome to Laura's Playground.

Please feel free to come over and chat sometime.

The Chat room does require another registration that is separate from from your forums one.

Please read the chat room rules before coming in, and expect a short interview with one of the chat room moderators.

One of the things that they will ask you is if you read the rules. :)

We have FTM meetings -Mon & Fri 8pm est, and you are welcome to attend.

We all look forward to seeing you.

:wub: vanna

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Guest sarah f

Welcome to Laura's Alt. I see Alex introduced himself to you. He can relate to your problem as you can see in other posts. Like I have told him, it really is necessary to get help and put some food into your body before you hurt yourself internally. Keep on posting and we will try to help in any way we can.

Love,

Sarah F

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Well, I think that I should have offered you more than just popcorn while we watch those bad horror films together - maybe a nice protein shake or a bowl of oatmeal - anything to get some food into you!

I have quite a different problem as I am extremely overweight due to my love of food and the fact that I eat when I am depressed, I'm a 58 year old MTF who has just started on HRT about 6 months ago so I have been depressed a lot.

You have four posts already, one more and you can use the PM system - we could talk there about how to get better if you would like, I also had a few years with a severe ulcer when I was afraid to eat so I have a bit of experience on that side as well.

Love ya,

Sally

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Guest SamIThinkIAm

Hey,

Well first off welcome to Laura's. Like you, I was a self-described lesbian tomboy---now I'm coming to grips with my true nature as a genderqueer FTM. I have also struggled with eating issues and would consider myself an ex-bulimic that still has more food issues than he'd like to admit. Good luck with your personal demons.

You'll find plenty of support and love here, people at the playground are awesome :)

-Sam

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No one expects a lesbian tomboy to be anorexic. It's completely contradictory to the rest of my personality. I didn't even have to hide my eating disorder very well. I went through it alone, I came to terms with it alone, I got over it alone. Frankly, it's embarrassing. In the process of exploring my masculinity and trying to make mind match body, I developed an eating disorder.

But now I'm waking up and thinking "maybe I just won't eat today" everyday. I make myself eat anyway but I'm worried. Is it possible to get over something like this without telling anyone?

Welcome to LP! Anorexia is fairly common among transmen. I think it's probably best to get help in real life but I guess that maybe an online forum that is about recovery could help too.

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Guest AltSpin

Hi everyone. Thanks for the welcomes. You all seem great.

I'm surprised there are more FtMs with this problem. I thought I'd be an odd one out because it's typically a "girl problem". I feel rather sexist now.

Thanks for opening my eyes.

See you all around.

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