Hello

[Guest sienna]

Hi everyone, this is my first post!

I've been reading through many of the posts written and am finally glad to be here. I have struggled with the idea of setting up an account and the idea of expressing things openly... things that I have worked so hard to keep hidden for so long. But I think I'm at a point where I am ready. Hopefully I can find support. I'm excited and nervous even though I know I shouldn't be!

So let me tell you about myself. I have been dressing since I can remember -- 4 or 5. I have always loved pantyhose and to this day it has to be part of getting dressed. I love sleeping wearing them too. To me it is the most amazing feeling of a piece of clothing on earth. Anyway, a couple months after I got married I told my wife I liked wearing hose. She asked if that was all at the time and I couldn't bring myself to say more. I really wanted to so badly. She was confused, tense, and a hint of angry at first, but, she started to accept it slowly. She does not mind anymore and now we rub feet, spoon each other and I love wrapping my legs next to her. I didn't tell my wife about "everything" until the end of December of 2007 (8 years later). It didn't go over well at the time. We talked forever which lasted some intense eternal months. It was really hard. I wasn't sure we'd make it. At first it was hard to keep from getting carried away doing stuff, buying stuff, etc. I felt so free finally! It was hard for her to understand and she wanted me to take it slow. That was very difficult. Here I am though. Now married for 10 years with young kids. My wife buys me all kinds of things now on every occassion - jewelry, shoes, clothes, nail polish, whatever. She's already hinting of something for Valentine's day! I'm so excited! She has seen pics of me dressed, but never fully dressed in person. Although my toes are painted 99% of the time and she doesn't mind. I also shave my entire body which feels great. I do wish I had pierced ears, but my wife has been hesitant on that subject for years. I recently decided to give this side of me a name -- Sienna. I really thought I wouldn't do that, but it seems to give me a bit of completeness.

After reading and really thinking about what I like/want, I suppose I may be a borderline TS/CD though. Maybe someone can help me figure me out? I think I could dress up everyday and never get tired of it. Honestly, I'd rather be dressed as a woman than a guy. True, there are things I like being a guy for, but I do things like wear hose under my clothes often or panties instead of briefs. In an ideal world breasts would be nice. But reality -- work, family, etc. that could not ever happen. No desire for SRS though.

One awesome benefit is that I can work from home once or twice a week which gives me time -- which I am doing today!

So that is my nutshell. I'd love to hear what you have to say about anything.

[Guest Donna Jean]

Hello, Sienna.....

Welcome to the Playground, Hon!

I'm Donna Jean and I took the liberty of moving your post over to the introductions forum so more people can meet you......ok?

Good!

Now, sit over here and I'll get you some hot coco (we've been drinking plenty of that lately!) and some of Sally's wonderful cookies!

I'd like to ask you to take a moment to read the forum rules...there's a link at the top of most pages...

And, please understand that we are a moderated site..that keeps it safe for everyone!

I'm glad that you took the plunge and joined up!

Kick off your shoes and lean back....just make yourself at home....

It's so very nice to have you!

HUGGS!

Donna Jean

[Guest sienna]

Great! It's very nice to hear from you. Thanks for moving it over. I'll figure this out sooner than later I hope.

[gennee]

Hi Sienna and wecome to Laura's. We all have been there. I wear panties all the time and would rather dress as a woman. I'm happy tat you have an understanding spouse. It makes all the difference in the world. I love your name also.

Gennee

[Carolyn Marie]

Hi, Sienna, and welcome to the Playground!

I see that Donna Jean has got you all comfy and settled in. Good!

You've come to a great place for support and information. You can find tips on dressing and makeup

and everything else you need.

Gennee was right about your wife - its wonderful to have someone who is supportive and understanding.

You are very lucky in that regard.

You may have noticed that we have a Forum for cross dressers. There ia also a moderated Chat session

on Tuesday evenings.

After five posts you will have full member benefits, including the ability to send private messages (PMs)

to members.

I look forward to reading more of your posts.

Carolyn Marie

[Guest Alex Blitzen]

Welcome to Laura's You will find a lot of support here.

[Guest sienna]

Thanks everyone for your warm welcome!

I do feel very fortunate that my wife is supportive. It does rock. Maybe one day I can dress in front of her. I think she'll get to a point where it'll be cool. Not in front of kids though. Even so, I get depressed sometimes thinking and dwelling about stuff too much. Things like -- if I like to do this so much, why was I born I guy? or why some can get their ears pierced, but I can't (not yet anyway), norms in society, the list goes on. I have to learn to stay happy with what I can do and what I have. I've come a long way from what I could do just a few years ago. I guess I get to feeling that I'm isolated sometimes because I don't know anyone else like me. Thanks for listening.

[Sally]

Welcome to the forums, Sienna!

I am so glad that you have joined us.

I am glad to see another Texan - we have several but it is a big state so we might not be close enough to ever actually meet so I will give you a virtual hug to go with the virtual cookies and cocoa.

Welcome to the family.

Love ya,

Sally

[Guest Elizabeth K]

Sienna! YEAAAAAAA - now you don't have to be nervous anymore!

Rattle around here and find some support! We are totally non-judgemental and we usually understand whatever you have to say instantly because it applies to us too.

And 'ears pierced?" I presented male for 35 years with my ears pierced - only one person ever said anything! I tole em I was once a pirate in a play! Liked it - thought when I got a job where no one cared - I'd wear little gold hoops! You should do it - it's a fun thing!

So get situated and post! We can help you - and you can certanly help others here!

Lizzy

[Guest sarah f]

Welcome to Laura's Sienna. I am glad your wife is so understanding. That really helps. Keep on posting and hopefully you will soon realize what your feelings are and where to go from there.

Love,

Sarah F